k so for christ sakes!!!
im finaly getting my god damb phone
last week of april!!!!!!
for the love of god!!!!
lol
i saw the new blackberry!!!
now i dont know what to get
pearl or curve???

what a good day
when i woke up every1 was gone. even sarah was gone so pritty mch stayed in my bacement all day.
it dosnt feel to good to bust ur ass at work and then come home to no one

so i got off at work this morning at around 6:30...it was really easy..as always. u know gata pay the bills(and im not even kidding abt that one) but its cool
and now im making around 400 every 2 weeks just 4 to days of work.
but thats just cause they like me that much...
went golfing...sorta...well it was to bussy to get on the corse so we went to the driving range.and im a hell of alot better than last year...average drive is abt 250 to 275 yrds .but ya anyways
it makes me really happy to kno that by this time today i will be snuggled up with my love not letting her out of my arms...at all!
and me and my grandparents might buy a condo in florida in january..nice golfing there...fuck disnyland lol
this week is going to be sooooo good
i may even wair some other colors other than black(just incase u didnt notice i wore black everyday this week lol)
well im off to sleep...i kinda had a "full" day.
good night sweet heart,love you lotz and sweet dreams see u very soon...
5 down and only 14 hours to go

feeling like shit
i cant really do anything anymore...but w/e
gata work tonight...11:30 to 6Am
then i guess il go golfing
after that all i gata do is make it through monday.
i think il go buy some flowers for my baby.
soon soon.
then maybe i might get back into the swing of things...
i really miss you my love and im counting the seconds till i can hold you in my arms again
come home baby.
il see you soon baby...good night, sweet dreams and i love.
4 down and two to go

well i just walked through the dore and work sucked!!!!
i cant eat therfore i cant work...
i lost 4 pounds:( grrr i cant cach a brake

well my day was a little faster...
but i find i cant sleep anymore...at all
its really starting to take its tole on me
and it dosnt help that i gata work night...it will just confuse me even more .
i miss someone saying "goodnight .love you, il see you soon"
i guess i just have a little to much to think about l8ly..i dont kno.
but anyways...im off to work in abt 10 min... il be back at abt 5:00. mab il sleep better.
its hard without you.
but il see you soon
good night sweetheart,love you and sweet dreams....dont worry il see you soon.
xoxoxo

well i guess that i was really hopeing that today would be better for me but.... well it isn't!
i completly wasted my day away.
only mike R came over and he stayed for a hole 10 minuts.
so to keep myself from losing my mind i went out and helped my grandpa with the yard work. it wasnt really that bad i guess exept the fact that im mowing the damb grass in april!!!!! lol
and the god dam mower would die every 10 steps lol. then i took a very thrilling nap after supper and wached tv woopy!!!
still waighting for my grandma to give me the ok on my cell phone...i have the cash but shes gata sign the contract so ya.. i really hope she comes around soon because id like it befor sarah comes home. it would make my life alot easier and it would take my mind off the fact that my baby is 1000's of miles away from a hug:(...
so now as i sit here with my music makeing me sad and talking to ppls on nex/msn. i have to stop and say to myself..... dont worry bren she will be back soon and dont fret...she will b ok
well im off to have a shower
and sleep
see u soom baby....love you lots and sweet dreams...were ever you are...il see you soon sweetheart!
just think only 3 and a half more days to go

so today was a little better than yesterday night...dont wana talk abt that one k
i still have that funny empty feeling in my chest that will not go away.
i find if i keep myself occupied and do things i won't think of it, but its always there in the back of my mind.
hay y dont you try living with out the think u care most about in the whole world.
i really hope i start to feel better soon, maybe having the guys over tomorrow will help. then its friday after that so i gata work that night and sleep all saterday and work saterday night and get off sunday
morning at 4:30, ill sleep till sunday night then all i gata do is waight till monday night. then i will get my life back.
i really miss you baby, come home safe to me....sweet dreams....love you...good night.
p.s.
thats 1 down and 4 in a half to go...see you soon sweet heart

not to excited and starting work
but i need money
11.30 till 7.30 am:)

well rogers fucking pissed me off today so im now with telus :clap:

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