Some days I really wish things would have worked out for me. Things were going great until you had to move, we were so close to dating. I know I would have been happy with you as when we had our thing I was the happiest girl alive. You are still a total babe, but I know that part of my life is done and over with. I mean I still wish we could at least talk and be friends but the only time we have talked since you moved back is at that one amazing back to school party, I thought things were going to get even better from there but I suppose that was just another drunken night. Maybe in the future it will all work out and we can actually talk again, for now Im happy.
I may not have you but I still have an amazing guy, he makes me incredabily happy. He does everything right ina relationship. When im cranky he just allows me to talk about whats bothering him then cheers me up. I could not ask for more, Im more content then ever before.
Ex boyfriends I tell yeah really need to get a life exoecially a certain one.
Chilling at a party and he comes up to my friend and says " when you are drunk you are chill and fun and not attached to kelsey, when you are sober you are not so cool and attched to kelsey " NOT TRUE she is her own person you dip shit.
He sees a guy hugging me and talking to me he goes up to him and starts telling him how i talk shit about him( my ex) and how i hate him, getting all up in his face so i told him to back off, i don't actually hate him he is just an IDIOT when he drinks. I leave
the party and he goes and talks to the guy i like( was hugging) and tells him how much of a slut i am , yeah im deff not a slut.
So fuck you buddy, no one likes you ask around face the facts you aren't liked cause you are a dumb ass when you drink, stop being an alcoholic and get your head back on your shoulders. Next time you want to talk shit about me be aware I wont just rant about it kk thanks.
Mom has beeen on onee masive spending spree latley
bought be my new phone200$
bought me new hair products 50$
bought a new stove (well to us) 100$
bought best of all Simple Plan Marianas Trench and All time low CONCERT tickets 188$
bought well going to buy tickets to hockeyy gamee 10$ haha
FUCKK YEEEAH
Loving life so much right now, little drama here and there but nothing to bad, single have a few boys in mind but I am just flirting it up and lovingggg ittt.
I am starting to think this year is going to be one fackin amazing year=]
I wish people under stood where I was coming from when I try to explain something, I have never been good at explaining things, it always just makes it worse.
Ever go to bed wishing things could be different? That things didn't happen the way they did?
Well I do every day. Some times I just wish I could be in his arms again while he rubbed my back till I fell asleep then he would curl up right beside me and fall asleep with me in his arms. But I fucked that all up. Being a teenage girl and all I never knew what I really wanted, still don't , it's like my brain is a puzzle and there is a billion pieces missing. I fucked up so much during the relationship that he eventually gave up on me, and I gave up on me and him. I mean all we did was fight when we got drunk together and made each other not happy. But when I look back it's the small things that made me the happiest, waking up in his arms, him calling me babe, asking me to hang every day, laughing,tickling each other and just being our selves. But all good things had to come to an end because the bad just over ruled it all.
He now has a new "thing" I see them in the halls all the time laughing and enjoying the time they spend with eachother. I feel like she is better then me, I never truly made him happy but she seems too. It was great when me and him neither had a hting with anyone I truly felt content and happy, but then he got a new girl, and I lost it. I can't decide if it is because I wish he was still mine or because I am just being a jelous brat, I am thinking it could be a bit of both.
I wish I could wake up in his arms , walk into the school holding his hand and being happy even if it was just for an hour or happieness. I wish I never fucked mine and his relationship up, but if it didn't work there has to be something else better waiting for me right? It breaks my heart to hear how unhappy I made him, I feel so low , worthless, not wanted , but I guess that is teenage heart ache for you.
It seems like I can never get over anyone, I always have this weird attachment to them, I guess it may be because we had sex and when I have sex with someone I just get more feelings for them and when they leave you it's like well wasn't I good or is there someone better and so on.
Sometimes I just wish I had a simple life <3
First semester-
Chem11-Mr.Kielpinski
English11-Mrs.davies
History 12- changing to support block
Socials11-Mr.Jarell
Seconds semester-
Guitar-changing
Pre-calc11- Mr. Kielpinski
Bio11-already done has to be changed
Foods and Neutrition-Mrs.Small
No new hot boys BUT there is an extremley hot German exchange student in my class BOOYA!!
First semester-
Chem11-Mr.Kielpinski
English11-Mrs.davies
History 12- changing to support block
Socials11-Mr.Jarell
Seconds semester-
Guitar-changing
Pre-calc11- Mr. Kielpinski
Bio11-already done has to be changed
Foods and Neutrition-Mrs.Small
No new hot boys BUT there is an extremley hot German exchange student in my class BOOYA!!
Summer 2011 is coming to end fairly close, it is starting to get scary. I need to get my school supplies and hot new clothes for the hot new boys (if we get any this year). Need to study for my L because I still have not read a single thing and it's almost been a week past my 16th. I need to finish my bio 11 like 3 more chapters and a crap load of reading UGH. Read up on my new camera to see how it works. Last but not least enjoy the rest of my summer. I don't think there is enough time to do it all. Time just flies by.
I know I haven't done a blog in forever, but here I go.
Summer is boring at the begining as usual but i have gotten one of the things done on my summer plan, get very very drunk.
Best advice I can give anyone is don't climb big rocks close to a river when you can barley stand. Head, face first hit off a huge rock cut on my foot really sore pinky and a trillion bruises, yet I can't seem to remember everything that happened, must have been a good nighht.
Birthday party is in a couple of days now that is exciting! Going to get even more drunk and see what happens.
16 in a few weeks which means DRIVING can not waitt.
As for the love life yeah well as usual pretty non existant, oh well being single has it's up sides.
Have a summer job babysitting which means IPHONE and TAT by the time school starts can not waitt =]
As for now, off to bed 6 am comes with a long tiring day =]
Can't believe 2010 is almost over
It was really not the best year I have had. Was full of drama, pain, and tears flowing like water falls. I met some pretty amazing people, or so I thought. I figured out who my real friends are and who will always be here for me. Rumours went around I was prego, clearly I am not so thanks who started that one. I realized many things. I learnt to always go with my instinct and that every thing cant always go my way. I fight for what I love and I always will but sometimes I have to stop chasing after dreams and look at reality . Somethings just aren't meant to be no matter how much I wish they were. This year I have had serious problems with boys and trusting them and getting hurt. My hopes for 2011 is to find someone who will make me happy and not bring me down.
I really wished my hardest that when you moved back you would like me again. You can't even talk to me when I ask you a simple question. It kills me to see you happy with someone else that wont care for you as much as I did but I guess everyone has to move on. You just did as sooner as I would have liked. I wish you would look back on what we had and realize what it was. It meant something to me and I know that I am the one that fucked it up. I blame myself because I could have said yes but I was scared, I am sorry. Just wish things would be simpler between us.
Okay so I met you about 2 weeks ago. When I meet guys I am usually super duper shy but with you it was different. When I first seen you I thought this double date was going to be amazing because you were super hot and I loved your smile and your eyes. We were really quiet at first, then we started to flirt. You left for a bit and texted me telling me you really liked me, well I really liked you back. I felt safe near you . I have never opened up to a guy like you before. I fell for you head over heals. My sweater smelt like you for ever, still smells like you . It was so much fun just being able to cuddle up in your arms and be myself. Everything was great and it got even better when you asked me to be yours. Then it all went downhill. You met her. Someone better, because there is always someone better then me. You said it wasnt me it was you . Well no it was me cause if it wasnt me you would still be with you . You spend nights with her and do things with her I wish you would have done with me. You said you loved me and got mad when I didn't say it, then a week later you walked out on me, on us. It breaks my heart because all I can remember is being happy with you . You say it was the distance. I say it was all a lie from the start. She is better I get it, because I knew I would never be good enough. I gave you my heart and told you not to break it, you promise me you wouldn't but it sure is broken. I hope you realize she will hurt you and I never would. I guess meeting you was a mistake because I just set myself up for hurt and pain. It's time to get over you now since you have already moved on. Iam sorry I wasnt good enough to make you happy or to be close to you or to be your girl. Im sorry you had to find someone better.
So pretty much had the best weekend of life. Met the most amazing guy of life thanks to Jade =D It was so fun! You are soo cute and can't get you off my mind
Haha punch a bitch=D I hope he hurts you =D
Boys the most worst excuse you can give a girl thats your ex and you had sex with someone else but you say you still want your ex really bad is " i just wannted to get you off my mind" hahah you are so dumb =]
Clearly I cant do anything right or trust anyone all they ever fuckin do is talk behind my back and make fun of me iam fucking done with this . All i fucking feel is pain . You wanna sit there and be two faced well fuck you all i ever was was nice to you iam so fuckin done!
