lastwas so fucked.
and im stilll fucked on it.

fuckl last night was so fucked up.
haha i loved.

Fuck just stay out of my life.
If i want to tell you then i'll tell you.
You have know idea what im going through so shut the fuck up.
the only reason why im even friends with you is because of your boyfriend.
you fucking mae me think your my friend then you turn around and say some thing else.??
like what the fuck.
just stop thinking you can help peopole all you do is make it worse.
so fuck you.

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think that I am wierd?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[33] Who else reminds you of me?
[32] If you I told you I had 3 weeks to live what would we do?
[34] If I died would you cry?
[35] When was the last time we fought?
[36] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
[37] What song reminds you of me ?
[38] If we where going on a date where would you take me?
[39] What is in your opinion, my best asset?
[40] Do you think I willl get married?
[41] Have you ever had a crush on me?
[42] Would you ever ask me out?
[43] How much do you care about me?

What is a best friend?
Do best friends tell you that your throghing your life away?
Telling you that we cant be friends anymore becaus your " throughing your life or being friends with someone that was there when you got kick out of a place by alomost kick her ass for what she did?"
Or writing you a letter tell you what you all ready know?


No a best friend doesnt do that. thet are there for you no matter what
anyone can tell you this. You dont say im here for you no matter what. after you said " i cant be your friend anymore"

But why should i wast my time trying to show a person that i have changed that i did change that people have there stuff not to share with them but who knows. i shouldnt wast my time trying to understand why you wrote me this stupid fucking letter. when all you could have done is talk to me about it.

and now im telling you this i dont care if you read this or your friends read this but i do understand your letter but there is one thing i dont get??How am i throughing my life away?? i dont smoke pot as much as i use to. i dont drink as much.

but no you told me that im througing my life away after a friend help go through the pain you gave to me. and your tellimg me that im throughing my life away after all that??? hmmmm... think about it i wouold have never done that if you did not open your mouth. and all you said to that you cared about me when you didi it. if you cared about me so much you should have open your mouth all time ago then. but know you didnt.

so dont give me this bull shit by saying you care about me when really you dont. telling me to look back on my mistakes when really mpost of the time you where there with me most of the time. so here is a thought everything that you do will come back and bite you in the ass. So next when you want to open that big mouth of your think back and see what your mistake of opening it.

fall for a guy
doing some shit again
skipping school
and the NUMBER 1 thing
lossing a best friend for something so stupid.
and going to leave my house soon

if i had only one wish one wish at all it would be.......... making everything that i did bad go away.

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!