happy 4 months Tyson McArthur

ready or not bc i come

your soo far away but i can still feels your blue eyes looking at me in my mind , no one will ever know how muuch i still do care , i really do , i still believe theres no one out there for me but you , but time has passed ad everyone says the pain in my chest goes away but it doesnt i still feel it every now and again it somettimes burns more than others , febuwary cant come quicker you can no idea , seeing you im gonna drop to my knees and cry and cry with pure tears of happiness the last time i saw you was june 4 th imagen you have been running threw my mind since the day i met you . feb 15 would of been our 1 year why did i chose this shit hole town than to stay with you oh wait i rememeber she was my best friend and she fucked me over too so fuck her , god i wish oh wish i could it back ... stayed in bc moved to cresent been with you ... but i didnt and here i am hurting , without you , unable to delete you from my memory . but i guess it was going be this way all along , im here without you baby , but you still own my lonely mind , i think about you baby and i dream about you all the time . i cant move on cause i have yet to find someone to make as wild as you did and still do ..

god actually hate my mom

jordan you are whats missing , hollly man i miss you , i realised i dont miss sherwood park , i miss my fucking brother .. fml fml fml fml and imuemy ):

why did i fucking devlop feelings for you , you fucking playing piece of shittttt

what should i do?
i don't want to sit here and watch what you're doing to yourelf.... its tooo hard.
you can't turn out to be like him... trust me.
i love you and i can't watch either of you do that to yuorself.
YOU NEED TO CHANGE!!! PLEASE....for me, for someone... please...

when i first saw this i almost cryed , because the truth is we dont see the way our actions effect you , while were all fucked up on it , you see it eating away at us , and destroying the real us , and i never knew why that hurt you so much until i thought about it , the last thing you want is to for me to be like him because seeing what its done to them was one of the most painful things ever , i have been there myself , and i do love you more than you would ever know , your the first person i have fully and completely trusted , to me you were my first real best friend and i dont ever want to lose you . im sorry i really am , i took a look a what i am , and what i dont want to be , and its not worth the risk of losing what i am .

im sick , im hurt , im tired , i dont want to do this with you anymore , i think im finally done , the taste of those tears seem like a regular occurrence , but what is it all worth ,absolutely FUCK ALL , fuck you your mind games wont work anymore with me, i dont want to say i love you back cause those are three words you will never truly mean

i left my heart half way across the country .

im speechless , at a lost for words
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im speechless , at a lost for words
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