So i haven't blogged on here much lately, not as much as I did in the past... ever since i made my other blog I never really put anything into this one, but i feel the need to put in an update on here.

First off im sorry for everything. If there was a way to go back and change the past i would do just that, but i cant. I accept my mistakes... and i miss you more than you could ever imagine. To have feelings like that towards you is unbelivable.. but its how it is

Second off, I feel like i never gave you a chance. I want to, but im scared? nows just not the time for me to be in a position like that. maybe in the near future if you stick around.

Who sits behind you in English? Its different all the time

When was the last time you showered? This morning

When will your next kiss be? Not a cluee? maybe this weekend?

What song are you listening to? my skin

How late do you normally stay up on weekdays? like 12ish

What was the last movie you watched in the theaters? hmmm, i really dont know

Who did you see it with? probably amy

Do you like anyone? yes


Do they know you like them? yes


Are you sore anywhere? yes, my back is bitchin

Has a friendship ended recently that you wish hadn’t? nahhhh

What did you do saturday? dance, went to hannahs

Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level? Reasonable level, im not rowdy

Who was the last to call you? kyliee

When do you prefer to take a shower, in the morning or night? morningg

Next vacation you’re going on? who knows

Can you watch scary movies? fuck yea

How do you like your eggs? scrambled!

Do you want any piercings? yes i doo, tongue, && cool one in my dreaaam!

Would you rather stay at home, or be out and about? outtt

Look out the window, what do you see? i cant see shit, its to dark

Hollister or Abercrombie? really.... neither. sorry those stores are gross, i dont like the bitches that shop there

Favorite alcoholic drink? vodka, malibu, or rockaberry for suree

Last time you went shopping? likee 2 weeks ago

What color shirt are you wearing? black

Last thing you purchased? iuno a drink

Do you hate when people put “I love you” on their profiles? uhhh yeah i do. if its used in the wrong sense. if its like saying it to a close friend, or family memeber, then perfect, but if its like your 1 week boyfriend... just stfu no you dont love him you dont even know what love is.

Plans for tonight? studying... psych homework

What kind of phone do you have? some shit slide one

Who was your last text message from? alisha

List 8 people you've texted recently: alisha, hannah, sam, kylie, amy, taeja, branden, eric

What is your first class of the day? day one english, day two spanish

Last class? day one socials, day two drama


What is your favorite class of the day? drama, or english

Why is this class your favorite? drama cause i love to perform, english cause i love to write

Least favorite class? math.

Why is it your least favorite? because i fucking suck dick at it

If something awkward happens with you and a boy, do you get embarrassed?
i say fuck you, and walk away;)

Are your parents there for you or is one of them always gone?
there...

Has anyone ever said to you, "You're going down the wrong path" ?
haha yea, but i said, no my path leads me to oz bitch.

Do you remember all of the little things people tell you, or the long speeches?
depends

Is there someone you'd like to fix things with?
no, if people want shit fixed they can come to me (Y)

What were your first thoughts when you woke up this morning?
what time is it?!

Who did you last argue with?
uhh my mom

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
if they are entertaining

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
i havent really laughed today suprisingly.. so probs courtney at lady gaga last night


Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
yea, but it doesnt matter.

When did you last hold hands with someone?
like 3 days ago

Who was your last hug?
uhhh courtney?

Do you like being around a large group of friends, or two best friends?
i dun care.

Are you afraid of losing the last person you texted?
nope.. hannah isnt going anywhere anytime soon

Who was the last person to leave you a myspace comment?
... i go on myspace never so i dont know

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
uhh no i havent talked to them since it happened cause they dont matter.

Have you ever given up on someone, but then went back to them later?
yea... lets see how it turns out this time.

Have you made any new regrets this year?
i dont regret shit!

Does the thought of marriage scare you?
noo

Is anyone else in the room with you?
nope.

Last time you saw your best friend
saturday?

Is there anyone you don't know what you would do without?
yea

Have you ever cried during a movie?
yea

What is your LEAST favorite type of alcohol?
it forever will be beefeater... but malibu is pre high up there

When was the last time you went camping?
paulas backyard 2 weeks ago lmao

Are you waiting on anyones call right now?
nope.

Think back to two years ago, were you in a relationship? Were you happy?
relationships are bulllllshit, and i dont care if i was happy or not, the time is NOW

Say you marry the last person you texted, what's your new last name?
kirsten pronyk? that would be weird.

What are some things you do when you're mad?
respond with one word answers and periods.:)

Three hours ago, were you touching a person of the opposite sex?
my cat?

What about yesterday?
courtney? lmao

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
lady gaga concert

Where were you at midnight last night?
at home watching degrassi

Does anybody hate you?
hates a strong word.. i would go with dislike

Are you happier now or three months ago?
uhmmm now? i guess

Did the last person you kissed mean a lot to you?

whats it matter.

Do you think anyone's thinking about you right now?

dont care.

Have you ever liked someone you knew you shouldn't?

yeah

What are some things that you have to have everywhere you go?

my cell.

When's the last time you did something you knew was wrong?

like everday

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?

spring

Do you hate being alone?

nope.

Do you hate the last guy / girl you had a thing with?

hates a strong word.

Have you ever been out past curfew?

always

Who was the last person you cried in front of?

i cry of laughter always infront of all my friends

Do you regret dating anyone you dated?

haha yeah

Who was the last person on your bed besides you?

my cat?

Do you drink tea?

discusting

What is one thing you would love to happen today?

fuck i dont know, i dont plan ahead that far.

What side of the bed do you sleep on?

everywhere

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?

yeah.. fuck you guys!

Have you kissed anyone in the past 12 hours?

nah

How did you feel when you woke up?

i was like wttff happened last night

What does your hair look like?

on top of my heeadd

Name something great that happened Friday?

friday? uhhhh iuno i was probs out sumwhere

the last time you saw your father?

earlier today

Do you like your life as of now?

i love life.

Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?

i dont give a shit.

Do you drink coffee?

iced capps.

Do you crack your knuckles?

ohhh yea

What were you doing 20 minutes ago?

chilllliin

Does anyone call you babe or baby?

unfortunatly.

Last thing you drank?

diet coke

What were you doing yesterday at midnight?

sleeeepinggg

Do you like surprises?

depends

Are you listening to any music?

heelllls yeah

When was the last time you laughed really hard?

yesterday

Have you ever liked someone older than you?

yeah. all the timee

I dont understand why there is so much hate. I disagree entirely, I am straight and I even understand that it's not a choice. Banning their marriage is taking away rights that everyone should be given. Why does it matter, it's not your life. You can't help who you fall in love with, and they cannot change the way they are. It's a feeling and its normal. Normal to us is the opposite gender but normal to the homosexual community is the same sex. It doesn't matter, either way we are all human, and we are all one. I hate that we were shown that normal is one certain way for so long. The world is changing and we should allow it. Times have moved on. I just wish that everyone could understand how it feels to be discriminated against. I don't know but if i could experience that feeling I can't even imagine. The world might understand a bit more and life could be alot more peaceful.

I don't like to have these kind of feelings for people exactly for this reason. I don't want to go through the troubles, I don't want to get hurt and I don't want it to change and take over my life. But when I do get these feelings it means you are something much more to me then just anyone else. It hurts me cause I just want to push you away. I don't want you here. Now that I'm hooked I don't know where it will take me. I could give it a shot or just pursue my life in the same direction it was going. I don't know what to do anymore.

-my hair only cooperates sometimes
-whatta night
-thankyou durston family and courtney and taeja, i can now never look at my school the same
-greasssy! lol
-cooool got back at 6 am, thats lovely
-i miss my broomstick
-please stop obsessing over guys, thankyou:) its weird
-i love how we all fell asleep
-i dont know what to do, i want to change things
-should i try something new?
-shall i watch some degrassi and laugh at emma? sounds like a good plan
-im hungry
-i wish i was on cribs
-what to do tomorrow
-i wish i could be the change the world needs. yet doesnt everyone
-why settle things by war?
-anything democratic reminds me of inderjit
-have a nice flight:) it was nice seeing you!
-hahah i cant believe you are moving thankyou!
-im sorry your nice and all but your life is gunna be fuckeddd

-cultus lake 2010, another successful year.
-ahahaha hannah i know you enjoyed the smell of our room last night;)
-gosh darnit, that itch
-i like you, stop being gay
-hahahaha
-im on a boat
-yeaah sleepover with a beasterella!
-ryannnn
-what an idiot
-a lovely boat ride
-crabs!
-i like your dress courtney
-bus ride tomorrow
-im so tiredddd
-i dont know what to say
-why do people actually read these
-thats such a weird couple
-shitson she lost so much weight!
-omgg i missed delta
-nobody to talk to at this late time
-what a creepy grade 7/8!
-ohhh family guy
-i like his hair
-KYLE WHAT DID YOU DOO
-your kinda annoying not gunna lie
-am i stoked for this dance year?
-i never want summer to end, ever
-ohhh tanned? i think so
-i loveee this time of year

-cultus is like my home
-my family gets pre boring
-oh father you would golf with him
-i miss california
-why do i like you so much?
-is this just another one of my pointless crushes, probably
-ryan!!! yayyyy
-mom you would drive all the way home cause you ripped a contact
-ew sorry im not jealous of aids you nasty
-i cant even believe that
-im hungry
-i want timmieesss
-text me:)
-wooot, i still got my plus!
-wednesday hannah!!!!
-yes kylie, we would find chairs in the bottum of the lake
-am i stoked for the new year? not really
-i love my lifeee
-awww kitten
-a deer!
-this darn foodless house!

please slow down a little bit. I enjoy you very much and as much as i cant wait for a new year, i loveee summer. Sleeping in, relaxing, doing what i want when i want, seeing people i dont have time to see during the school year, never being busy, meeting new people, my late nights out. I would very much aprrectiate it if you took your time. i cant believe im already leaving for cultus tomorrow, another year! and then whistler! holy catfishes. this shall be amazing

-i wanted to go over
-gayyy, i wont even be able to for like over a week
-cultus woot
-i miss that shit
-kyle seriously you need to like, never snore ever again
-please never sleep on my house
-what an unclassy bitch.
-that does sound like something i would say
-why are you so much happier today?
-had a very nice sleep
-i enjoy this artist
-mcdonalds today!
-very casual, that i wouldnt recieve that text back
-that was kinda upsetting
-i missed your family
-ew. just ew.
-inder!!!!
-i havent done that in a long ass time
-i need a good drinkin night
-august seems to be my party month
-im pretty stoked for wednesday hannah
-oh god a week with you:|
-ahahaha bunk beds
-shitty for you tyra banks
-thats cute
-kinda creepin
-alisha you fail ahahah

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-justin bieber get off born to be, you werent born to do shit, you were found off youtube
-who takes fat horse pisses
-yay for plus!
-i had a nice car ride, amy try not to fall off
-so your such a dick? then your all nice?
-im so happy you live there
-i dont get that alejandro song every 5 seconds you here roberto? why do they all have long names
-yeah you rock that kickboxing
-cute slumber party
-the questions of why it takes us so long
-oh samuri
-i enjoy my novilty solo
-yeah you check out my blog mofo
-your so greasy now like what happened
-such an amazing picture
-why am i so attracted to you
-that would be kinda cool to live there

-happy brithday! you are an inspiration to me
-be who you are
-i wish we could have chilled
-eyebrow!
-hahaha oh jordan, you cool kitten "dont you have any good looking friends? yeah he just called!"
-i probably have a killer
-thankyou for taking us to underneath the raping alex fraser bridge
-4 days in a row courtney! whew! now we gotta make my music video
-im pretty sure my song lyrics are legit
-ohhh amy, just date him~~
-so norbit is pretty much the best movie
-mmm iced capps
-thank goodness i can just relax
-cultus on saturday? i think so
-get my onzie back tomorrowwww
-thought you couldnt chill for 3 days! lol
-im suprised you havent texted me for awhile
-im starting to miss you even more, come back
-kyle, you arent very smooth with the ladies
-thats kinda creepin, a note in your wallet?
-why wasnt i up at 230
-ew baby spiders!
-i should be on video on trial, i would bash all them mofos
-degrassi! soooo good
-spinner get outta my dreams
-star trek is so gay
-justin bieber, born to be? no get outta here you werent born to do shit
-ohhh hes a figure skater
-no wonder
-well now im just bored
-why havent you texted me, please do
-take me somewhere life!

-fuck you courtney, gracie will get you
-i hate this couch
-i wanna goto l.a
-ahahaha i cant believe she cancelled
-woot new duo. nawt
-ohhh novelty solo?
-thats 70s showwww
-lets party
-wooo booze
-summer 2010
-cultus lake i miss you
-degrassi!
-im so stoked
-ew britney get off tv
-i miss michael jackson
-ew i dont enjoy seeing you at the park