fuck ur such a waste of flesh...
but i still have to admitt that i still have feelings for you.
welp idk what to do..?

.....i really dont no how to describe these thoughts..
such pain to me...

1. How long have you been breathing?
14years.

2. Are you Single?
not at the moment..

3. Have you cried today at all? Whens the last time you cried?
nope. and the last time i cried was.. a few days ago.

4. What is the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
vodkaa.

5. Do you want to be in a relationship?
yah, why not?...

6. Do you actually believe in perfection?
no such thing

7. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?
both cuz then there wud b rainbows everywhere =)

8. Have you ever been to New York City?
nope.

9. What do you think about before you go to bed?
people.. things i miss, my life. just everything and anything.

10. Take any medication?
not anymore.

11. Last time you did laundry?
today.

12. Been cheated on?
I dont remember or care.

13. Do you fight with your parents all the time?
i dont live with my "parents"

14. Do you like Tim Burton movies?
yahh there cute.

15. Last voice mail you received?
umm.. social services asking me where i was, like a year ago.when i owned a phone.

16. Who was the last person to lay in bed with you?
my friend.

17. Where did you sleep last night?
in my bed.

18. Do you want kids?
that depends..

19. Do you have any expensive jewelry?
my nose ring i guess lol it was 30$

20. Where is your phone?
i dont hav one.

21. How many close friends do you have?
that i can trust? a few.

22. What is your Brother's name?
idk.

23. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
yupp quite a few.

24. Favorite sit down restaurant?
umm.. i dont really hav one.

25. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yeahh

26. Do you wear glasses or contacts?
im suppost to wear glasses

27. Do you have your wisdom teeth?
there almost starting to grow in.

28. When is your next road trip?
wherever my parental figures wanna go.

29. What are you listening to?
underoath <33

30. Last time you did volunteer work or made any donation?
when i worked at the Paririe Animal Rescue Society for a summer.

31. Who is the 5th person you got a missed call from on your phone?
i dont care.

32. Would rain actually stop you from going somewhere or ruin your plans?
nope. i love the rain.

33. Do you get nervous with public speaking?
not so much anymore.

34. Ever been in a wedding?
noppe.

35. Myspace or Facebook?
facebook

36. Who sits next to you in work or school?
Amy. usually lol

What type of guy/girl do you usually fall for?
umm.. idk...

38. Last time you saw your parents?
my mom... 12yrs ago, my dad... 2 and a half months ago.

39. What woke you up this morning?
my cat crawled over my tummy.

40. If you took a drug test, would you pass it?
umm.. maybee?

41. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
i dont know..

42. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
yah i hugged my "mother" and kissed someone. =)

43. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
sherry

44. What was your first thought this morning?
"fuckenn cat, loose sum weight"

45. Do long distance relationships work?
umm idk. noo?

46. Who is your number one on myspace?
dont have myspace

47. Who do you wish you were with right now?
someone...

48. Would you rather talk on the phone or chat in IM?
talk on the phone

49. Do you listen to music everyday?
yupp

50. What was the last thing you ate?
food.

51. Are you a fast typer?
nopee.

52. What are you doing tonight?
sleeping.

53. Is anything bothering you?
in a wayy yeahh

54. Do you miss someone?
yeshh.

55. What do you want to do right now?
call someone..

56. Are you listening to music right now?
yahh.

57. Are you in a bad mood?
not really, just tired

58. Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
nope.

59. When were you the saddest in your life?
when was i ever happy?

60. Have you ever loved someone and were too scared to tell them?
nope, i ususally end up telling ppl anyway

61. Are you a jealous person?
nope. not unless theres a good reason.

62. What are you allergic to?
nothing that i know of.

63. Whose car were you in last?
my mothers

64. How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
12 lol

65. When was the last time you slept on the floor?
umm... like 3months ago.

66. What are some things that are needed in a relationship?
trust, honesty, dedication... idk jus chill stuff

67. Have you ever dated one of your best friends?
yahh

68. Has anyone told you a secret this week?
yupp

69. Have you told someone else that secret?
nope

70. What's your biggest fear?
umm.. idk anymore.

71. When was your last road trip?
3months ago.

72. Who is in the house with you?
my family.

73. What are you thinking about right now?
people, places, things, stuff. life in generall.

74. What's most un-appealing thing about the opposite sex?
hm... annoying personalitys ughh

75. Last message in your inbox?
idk.

76. What are you doing right now?
listening to music and typing.

the past few nights have been horrible.
crying myself to sleep isnt my idea of fun,
then i go to school and pretend nothings wrong
and get high with my friends.
then the thoughts of him enter my head..
how could anyone be so mean?...
yes i do love him, but i dont no what to do.
he says i love u soo much... i think to myself.. "is he lying"
i dont know what to believe, u can only break a heart once,
i still hav no one on this earth that has proved that
they actually love me. =(
and yet he seemed so different at first...
i hate how he changed.. he was soo sweet before, and now
he barely talks to me. it seems like were nothing.
or im nothing to him...
i miss tickeling his tummy... =)
his cute little noises haha soo adorable....
but i hate how people change.
i hate that sooo much. >=/

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.
TOTAL: 9

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
TOTAL: 9

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. been to rehab
6. dyed your hair.
7. received a ticket.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar
TOTAL: 8

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL: 7

1. dressed gothic.
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
TOTAL: 8

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
TOTAL: 7

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
TOTAL: 8

1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.
TOTAL: 10

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drank and driven.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
TOTAL: 9

Grand Total: 75


If you have less than 10, write "I'm a goody-goody"
If you have more than 10, write "I'm still a goody goody"
If you have more than 20, write "I'm average"
If you have more than 30, write "I'm a bad kid"
If you have more than 40, write "I'm a very bad influence"
If you have more than 50, write "I'm a horrible person"
If you have more than 60, write "I should be in jail"
If you have more than 70, write "I should be dead"

i should be dead?... hahahahaha.

i misss living in high lvl, so many fun memories.
like gawd, i miss my friends too.
but time to make new memories. hopefully
not bad ones.

What are you thinking right now?
i gotta song stuck in my head

What annoys you?
my dogg

Would you cut the blue wire or the red one?
neitherr

What is under your bed?
MONSTERS

How many shoes do you have?
one pair =)

Are you scared of clowns?
fuckk yahh

What do you wish you could do?
teleport to different places

Are you random?
only in my head or wen im high

Are you crazy?
like all insane ppl say, "no how could i be crazy?"

What are you watching or listening to now?
watching the computer screen and listening to the pursuit of happiness by kid cudi

When was the last time you were drunk?
like 2 months ago.

What is something you are embarrassed of?
my outtie belly button..

Who was the last person to make you smile?
probally... my grandma

Say something that made you laugh today?
my grandma, laughing at me over the phone.

What are you wearing?
caitlins mickey mouse pjs and my "dont sniff glue" shirt =)

Besides this survey, what else are you doing right now?
listening to musickk and talking to cory

What does your dad do for a living?
smoke weed and get money from welfare to pay rent. its quite pathetic actually.

Who was the last person you eye-flirted with?
eye flirted? wtf... idk..

Favorite food?
dont really hav one.

Energy Drink?
MONSTER assult (the red kind)

What is the weather like right now?
snowing like fuckenn crazzy

What are the last 4 digits of your phone number?
7267... i think??

Last vacation you had?
to rocky to see my nana

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?
i wouldnt doubt it

Is there someone you used to talk to every single day that you don't talk to now?
yeah, quite a few ppl actually =(

Was last night enjoyable for you?
not to my standards but it was alrite

Would you rather have long or short hair?
short hair is getting boring now so long hair?

Who was the last person you high fived?
some girl in gym, i was showing her my hand (huge burnn) and she randomly high fived mee.

Will you be in a relationship next month?
probally not lol

Who was the last male you talked to?
cory. and im still talking to himm.

Anything coming up that you're excited for?
my birthday... well kinda...

What are you listening to right now?
musickk

Last person you kissed have feelings for you?
yahh.. but it didnt work out

What is the last thing you drank today?
coca cola.

Where would I have found you last night at 11pm?
singing in the shower, then getting out ang falling on my ass =)

Do you dislike anyone at this moment in time?
nahh.

Ever liked someone who was married?
eww nope.

Have you ever eaten a live fish?
ewwww noo

Who pissed you off yesterday?
no one lol.

What were you doing at 4am?
sleepingg.

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
of corse.

What's your favorite color(s)?
rainbows <3

Do you honestly have feelings for someone at the moment?
nope.

Do you wear shoes in your house or take them off?
take emm off

When you watch scary movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?
usually off. so the lights dont reflect on the t.v, cuz thats annoying.

When's the last time you had a real smile on your face?
eariler wen i was talking to my grandma

Do you want to see someone this very minute?
not really

Will tomorrow be better than today?
probally, more sleep

Next vacation you’re going on?
probally to hawaii or w.e she said

Do you have tan lines?
nope, i cant tan at all

Would you ever get a tattoo?
probally.

Meet anyone new this year?
yeahh lol i kinda had too

You're thinking of someone right now aren't you?'
nope.

Has anyone told you "Forever and Always" then left?
yes.

Today, did you see "that" someone that makes you smile?
there is no "that" someone

Who do you sit near in 3rd period?
ummm idk whoevers by mee

Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
yahh

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
im fuckeenn pro.

Who do you sit in front of in 1st period?
umm idk..

Do you tend to waste a lot of money?
nope

Who's hoodie did you wear last?
minee

Will you be up before 7am tomorrow?
nopee

Do you hate being alone?
yess.

Do you know any of your neighbors?
nope

Is your room clean?
nopee lol

Have you ever tried your hardest then got disappointed?
yahh probally.

Are you counting down for anything?
nope.

What do you think about the weather?
its cold.

What was the first thing you said when you woke up today?
fuckkk... im soo tired

Last bed you slept in?
minee

Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?
yeahh

Are you friends with the last girl you talked to?
yahh

Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
not anymore

Have you ever given up on anyone?
yahh

Have a best friend?
yupp

When was the last time you saw them?
2months ago.

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
stared at the roof.

Are you happy with the way things are going?
yah i guess

When was the last time you were in a very good mood?
todayy

Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
opened for the cats

Do you know how to use a lighter?
hahhaahaha apparently not i burned myself the other day

It's 3am and you're drunk, out at a party 20 miles out of town and you wanted to pass out, where would you go?
a ditchh lol

Has someone ever called you at midnight on your birthday?
nope.

Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend?
yupp

Has anyone said you have changed lately?
everyone.. =(

Do you think you will ever be married?
maybee.

Do you get shy around the guy/girl you like?
nope.

welp hes still ignoring me.
personally i dont care.
but everytime i see him
all he says is i love you blahh, blahh, blahh...
what a waste of time.
this is why i hate dating,
cuz then you try to be friends
and he acts like ur nothing to him..
untill your alone. well im bored
of doing this, but if he finally
says something.. hes only
gonna get my thoughts..
and he'll probally be crying wen he does.
i cant wait.

hmm.. what else?
ohh yah.. i fell into a pile of snow today
and im still freezing. it suckedd
i was soo cold =(
i hated it. but mehh.
then i slipped and yell again
on my way back to school.
uggghh, just after i changed my
wet clothes too..
fuck i was pissed hahaha.

today was pree awesumm.
i guess i had fun or w.e
and yahh.
gotta song stuck in my head cuz of amyy.
lol
*evacuate the dancefloor...*
gawd imma loser =(
shammeee..
but yahh hopefully ill be visiting my sisters soon.
and i failed my test today =)
horribly failed but mehh hahaha

wow..
what am i doing?
like wow...
i really dont no what to say,
other than ty ur fucken crazyy...
but im speechless.
if u do end up in edmonton tonite...
thenn...
i really dont no what to say..