My name is alysa, this is not where my story ends. I have built a wall so strong it can not break, but some how it is broken. Miles and miles away from home i stand. I miss you i miss you. Will u still hold me when u see wut i have done? I drink, too much, but i dont want it to stop. Mind-numbing lover of mine you complete me. Thankyou for telling me smoking is bad, to stop ur words from irritating me i will smoke more. No family is perfect, mine is far from it...its messy love so pure to the touch. Love is real, beautiful and passionate, but it hates me. Lonely love struck soldier. He knows who he is and he has wronged me time and time again but no other will love me the same. Together someday-Promises are meant to be broken. My friends are unique, seperate we stand, united we breathe-All so innocent all so real, judge me not. I like music but it is not my life. Candy crazed/anti drug, crazy cat lady is me. You dont get me and thats cool, i dont get me either. Look how much we have in common beautiful stranger. Not too big, not too small, but not just right-twisted goldilocks fairytale. Black haired-brown eyed-tan skinned disaster. Incomplete body by way of piercings through my flesh: ears, nose, belly button, tongue. I am a canvas of art-tattooed/misunderstood. In love with a rockstar wanna-be who cant complete me-sold the love that we had for a dollar. I am me Lost&found/Beautiful&ugly/Crazy&sane/My knight in shining armour exists in my dreams, reality is so sickening.Its scary really to know so much and yet so little about urself. You win some you lose some-tragedy is only a word. Try dancing naked in the rain, try making it to fame, try NOT being so lame, try changing your first name-Dr.Suess cant rhyme like i do, i pity the foo. Im not a dark person-but i feel the great depression, do u feel it too? I kno u do. Feel it a pounding a way like its about to burst, my heart is so full it doesnt have room for the one who will try to play me like monopoly-doesnt really matter, u may have all the properties but i walk away with ur money. Whos sleeping on my side of the bed tonight??? BaBy U jUsT dIeD. I dont need to care-but i do, hush away those tears of sorrow. Holy shit break out the glowsticks u mystical raver u. Dont quote me unless u hear me say "stay in school kids-sex in the locker rooms is so much fun" haha, or is it??? Proud Virgin-Confessed Liar. You scare me like a clown scares me-ALOT! Cant u believe in me, for me, i cant handle the faith. Oh the little girl on my porch how she cries for him, hes gone little lady-theres no return, i feel ur pain, i was u once, but i learned quickly that the porch steps are just as cold as his heart, get on ur feet and experience the sun. I had a dream once, it made me think i am too real for reality, so i live in the future all by myself-come with me for i have been waiting for u. She'll fuck u just for the taste-but i wont. I offer fun, joy, lovin, i offer purity. I am different, and i love it like i love me. First step to being a better person, is knowing u have urself, u dont need a shoulder to lean on-but it always helps to have one. A queen in my own eyes. Its the calm before the storm that sends those shivers down your spine. I have alot to say-but its worth the read-continue in my adventure to show a perfect stranger-for perfect u are-who i am. This is the song for the fishermen.

Something just isn�t right
I can feel it inside
The truth isn�t far behind me
You can�t deny
When I turn the lights out
When I close my eyes
Reality overcomes me
I�m living a lie
I kno things arent always what they seem, that girl you see smiling like she is happy, the girl who is nice to everyone...yah that girl. The girl that you wud think has it all going for her, the looks, the smarts, the potential...yah shes got it all. The girl that you think deserves to be judged and brought down... becuz hell, if you cant improve urself why not take her down a few pegs??? The girl who gets what she wants from her parents, or gets tons of gifts from her boyfrends, her hott *why cant i have him?* boyfrend. ... oh yah you know who im talking about...THAT BITCH!!! She may be the girl who goes home and beats herself down, bcuz if everyone thinks she is so great why cant she actually make sumthing of herself? The girl you hate is the girl who KNOWS she is hated and doesnt understand why. Those looks u think u wud die for, she is literally dying for. maybe she is the girl that you couldnt handle being, maybe she will become that girl that couldnt handle herself and ends up 6 feet under at the hands of her very own self, maybe she is the girl that sumday u will be standing at her grave saying to urself, i did this...its all my fault. Sad really becuz i bet u never even knew THAT GIRL.[/font][/color][/size]
you must never forget, the essense of your spark
look into my eyes and tell me what you see
someone real, this is real,
what you wish to be.
Have you ever being driving in a car down a busy road???
You see all those cars passing u by, i dont doubt that u see them
But have u ever thought about the fact that in each of those vehicles,
there is a whole nother life.
Some one, going through a day, like any other, maybe?
One of those vehicles may crash today. That person u stopped beside
at a stop light, have u ever thought, they are going to die someday
They have a family and a job and a life and i will NEVER know them
If you havent, then think about it, it changes your perspective on a
simple drive down a road...
A ride down a road, is a thousand stories waiting to happen-a ride down a road
is a thousand lives-waiting to end.

Mom/Dad: miss u today more then i missed u yesterday, but missing u less then i will tomorrow...each day is a challenge without ur guidance in my life, but ur words of wisdom echo in my ears helping me to do what is right.

--->I miss my big brothers<---

Kacilynn: You're a cookie and a half kid. If u didn't have the hotts for both my brother and my brother-in-law i wud consider u to be part of the family, but thats called incest and its frowned upon in most parts of the world, Plus we have made out-my bad (HA!). Moving right along, I miss u with ALL my heart plus some of Lukes heart (cuz i own that shit). I may be gone right now, but soon enough it'll be like old times-except for the whole boys, sex, drugs & alchohol thing we werent to big on that back at jack hulland. CONGRATULATIONS hunny cant wait to see the baby. I LOOOOOVE THIS GIRL. HER LIFE OVER MINE ANY DAY.

I didn't know her at the time i wrote this, but she is now my roommate, soul mate, and check mate. Because she's the queen to my castle. I loooooooove bri. But I'm a whore.

YOu can take a queen out of the savages, but you can't take the savage out of the queens. winky wink wink. A- out.

CRACK NECK-Chelsea
I think i made out with a girl!!!-Kaci
ya well atleast u can drive-julie
me want shnoo shnoo-mandy
Iz that a bowl???-Kaci
Rank, Actually tho, Phased, Muscle it, Reep it in, -Derrick
Im home sick-Kaci

All I Need Is The Air That I Breathe And My Friends & Family To Believe In Me

My frends are fantastic people, we argue with each other but we pull through and end up getting along even better. We had alot of fun times drinking and doing stupid things.....
-Getting stuck on fox lake in someones boat with kaci
-Getting drunk and taking pictures of julie who wuz way drunker then us
-Painting a white line accross my street
-Dressing up and doing fucked up make-up with kaci to prove i can be fun
-Getting drunk at a hockey game and breaking my cell phone
-Sneaking out in grade 7 to go play at jackhulland elementary
-Getting stoned behind the movie theatre and finding out we were at the wrong theatre
-Going to hidden lake and not believing the cops even after they said "we are the police"
-Jumping off the bridge on Canada day
-Going to stinky lake(it use to be fun, im sure it did)
-Having mandy try to through a party at my house
-Lasting a whole 5 minutes at the gym with blakers
-Touching someone elses food at mcdonalds
-Yelling Stop in timmys
-Kaci getting caught with a "beer" on my deck
-Falling down the stairs at coreys in ponoka/at kacis sisters in reddeer
-Actually throwing a new years party at my house
-Chasing a jackrabbit
-Attacking Luke...lol what a night
-Having mandy sleep in the washroom
-Andre having an obsession with my cat...Tiiiiiiiiiigeeeee
-Kaci stealing her moms car and getting me involved
-Stealing a sign that said "WIDELOAD" on it
-Eating jello trays with KaciLynn
-Locking my dad out of the house for a weekend
-Locking ourselves out of Derricks house, 3 times!!!
-Making us get off the train before i peed my pants

Its weird to think how few chances we have to do stuff like that...but we will always have each other

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We�ll take the trail marked on your father�s map
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Me: Hey kaci can i sleep on that side of the bed???
Kacilynn: No.
Me: Fine then im going to touch myself
Kacilynn: Dude! Who does that?

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Go to a club...get ur groove on
Go to a bar...get ur drink on
Go to a Strip club...get ur hard on


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Heres The Catch(In Order To Get Me, Ya Gotta): - Buy Me Roses, I Got A Thing For The Classics - Take Me To Dinner, Ya Its Pretty Basic - Eat Chocolate Covered Strawberries, Yummo! - Accept My Obsession With Tinkerbell/Betty Boop/Nightmare Before Christmas/Corpse Bride/Faeries/Play Boy Merchandise, Oh Ya I Said Obsession - Cuddle Me, Get Over It Im a Cuddle Bunny - Let Me Pretend To Be Gangster, Im So Close - Appreciate Me As A Equal, A Small Equal But An Equal None The Less - Be There For Me, Like I Am There For You -




Music To My Ears: - Avenged Seven Fold - 36CrazyFists - Bullet For My Valentine - Blue October - Atreyu - Korn - Silverstein - The Used - Stone Sour - P!nk - In Flames - System Of A Down - Gnarls Barkley - Hinder - Akon - Young Jeezy - Rick Ross - Mims - Fergie - The Fray - T.I. - Young Love - Gym Class Heroes - Destinys Child - Edens Crush - Juelz Santana - Joe Budden - Gang Starr - Kevin Federline - Gwen Stefani - Moonshine Bandits - Three 6 Maffia -



Bring Me To Peace: - Writing - Watching Movies - Taking A Walk On Those Dark Yet Warm Winter Nights Where There Is Complete Silence And You Are Fully At Peace With Yourself - Walks On The Beach - Holding Hands - Dreaming Everything Is Okay - Kisses - Knowing Some One Out There Cares - True Love -


Don't Want Anything To Do With YOU: - Drugs - Cheating - Molly - Drama - Electrical Shocks - Heartbreak - Fakeness - Not Getting A Chance To Show Someone How Beautiful Of A Person You Truly Are Inside - Bitches - I'm Not Going To Say Sluts Or Hoes Cause Who The Fuck Am I To Judge Another Females Personal Decisions As Far As Sex Is Concerned Do It To It Ladies Its All Good -



Let Me Love You: - Colors;Red&Black - Classic Long Stemmed Red Roses - Being True To Myself - Chocolate - Fairies - Candle Lit Dinners - Cotton Candy - Calm Quite Lakes - Dancing In The Mirror - Shopping - Being Random - Reading Magazines - Aurora Borealis - Tinkerbell - Betty Boop - Etown - My Cellophonamatic Baby -

So Afraid Of Wut People Might Say But Thats Okay Cause Ur Only Human.

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that is where a sexual picture of kaci will be put once i get my hands on one.

IF YOU AINT GOT NO MONEY TAKE UR BROKE ASS HOME
IF YOU AINT GOT NO MONEY TAKE UR BROKE ASS HOME