today i feel like someone just kicked me a million times i am so emotional i just want to cry all the time. i feel so sad and i know y but i dont . i am so confused and so out of my real mind its crazy. i have not left my house in 3 days how do u just never leave i am just so sad. i cant wait to get back to school and not think about my life and the love of my life and how he broke my heart. i never thought it would be this hard to get over someone i mean i know i have to because he has but i dont want to . my head says i have to forget and my heart says love him and he will come back he just needs space. which one do i lisen to my head or my heart? i dont know and thats why i am so drained i think . i keep playing everything over and over in my head and it has to stop but its so hard to make it stop. people that i love keep leaving and everytime i let my walls down and my guards down i get hurt . i think that i am going to keep my walls up from now on and just let people in that i know 500%% will never leave me and right now i can only think of 2 people that is sad . but i needed to write this somewhere and get it off my chest.
i hope things get better.