I just went to make this into a rant blog, and realized, for the first time in a very long time, I have almost nothing to rant about.

I mean I could rant about some things some more, but it's all stuff that isn't gonna change, stuff I have no control over. So hey I'ma try a new approach on things.. at least for a few days.

I'm not gonna complain. Not once. starting now. for at least 2 or 3 days.

I have too much right now to be thankful for to waste my time complaining about the things I'm not thankful for.

And most of all I mean you. I may say a lot of corny things, I may not be shy about my feelings, but I hope you know, every time I say you're beautiful, every time I tell you how happy I am with you... I mean it, and I always will, more and more every day.

HOLY fucking hypocrite.



ps: I'm good for more than my age. thanks.

- I'm actually quite stoked on saturday, get to finally hang out with the infamous "Louis", it will be quite grand.

- It seems like every time you discover a flaw, or a fault in me, it turns out to be something you love. I've never had this much in common with someone EVER. Endless smiles, endless laughs, needless to say I'm extremely happy with you, and anyone that doesn't like it can fuck off <3.

- I get it guys, you don't like her, I may not be that fond of her either..but you're taking this much, much to far. If you don't like someone don't hang out with them, that doesn't give you justification to try and ruin that persons life.

- Just because you've memorized my numbers doesn't mean you have to call me every fucking day, I get it we used to be best friends. That time is long past though, maybe just MAYBE call me when you're clean and we'll talk. I can tell when you've been on coke, so don't fucking lie to me.

- We decided that Charlie Sheen would soon become more than a noun, but a synonym to Winning. So in other words, we're Charlie Sheening

- All of you need to leave her the fuck alone, I may not be that close with her, but I can tell she's not the kind of person who's going to think back in 20 years and go "fuck I shoulda gone to grad" It's her decision, and if it's the one that's making her happy, then it's the RIGHT decision.

- I know you have been in more pain than this, but that doesn't mean that everytime I get injured I should have to suck it up. I let it slide years ago when you made me go to work with a broken hand, but I'm not gonna coach your fucking practice for you when it feels like my teeth are about to explode.

- You may be one of my best friends but you HAVE GOT TO grow up. I realize you don't want to, no one wants to, but this isn't Neverland, we have to.

- This is the last angry paragraph. You have got to be the worst person in the world with secrets, so when you expect other people to keep them it seems kinda hypocritical. Especially when they're petty little things. Grow some balls, talk to the people involved. What you did was very snaky, shady, whatever you wanna call it. Have the decency to tell her you've taken her spot instead of her having to find out elsewhere She'd been cut.

- I enjoy how this time our friendship isn't flaking out because of my relationship, you're my best friend in the whole world, I hold you in very high regard, and I know we will be friends forever, not this "BFF" crap. Actually friends forever.

- You know, I thought joining this would be good fun, but it's turned into so much more than that. It's an insane cardio/ strength workout, it's allowing me all kinds of opportunities to see other parts of the world, and I wasn't wrong it is all sorts of fun.

- This may come off as conceited but..fuck I smell really good right now.

- I hope that we start getting to hang out more, you're a hilarious person, fun to be around, and you literally don't give a fuck what people think. I admire that. Oh and we both share a mutual hate for a certain Fat Family.

- I feel so terrible that this happened to you, you guys were so good together for so long, but if you need any help through any of this, I'm always here, we don't hang out like we used to but we're still good friends. Plus we need to finish our harry potter marathon soon.

- I'll be surprised if anyone makes it to this paragraph, fuck that's a lot of reading, sorry guys. Still hope you all do read it though.

I'm tired of you showing up when it's convenient for you, and fucking with the kids life, you're 49 years old, get your shit together you fuck.

I'm gonna start spending more time with you, I love you, you're always there for me, and I can't believe I have such an awesome brother.

Blanket forts, Mac 'N Cheese, Hockey games, movies, It doesn't matter what we're doing, we're having a effing blast doing it. I enjoy seeing you greatly. You're an awesome person, stay in my life please

I'm glad we're friends again, I missed you, and now that we've decided to never let shit like that happen again, I'm sure we'll have a good friendship.

I'm so glad everyone wised up to your bullshit, realized how fake you are, and are now treating you how you deserve.

AS FOR YOU, you had no fucking right to talk to her about that, no fucking right to say what you did. I'm sorry shit didn't work out between us but that doesn't give you the fucking right to try and sabotage anything I might fucking have. Maybe, just maybe I should have told you the real fucking reason we didn't work. Stay the fuck out of my life you crossed the fucking line.

I've made my decision about school, but I'm not telling anyone, cause I know they will judge.

My actual dream is to own a radio station, that plays whatever music I feel like playing. No censors, no ignoring good music just cause it will offend a few people.

I'm so content with life right now, other than the one hiccup of you trying to fuck shit up, I haven't felt this wholly happy in a long, long time.

1. What's your favourite drink?
Tears...Lolol no. Umm probably ginger ale.

2. What are you eating?
Nothing at the moment

3. What song are you listening to?
Still a tractor.

4. Name three people that like three different favourite songs of yours.
Breia
Shannon
Jaryd Quinn

5. Who do you miss right now?
Luigi

6. Who do you like?
Don't be so snoopy!

7. Who don't you like?
Timothy Brooks.

8. Who's someone you should know but is still a 'random'?
No one?

9. What do you want for your birthday this year?
A superhero coloring book...

10. Who's a loved young one?
Griffin, best little nephew out there

11. Who's a loved oldie?
My grand parents, they're basically the best people around.

12. What do you want to do now?
Re-magnetize

13. Are you currently single? Liked? Liking? Crushing? Complicated? Taken? Married? Other?
I'm gonnna go with all of the above

14. Who insulted you most recently?
Probably My brother

15. Happiest moment today?
a certain text message.

16. Saddest moment today?
When it started raining like 2 minutes ago.

17. Most awkward moment today?
Realizing I almost threw out the sticky notes by accident.

18. Name the person you can tell everything to.
Shannon Clark

19. Who do you have most fun with?
Shannon, Breia, Justin, Laurel.

20. If you had to raise a puppy with someone, who would you raise it with?
Probably Luigi? I don't really want a puppy right now though XD

21. Name important gifts you've received.
A lucky necklace made of Jade from my grandma, in hopes it would help me stop injuring myself all of the time...it didn't.

22. Who can you never be mad at?
There's a few people.

23. Who did you last kiss?
A girl.

24. Who did you last hug?
Breia.

25. Who do you want to hug?
Pretty much anyone, hugs are the shit.

26. What is one thing you do EVERY DAY?
Breathe. and Text XD

27. What are you currently frustrated or anxious about?
Frustrated that I keep messing up my training routine.

28. What's tomorrow going to be like?
hopefully awesome.

29. Admit it, someone likes you.
I like to think so.

30. Who do you say goodnight to mostly?
Luigi

Is it easy for someone to make you smile?
For some people this is incredibly easy

Tell me why you like the last song you listened to?
Doesn't remind me- Audioslave

What color are your eyes?
Blueeee!

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
Someone elses bed

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
A lot more than people the same sex.

What would your name be without the first three letters?
well...I wouldn't have one XD

Last thing you touched not computer-related?
My kitty, Tassie.

What colors are you wearing right now?
Blue and white

You currently in a fight with someone?
Wouldn't say so.

Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?
I love doing this.

Do you have an older brother?
Yup!

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
Many times...just in the last 3 days XD

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
No. No need to.

What are you listening to right now?
There's a tractor in the background?

Do you laugh a lot?
A healthy amount

Are you ticklish?
of course not...heh..

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
Seeing certain people.

Have you ever been on a boat?
I live on an island, take a guess

Last person you gave a hug to?
Breia.

Tell me about the shirt/shirts you’re wearing?
gtfo stalker.

When you are home alone do you still close the door when you shower?
Only if there's a chance someone might be coming home.

Do you have plans for today?
well if by plans you mean...well...I... no. I don't.

When is the last time you took a nap?
Yesterday...accidentally heh..just too damn comfy.

What was on your mind most today?
"I wish it was the last few days all over again"

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
Bit of both.

What instant messaging service do you use?
people still do that?

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
Depends on a few things, Comfort, magnetism, time.

Do you have any siblings? Do you get along?
Yes. And Very well thanks.

What are you drinking?
absolutely nothing.

Honestly, if you could go back 8 months and change something, would you?
Well 8 months ago I was in a car crash that kinda ruined my life.....but no I wouldn't, because I like where I am not

Do you know what you’re wearing tomorrow?
A fur trench coat, gum boots, and a russian hat.

Do you like FacebookCraze.com?
Do you?

Do you know anyone who smokes weed?
Uhh... I don't associate with losers..so yup!

Amazingly new questions, you down?
of course my horse

Will you be in a relationship one month from now?
I have no idea, I could be, but because of who I like, I doubt it.

Do you drink bottled water?
Rarely

If you are being extremely quiet, what does that mean?
Pissed off generally

Last person of the opposite sex you texted single?
Yupp.

What does the last message in your facebook inbox say?
Something about someone gettign over something.

Tell me about the shirt you're wearing?
It's White and it's my work shirt.

How long have you lived in your current home?
13 years

Your profile picture, where was it taken?
parksville

You never know what you got until you lose it?
Negative good sir.

Are you sad when someone says they hate you?
If it's someone I care about, yeah

Are you scared of losing the person you like to someone else?
Welll they already do like someone else..

Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
Yep.

Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?
I fucking wish.

Which of your friends has the worst temper?
JQ

Do you laugh at inappropriate times?
of course

First person to speak to you in 2010?
I was hammered, probs Krista.

What time did you wake up today?
4:10am.

What's something you want to purchase next time you're at the mall?
A new fucking life.

Would you rather grow old with someone or be single forever?
WITH SOMEONE

Do you know anyone that smokes weed?
NO that'd be upsetting.

Do you have someone you always have late night conversations with?
Yes..

Is there someone of the opposite sex you tell everything to?
Slightly.

Are you going out of town soon?
Im going to try to.

The person you have the strongest feelings for dies, do you care?
uhhhh, DUH

What is in your pocket?
Phone. Keys. Wallet.

Do you reply to all of your texts?
Usually.

Are all of your friends virgins?
No.

Are you happier now or five months ago?
5 months ago.

How many people do you not get along with?
too few.

Are you usually wide awake in the morning?
No.

Can you remember who texted you last without checking?
Twitter of course.

You ever do anything risky with your nights?
too often

Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Yep.

How long have you known your first phone contact?
Last summer.

Do you feel like anyone is playing mind games with you right now?
Nopeee not really.

Do you feel awkward when strangers say hi to you?
IT's part of my job.

Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night, although I'm fast becoming a morning person, fucking work :/

When was the FIRST time you saw the person you like?
good question :S

Are you nice to everyone?
nope and don't try to be.

Do you always find it cute when a girl/guy calls you babe/baby?
I love pet names actually

What is the last non-alcoholic drink you had?
Ginger ale.

Have any recent regrets?
Yesss

Are you bisexual?
hahahahahahahaahahahahahaha no.

Who is the first person you would call if you REALLY needed help?
depends on the kind of help, either Brittany or Tim

Do you get high a lot?
no, not really, defs cutting back.

What do you currently hear right now?
me typing

Are you tanned?
hahah I hate people with winter tans.

Have you slept next to the last person you kissed?
yes

Five months ago, can you remember who you liked?
yes

What did you have for breakfast?
one sesame snap

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
working

Where did you get your last bruise(s) from?
not sure where it came from

Do you love the last person that you called?
I do not love my voice mail, no.

Are you looking forward to anything?
the 21st, and seeing you.

Who was the last person to kiss you on the cheek?
Not sure lol

Where do you want to live when you're older?
New York would be nice, on a building on top of a bar named Maclarens..

Do you mind sleeping on the floor?
love it actually

Where did the shirt you are wearing come from?
from work.

Meet any new people this year?
duh.

Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?
yes

Is there someone you wish you were still close with?
yes sir.

Is it possible to be single and happy?
it sure is, but honestly I'd be happier not single

Which is harder, telling someone you love them or that you don't?
Depends on the situation duhh

Are you cold, warm or just right at the moment?
just right...cept my feet.

Anything good happening tomorrow?
uhhh, work?

Has anyone ever drunk called/texted you?
so many times

Name two of your favorite colors:
Yellow and purple.

Do you sleep on your stomach?
usually

Are you someone that worries?
overly so

Do you know a few people that smoke weed?
nope, never heard of "weed" whatever that is

Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
I drink a lot of water.

Did you wear sunglasses today?
YES!


THIS QUIZ WAS TOO LONG FUCK ITTT CUTTING THE REST.

another year older, slightly less wise.

Has someone ever made a promise to you and broke it?
Pretty sure that's happened to everyone.

How often do you say sorry?
I hear I say it far too often.

Do you use the word "whore"?
Only when talking of prostitutes?

Did you date anyone over the summer?
I did.

Do you think someone likes the same person you like?
I have no idea, but I think it probably doesn't matter.

Do you miss your past?
Not at all, my past and present are horrible, I look only to the future.

Are there certain things that can't be joked about with you?
There definitely is, don't make jokes that you know will offend me..

How has the week been?
Mostly horrible with a hint of awesome.

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
Yes, purposely from quite a few people.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
I was not.

You're locked in a room with a panda. What do you do?
Make dinner, share it with the Panda, and have a nice civilized conversation.

Is there someone who can ALWAYS make you smile?
There is, and she's pretty epic.

Have you ever tripped in public?
I'm rather clumsy, so, yes.

Do you think someone is falling in love with you?
I hope not.

Will you be dating someone in six months?
Oh probably, I always end up doing that :/

What color shirt are you wearing?
White.

How long is your hair?
like 2 inches.

Are you looking forward to anything?
Several things, but mostly my birthday.

Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Haha of course.

What did you do last Thursday?
Probably slept early.

Do you speak more than 4 languages?
It's one of my life goals.

Would you ever get a tattoo?
I'm planning on it.

Do you like when people play with your hair?
I kinda adore it.

Last December, what was your love life like?
Interesting.

Was last night terrible?
Not terrible, not great, but exactly what was needed.

Come to any realizations lately?
Yes, yes I did, and I'm glad.

Do you dance naked around the house when you're alone?
Everyday, but seriously, wtf no.

Is your heart smiling right now?
My heart is having a kickboxing tournament right now.

Do you drive yet?
Sure do.

When you were little, did you think there were monsters under your bed?
Nope but I wish there had been.

Have you ever been to urbandictionary.com?
YES love it.

As of this minute, what is going through your mind?
Having a smoke :/

What are you currently listening to?
Sweet Caroline.

BLACKLOCK-SCHROEDER Reginald Wayne Age 58, passed away peacefully on December 23, 2007 with his family by his side. Survived by his loving family: wife, Sibylle; beloved children, Matthias, Anne-Katrin, Joachim; mother, Betty; sister, Beverly Ann; Aunt Muriel, Uncle Paul, and cousins. He was predeceased by his father, Reginald Blacklock. Wayne was born in New Westminster, B.C., on August 15, 1949. He was a graduate of Burnaby South and UBC. He worked for Boy's and Girl's Clubs for many years, returning to UBC in 1986 to pursue a career in education. His world travels took him to New Zealand, Australia, and Europe, eventually marrying and residing in Germany in 1987. In 1991 he and his new family returned to Canada, settling in Duncan, B.C., where he was on staff at Cowichan Secondary School. Special thanks to Wayne's treasured friends, long-time colleagues, students, and grads who cheered him on during his illness with so many acts of kindness. He was especially touched by the lovely collection of his photography classes' personal favourite photos. Wayne was in his element when working with youth. His warmth and genuine concern for others, his wisdom, quiet manner, and sense of humour will be greatly missed by all who knew and loved him

Who is the 10th contact in your phone?
Allison Lucier, she's pree ballin'

Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
Nope and I hope no one ever does, cause it will always be a lie, no one's perfect

Ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Haha you could say that..

Have you ever been called heartless?
Yupp, and to be honest at the time I deserved it.

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
For once in my life yeah, yeah I have.

What are you doing?
Texting this awesome person, and breathing, laying down, typing.

Is someone on your mind right now?
Someone's always on my mind, just right now is someone that shouldn't be.

Is there someone you will never forget?
Emily Bjornson, my best childhood friend, we were inseparable, fuck I hate growing up.

Do you truly hate anyone?
Yes, but only cause he raped my friend.

Do you want someone back in your life?
Wayne Reginald Blacklock-Schroeder, German teacher/ best person in my life R.I.P. i love you.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone & what did you talk about?
CBI health centre, telling them I was gonna be late.

Who are all the texts from in your inbox?
Mostly twitter and Nahall.

What's going on between you and the last person you texted?
Something... I'm not sure what to call it.

What are you planning on doing after this?
Sleeping, then calling into work cause I feel like anus.

Are you listening to music?
No, I'm just chillin' in bed.

Someone phones you at 3:00 am; who do you expect it to be?
JQ "FUCK MAN I Dunno what to do my dads gonna kill me, the cars all fucked up"

What brings out the worst in you?
Jealousy/ Rage.

Does anyone hate you?
Yes, but i don't believe I've ever done anything bad enough to deserve being hated.

Has anyone disappointed you recently?
Has anyone NOT dissapointed me lately?

Who was your last missed call from?
Tim, missed on purpose.

What do you hear right now?
Absolute silence, it's kinda nice.

How are you feeling?
Depressed and hopeless.

Is there someone you used to talk to everyday but don't anymore?
Yes.

Are you currently frustrated with someone?
I'm currently frustrated with everything in my life.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
Ashley, about a month ago.

Will you be in a relationship next month?
God I hope not, far too unstable and depressed for that.

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Stared at the ceiling.

Ever feel like you're not good enough?
You really have no idea.

Were you smiling in the last picture taken of you?
Nope. fuck you Wal-mart.

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
Seventeen...

Have you ever done something you promised yourself you wouldn't?
Everytime I take my painkillers and my anti-depressants.

Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Jumbelina Horton Goosebury...aka Katelyn Buhr.

Has anything happened in the past month that made you really mad?
Nearly everything, but mostly my frustration with my recovery..

Will tomorrow be better then today?
No, it really never is.

Is anything bothering you right now?
Life, and everything in it.

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you drank?
Milk.

Good mood?
Never.

What do the majority of people in your life call you?
Ben.

Do you like getting big hugs?
They're one of the only things that help get me through the day.

Is it easy to make you smile?
Not lately..used to be.

Do you curse in front of your parents?
Not often, but that's cause I don't curse often, my parents do though.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
far,far too late.

Are you an older sibling?
Nope, I'm the youngest.

Do you tan or burn when in the sun?
Bit of both.

Do you think things will change in the next 3 months?
If they don't, then I'm fucked.

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
Shannon haha BFFLMAO

Waiting for something?
Always waiting...

Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
not really sure what to call it lol

You never know what you got until you lose it? True or false?
Meh, haven't found it to be either way.

Do you want to see somebody right now?
Very much so

Are you happy?
Not one bit.

Is any part of you sad at all?
These question is unneccesary

Would you run down the street naked if it meant earning $150?
nope it's minus 13 degrees right now.

In 4 months, how old will you be?
20...AHH.

How are you feeling at this moment?
Tired, Angry, Depressed, You know the same as every day.

What made you laugh last?
Me being overtired and laughing at non-funny texts.

Are you drunk?
Nope, and I have no desire to be.

Have you ever kissed a blonde-haired, blue-eyes person?
Yes but I'm not sure what the significance of this is?

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 10 days?
Once I suppose...Awkward though.

If you had to choose between a million dollars or to be able to change a regret?
Regret, easy choice, I could avoid all of this of happening if we'd just turned around when you felt sick...Fuck me, I hate guilt.

Where will you be 2 hours from now?
Workkkkkk.

What’s bothering you right now?
Pretty much everything in my life right now, but mostly my inability to make anything in my life work out.

Did you have any unread text messages when you woke up today?
25. 24 from Twitter, one from Nahall.

Is there a member of the opposite sex on your mind?
Of course, unfortunately I don't think I ever cross hers...

Your best friend tells you, “you have a drug problem”, you say?
Ummmm, I know, I just told you that you idiot, my doctors changing up my perscription though.

Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
I know they do, people tell me they do, but I don't mind I suppose they're just high-school kids after all...

What was the first thing you did this morning?
Shower.

Is it possible to be single and happy?
I wouldn't know I haven't been single for very long, or happy for a long time

Do you have strange dreams?
Had one last night.

What’s more important In a relationship, trust or happiness?
Trust, because it leads to happiness

What time did you go to bed last night?
930ish

Did you accept or deny your last friend request?
Deny, crazyyyy person.

Did you speak to your father today?
Do i ever?

What do you think about the weather?
Snows alright, temperature is bull shit

Are you ticklish?
Very.

Who’s car were you in last?
mine i guess?

What was the last thing you drank?
Peach Mango juice

Have you kissed the last person you texted?
nopeeeee.

Does that person want to kiss you?
No idea haha.

Are you single?
Yuppp

Do you want to be single?
That depends if you ever come around.

FUCK IM LATE FOr WORK BYE

10 Things You Wish You Could Say to 10 Different People
I don't understand you one bit, I wanna be as close as we say we are but it seems impossible

I really wanna get closer to you, at the very least we could be best friends, maybe more?

I've enjoyed that we've been talking, after years of not speaking its kinda awesome

I really miss you, I could see us being close friends which is weird cause we've only just met, but yeah.. move back now k?

It seems like the more I want you in my life the less I get you, so I'm done trying

I hate you for getting me into this shit.

If I ever see your face again I will no joke, disfigure it...horribly...with a bat.

TAKE a fucking clue, you call me 3 times a day and I don't answer what do you think?

You're actually stunningly gorgeous, if you weren't the perfect best friend I'd be all over that.

I have nothing to say to you, and never will.

9 Things About You

I'm emotionally unstable

I actually forgive the lady who hit me in the accident, imagine the guilt she feels

I'm an addict, but not for drugs or smokes, but for my hook.

At this point I don't think my back will actually get better...ever.

I'd rather have pain than money, cause then I'd feel something

I'm a terrible lying asshole, 'cept as cliche as it sounds I'm done with that.

I have a secret that would make almost everyone hate me, and i want to tell it to the most unexpected person.

I shouldn't be thinking that way about you but I can't help it.

8 Ways to Win Your Heart

BE HONEST, nothing worse than a liar.

Be funny, but don't force it, use your natural sense of humour not what you think I'd like.

Be awkward, i know it sounds weird but I think the awkwardness shows a line, once you're past the awkwardness, nothing can stand in your way.

Let me be romantic, don't make fun of my gestures, enjoy them.

Don't be an attention whore, sometimes I like to have conversations that aren't about YOU.

A little self confidence goes a long way, this isn't a must have, It's just nice to see a girl be comfortable with who she is.

Don't shut me out if you're upset or somethings on your mind, this ones a big deal to me, I want to help, not feel helpless.

BE YOURSELF, don't try to be who you think I'd want you to be, chances are if you yourself i will like you a lot more

7 Things That Cross Your Mind Everyday

What if that had never happened

Why do I waste my time on this

I miss my friends...even if I see them often

What if I'd died in that accident, what kinda imprint would I have left on people.

I need a hug

I miss my sister more than anything

What if something happened with us, heh, damn people'd be shocked.

6 Things You Do Before You Go to Sleep

Brush my teeth

Shower

Dry off

Get in bed

Set my alarm

Adjust my pillows

5 Things You Couldn’t Live Without

My friends

My music

My brother and sister

NPH

Sleep

4 Turn Offs

Wallowing in self pity

Too skinny

Just plain mean

Too much make-up

3 Turn Ons

Athletic

Soft skin

Nice bums

2 Things You Want To Do Before You Die

Be happily married in insperable love, with kids

Stand on top of the Eiffel Tower

1 Confession

I am kinda like the kid from Zombieland, all I want is a girl who's hair I can brush over her ear.