it's a cristmas miricle that your in my life
talking ot me like I'm human
looking at me without hatred eyes
what'd I say that made you changeyour mind
I really don't care caus eyou here with em
what ever it is I'm as happy as can be, that your here next to me!!!

I love it it's christmas
and I look around and everybody I see is with somebody that makes them happy
no matter what happens make those memories
even if your hearts gonna be broken
never let go of them
they make you who you are!!
every decision big or small comes at a price
it's either a price of misery or happiness!
but no matter what happens
at one point they held you and that feeling will never go away !

Every boy or girl in your life as they leave they break a chunk of your heart
and steal it away as they leave
but that's ok
your hearts a muscle it grows stronger and as you learn each day
or with each boy/girl friend you grow into a better person
each person that has come and gone in your life
be thankful for. They brought out a part of you that only they could.
Everyday you have is a gift that is why they call it the present.

things change
people lie
and things die
so reach for the sky !!

Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never had the chance to thank you For Ripping Out My Heart!
Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never got the chance to say FUCK YOU!!!

Dont wanna be your tourniquet, for minor lacerations!
Dont wanna be your Romeo cause your no goddamn Juliet!
(You always did know... Just what to say... Insult to injury...)
YOU JUST LOVED TO HATE ME!!!

Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never had the chance to thank you For Ripping Out My Heart!
Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never got the chance to say FUCK YOU!!!

Youve got a gun! Ive got a gun! Lets write a tragic ending!
Dont wanna be this way again! Dont wanna be the one to blame!
(You can have the high roads... Ill take the lows... Disguise the fraility.)
I JUST LOVE TO HATE YOU!!!

Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never had the chance to thank you For Ripping Out My Heart!
Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never got the chance to say FUCK YOU!!!

YOU JUST LOVE TO HATE ME!!!

Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never had the chance to thank you For Ripping Out My Heart!
Its not enough, Its not enough. It never was or will be.
I never got the chance to say FUCK YOU!!!

this life is mind I have a picture in my mind
I'm gonna be everythign that I'm not now.
I'm gonna be your dream girl that you let go of
down the road you'll see,
I'm what you wanted,
so perfect, so chill
cant' handle me while I change,
Keep saying no one knows this road

I'm gonna ride that bike, learn to rock
play it hard, with soul,
it's the only thing that wont' betray me
like you when you walked away from me
fuck you, you'll never see me now.

They sing it well everysong that bitched
about how you broke my heart
oh Hushabye
don't worry I'll be ok
don't appoligize, I've learned
being cold hearted I've learned from the best
yes you my dear you held me close to your chest
but blocked out the feelings
but one day you'll see it was you not me
I'm done with this hell
but one day I'll be standing there and you
won't believe it's me
wishing I was with you

I put this smile on my face
try to stand this time a while
and I can't seem to find
a reason to stay and watch
I'm frozen in time

I'm not sober. it's hard to make it through my day
you were my angel and now you've flown away
I already miss you and your not gone.
I love you but how do you maek this pain stop

I dont want to say good-by
I don't have peace in my mind
you called me and we're ok
but I don't wanna be the one to walk away
I tried to stop adn say
but you turned from me and said it's over

It could of been somethign so sweet
why do you ahve to leave
you have something here
to hold on to.
I'll always be here in my heart I still believe
every car around the corner
in my mind I'm waiting for you

I can't deal with this
why do I have to walk away
and pretend that I'm ok
I will always love you
you were so perfect, so different,
it's always going to come to this

I forgot to say before you left me
your so beautiful to me, I need you.
you saved my life, I can't just cry.
I don't want to say good-bye
just let go and walk away
it's just not in me. just walk away
its' easier that to cry
pain's built up it's showing it's face

can't you see my shame
I'm such a disgrace
I'll just turn my face
cause you deserve better than be
but befor you go just remember
I'll remember
I'll never let go.

I am 16 years old looking for a job in a little town called morinville. First there is little to no jobs for anyone my age unless you get luckey and hired at one of the few restraunts in town. Oh I forgot to mention there is on family restraunt 2 chinease places, and fast food. What a selection.
Ok so what about a gas station or whatever, well your options are cut short since you need to be 18 to sell cigarettes ok gas jockey, get sereous those are all taken by the boys.
So what about a local pet store or grocery store.....
Well since Wal-Mart is so close...
everyone goes there instead. The pet store employee said they were shutting down cause our town is so close to the wal-mart now... it's dead...
go to st.albert and it's the same way... What about edmonton..
Well even with a trades certificate I know people that can't get jobs and are being laid off. What's worse is it's not just Alberta.
British Colombia is the same way.. Well why don't we go back to local shops. boost our local economy... Duh does it not seem even a little bit obvous to anyone... local teen gets money goes shopping... maybe even take the bus to the city and shop there... who knows but still doesn't anyone see how something so little can affect something so much. kinda makes you sit back and think about what else we''re doing for ourselves other than killing everything we've worked towards .

first he told me to drop my drawers
then he said he waited in my room for me
but it's ok my mom was there !!!
LOL such a classic brotherly moment <3

sometimes I don't know what to sya
I wish I knew
what to do
I miss you near
I wish I was there
I wish I never left you alone
I missed you when you left and
it hurt like hell
now to know your hurting I want to cry
I wish I was there. I wish I wasn't scared

Woke up and found my home
somewhere I belong
though I'm still not sure
that I fit in here
awake and alone I walked away
from everything in my past
I had to let go

Faked this smile
found no reason to walk a while
though I'm here still standing up
my knee's hurt from all the weight
I walk under the stars
and something felt right

though I'm not sure
that this is real
I pretend that you'll never leave and believe
that maybe I have something to hold me up
help me out
broken down, he built me up
gave me strenght to keep going
think and smile, my only thoughts on him

these trees if they could talk
they'd say all these memories
that we walked by it's almost liek a movie
in my mind they never seem to go away
it's like something that will hold me down
but I'm alright trying to fight
stay here tonight

I stare at the moon,
hope that maybe somewhere, wherever you are
your starign back, thinking of somethign that we were
and hold me dear
it's been a while my friend
and for somereason I can't get you out of my mind
so many nights
you held me tight, I look back at the things we've done
relize I was never as innocent as you made me out to be

do you see???
what you meant to me
held all my secrets I learnd my lessons
found my friends
lost a few in between
hurt for freedom
fought for what I believed in
fought to keep you around
but I lost the battle
but I;ll win the war
it's only with me and it's just beginning

you fucking tell me that you found it in your backpack, then when I go to kick your ass your story changes and you found it on the road
well which one is it cause honestly it doesn't just magically appear in your backpack
your lucky that I was rusty. I shoulda kicked your ass when I had the chance.
you call me your older sister then you fucking steal from em
I quit fighting for a reason, but you wanna piss me off to the point where I will fight you know you've gone to far
I'm sick of being stepped on
maybe I've turned into a bitch
but I'm sick of everything that everyone is doing I try to give peopel chances and they fuck me over
I'm sick of giving the " Benifate of the doubt"
no one deserves it anymore.
Destroy my house then walk off, leave me with the damages
yeah it's my own fault
but it's called common curtasy
I'm not gonna walk into your house and destroy furniture cause we need firewood and btw it's metal it doesnt' burn you morons
fucking idiots in this town. I knwo now who I can trust adn
it's just starting cuase I'm pissed.
shit dissapears and people expect me to just sit back and watch me get walked all over
I'm done with it
go and fuck me over now you'll fucking get it I'm fucking done with this shit
you'll see what happens now cause this shit is done

I have to say
you are the best thing that's happend to me
your kisses I hold dear
cause I know that you mean alot to me
make me want to be better
no one has made me feel this way
you make me so happy
we have our own lives and we both grasp that
I am I, and you are you,
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations
andyou are not to live by mine,
and if by chance we found each other it's beautiful
I think about you like crazy
and I know that you love me
you seem to make me whole
I don't get how you do this
wanting to make myself better
but not for you
for myself
I am true to me
I never want to loose you
I've never felt this way
the way I can give you space
I dont'care I saw you once
I don't get how I'm ok without you everyday
I miss you but I know I'll see you again someday soon
I understand what we are
I see it so clear
I hold you so dear
you make me so happy
I don't get how you do this too me
oh baby please don't ever leave me !!!

I've never been so scared,
feeling all alone, in this world unturned,
thought I was loved, but now it's burned,
I've taken my time,
but actions speak loud
I miss you like crazy,
but baby you scare me!
come alive and make me bleed,
inside this suffering,
just wait and see,

I'll never leave you so why are you pushing me away
your walls I broke down
only more layers to go,
I love you
you said you would never hurt me
but then you go and lie to me
I don't care if you don't want to see me just don't lie
I don't want to fight but you have to stop drinking
I'm worried and scared that you wont always be there
get it trough your head, I'm not leaving anytime soon
no matter how scared I get

I'll only push harder
and hold on tighter to break down those walls

Don't get me wrong cause
This might sound to you a bit odd
But you own the place
Where all my thoughts go hiding
And right under your clothes
Is where I find them
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey

Because of you
I forgot the smart ways to lie
Because of you
I'm running out of reasons to cry
When the friends are gone
When the party's over
We will still belong to each other

Oh baby it's so funny
You almost don't believe it
As every voice is hanging from the silence
Lamps are hanging from the celing
Like a lady to her good manners
I'm tied up to this feeling

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
(x) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 4

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted
(x) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 9

Level 3
(X) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 12

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook/Nexopia Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 15

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook/Nexopia
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 18

Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) have seen cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel


SO FAR: 23

Level 7
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 28

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 32

Level 9
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
() Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 33

Level 10
(x) Been Tickled
() Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 36

Level 11
(x) Won A Contest
(x) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 40

Level 12
( ) Had / Have Braces
() Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR:41

Level 13
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
() Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 45

Level 14
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
(x) Had a One Night Stand
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 50

Level 15
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 55
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Level 16
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
() Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 58

Level 17
() Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 61

Level 18
(x) Crashed A Party
(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
() Got a Tattoo

SO FAR: 64

Level 19
(x) Worn Pearls
() Jumped Off A Bridge
() Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
() Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 65

Level 20
() Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
() Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 67

Level 21
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 71

Level 22
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 75

Level 23
(x) Believed In Ghosts
() Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
(x) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 77

Level 24
(x) Played Chicken
() Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
() Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 80

Level 25
(x) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 84

Level 26
(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
() French Braided Someones Hair
() Gone Skinny Dipping
(x) Been Kicked Out Of Your House.
(x) Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 90

Level 27
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
(x) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 94

Level 28
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
() Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 98

Level 29
() Been shot at/or held at gunpoint
() Had sex in the rain
(x) Flattened someones tires
() Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
() Got five dollars or less worth of gas

Total: 99