Wow, just scanning through my list of "Ignored users"
16!
Ha!
And like more than half of them are the guys who didn't get the point I don't want to talk to them.
The ones that message me, I don't reply, they message me 2 days later the same message, some words mixed around, I don't reply.
1 week later, the same sort of message....then I find my way going to their profile up to the [Ignore User] button.

Don't be one of these guys please!
It's fucking annoying as hell!
If I don't message you the first time, don't be expecting any delayed possible reply to your second one!

Wow!
I definatly can't sleep...and it's fricken 3:00 in the morning
All I can say is good thing I don't have to work tomorrow!!
But I definatly have to wake up early tomorrow just so I don't sleep in and get into some weird sleeping pattern...

And seriously, I'll add again.
Don't message me if you apply to those 3 or 4 thing's I've mentioned On my profile!![/size]

Read it! Don't just look at my pictures then message me.

I know, I know, I just finished complaing how much I'm lacking in the scrilla department but I just have to say, I la loove my hair!![/u]

I just got a bunch more blonde highlights put through out it and I waay rather prefer being blonde than burnette.

Yea, being a burnette was a good change just because I've been blonde like all my life, but if I ever want to go down that path again, it's called tanning minutes bebe.

The title of the blog pretty much sums up my life alot right now.
I think it's disgusting how much scrilla rules our lives today.
Being 18 and living on my own blows, just because the cost of housing is next to near impossible to afford if you're a student and can only work a part time job. (Something needs to changgggggee lol)
Luckily for me right now I'm not one, but when I do start to go back to school, a phone call to my parents and possibly a student loan is going to be made.

So, I definatly just wish I just didn't get aout of bed this morning.
Definatly having one of the worst, frustrating days ever.
So starting it off, someone was trying to call me, I would answer but, oh wait!!! I can't. You know why? Because Telus is under "technical difficulties."
Cooooo-ul!
Technical difficulties meaning that I can't answer anyone's call, and I can't call out. That's just fuckin sweet.
So then I had to text my Dad,( yes my dad) and ask him if he would nicely come over to pick me up so I can use my parents' house phone to call Telus to see what the fuck is up. Obviously, story of his life, he makes it into one huge confrentation and says to me, "Go use a pay phone" Are you kidding me? You can't drive tne minutes out of your way to help me out?
I give in, I walk down to Safeway, even though it's only a 5 min walk, I get there about to call Telus thinking to myself that I'm going to look like some crazy person that's screaming into the phone complaining, when my work calls.
Obv I can't answer my phone, but me being a retard I call them back with out checking the voicemail that was left. Because it was someone asking me to take one of their shifts tonight. I could have just listened to the voicemail and not called back, not my fault I'm not avaible( which I am, but I'm trying to make the best out of this day I have off)
I call back, I take the shift, put on the spot, can't lie and say I'm doing something( cuz I'm not).
I call my Dad asking if he can drive me to work in the next hour or so, and of course when it comes to work he jumps right on the fact.

Erggghh! I don't know if I'm in the state of mind to be around people right now, mainly customers, but we'll see how it goes I guess.
Also not to mention, I ended up chilling with my "whatever he is bf/non bf" the other night, things were good, had a good time, said he would call me after he got off work last night, did I get a call?? Of course not! I know my phone wasn't working but him at least makingt he effort to call me, or text me would have been nice too!?
Whatever, he can pretty much kick rocks.
Dunnndi with him, for good.

Soo.
I'm thinking that I need to focus on me again.
I have an awesome job, but bringing in more scrilla would definatly be much nicer. Liiving on your own having your own freedom does have its' downsides.
Having to fork over for rent every month is pretty lame I'd say. Really wanting to have a roomate again, but I'm pretty sure I'll have to wait till I'm 19 so I can legally sign for my own place and not have one last thing that my parents can hold over my head.

19 definatly is the special number. Not for just being legal going out all the time but shitt. I won't be considered an LG anymore, and that definatly makes me happy.

So back to job wise, thinking about trying to balance out two jobs?

Done with guys...you can read one of my first blog entries' and I pretty much feel the same way I did 6 or 7 months ago.
They can come to me

Soo he's definatly confusing me!!??
He says he needs a break to focus on his life...which I understand.
But when I ask him..he's speechless!
I don't know what to do...I'm hella upset about it.
I can't stop thinking about him..and apparently he can't either from my "resource".

So I've definatlly been pretty happy for the past couple days chilling with this boy..
And I can pretty much be myself around him which is kinda hard to accomplish with most guys..
We shall see how it goes?:)

I swear I'm really not a negative person.
There's just a few things that kinda bug me..


One thing that I feel kind of hyprocritical by mentioning it, because I did the same thing when I was in a relationship is why guys nor girls, but I'm mainly talking about the guys from my view; stop their communicating with the opposite sex while they're in a relationship!?
K, one thing I can understand why a guy may not want to keep in contact with a girl and try out being/remaining friends with her; is if she was in the category "Friends with benefits" or most commenly called, a bootycall.
Then of course you have the situation with the overprotective girlfriend, which is never good.
Yea I was like that, but onyl because "he" was the EXACT same way towards me for no reason??
But those are the only reasons that I can think of??
There's really only been one guy I know that has remained friends with me throughout relationships. Friends as in communicating frequently. Something that apparently most guys just can't comprehend.
Anyways, I always seem to be there anyways for my guy friends that end up breaking up with their gf's.
I guess that makes me a pushover??

So I pretty much don't know why I even bother expressing my thoughts on this site?!
Like, why?
It's pretty much a 5% chance that someone's actually gonna take the time to read all this shit in my blogs(don't even get me started on my page)
I guess that there's really nothing exciting to read in my blogs if you don't know me well enough.
Soo then why do I do it?
Fuck if I know.
But hey, I've allready started so why not just continue it??

Yess I'm sitting at home at 12:30 on a Friday night writing a blog on nex while I get alot of pigs messaging me asking for my msn and to go on webcam.
Why do you ask?
Because my Thursday night was my weekend, and I have to work tomorrow..
Definatly got way to drunk to deal as well as being retartedly hungover for my sister's dance recital later on in the evening.
Went to Duncan, got my drink on, visited my sexy bitchezzz, and had a good time.
Now, it's back to reality.
Wooooorrrksies till whenever my next two days off in a row are.
Hoping that it's actually gonna be warm enough to be able to go swimming cuz the river's the place to be when thats going on for sure.

Soo I just moved down to Vic close to 3 weeks ago
Living on my own, which isn't anything new and special to me; besides the fact of having no roomates this time around.
I'm enjoying it though..yea it can get kinda lonely and boring at times..but I need to get over that and have my life filled with distractions.
I work full time so there's one..
On my days off I tend to still go down to Duncan to visit my friends there's two..
Having someone to be able to talk to every night and chill out with would be pretty sweet
But too bad my attitude towards that has changed becasue of past situations that I need not to get into at this point.

I hope this summer goes well..
Hopefully alot of partying going on and meeting new people cuz that's definatly what summer's known for righhhht?