Grandpa
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Seeing you suffer and be so unhappy is so hard on me. I never thought i would see the day that something could take you down. You were the most helpful, caring person i have ever met. If anyone needed anything you were always there no matter what even if you didn't know them well. Your family means the most to you and i know that because you did everything for me. You picked me up whenever i needed you too, and when i was little in the pond almost drowning, you saved me even though you couldnt swim, you are my angel, and saviour. You have done so much for me and i wouldnt be were i am right now if it wasn't for yoou. You're 74 years old and have been workings since your 15, even though you don't need to work now you still do, because you love it that much, you're that strong that you could be working out on a paving site 3 months ago. But everything changed so fast, you got so sick so quick. I've never seen you cry before in my life until this sickness came, and when i saw you cry i knew that this wasnt good or easy for you. Because it takes alot to bring you down. I hate seeing you this way, and i would do absolutley anything to make you feel better, you mean to much to me and in these past 2 months i have grown so close to you, and i could only wish i had more time too and i hope i do. I wish for a miracle to happen and for you to get better quickly. You're too young to pass away, and if you do i know you will be happy in heaven and watching over all of us. All i want is for you to be happy, i cant explain how much love i have for you. I remember all times at the acerage i would sit in the wagon while you were mowing the lawn and you would pull me along behind the lawn mower, or picking pees out of ur garden and i would always eat them. Playing cards with yoou at the kitchen table for hours, and then you cheated one time and we still laugh at that to this day. I would do anything to have that all back, i know you're strong, and can tough it out. I just don't want you to give up, you mean so much to me and to so many other people. You are in so many peoples prayers, god only knows what will happen, and what is best for you. Wether its to be with your family or if you have given as much as possible to the world and its time for you to go. As long as you're happy grandpa, that's all i want. You use to tell me i ate like a bird, now you eat nothing at all and are so skinny, i would eat all the food in the world for you too eat again. I just want the happy, healthy you back and i know you do too. I know you're scared, you never admit to being scared but you do now. I know this sickness is so bad and is taking over but i know you can be strong enough to take control and make it through it. You were on my roof putting up christmas lights 3 months ago, and even when you were in the hospital a month ago and you were able to walk you were still helping the other patients in the room. You're such a good man, who would do anything for anyone, you are so strong and everyone looks up to you for that. No one i know could compare to you, you are one of a kind with a huge heart. You have a big family that loves you to death and wants you to get better, and its killing us to see you like this, but we tough it out and stand by you no matter how much it hurts. It's so hard not knowing what sickness you have, the doctors can't even figure it out, but i hope they do soon, and when they do i hope there is a cure grandpa. I love you to death, and i know you know it. When i tell you it in the hospital, i feel so happy hearing you say it back to me. I care about you so much and i am so thankful for everything you have done for me, i would do anything for you. I'm trying my hardest to help you out as much as possible, you mean the world to me and i'll keep praying everynight that you'll get better and that god will give you the strength to make it through this. Because you're strong and you can tough it out. This is just one bump in the road, and i know you can make it past it, knowing you..you would probably fix that bump in the road. I love you grandpa, please get better, never forget how much you mean to us, and even if it is leaving us and going to heaven to be healthy and happy again then so be it because thats all i want for you. I know you will look down on us and protect us and lead us in the right direction, but i also know you would do that now if you were feeling better. I love you grandpa, i can't say it enough. I'll always be your peanut and angel.
i love you, i love you, i love you.
xoxoxoxo
