i no i'll be ok alone..
i will survive..
but y would i want to?
when i could be with u?
its hard to even imagine how much pain i felt from him
its embarassing really to even admit that i liked him that much
and still dont no why i did.
i think of him at times, its hard not to, and i pinch myself and think:
how can u still even think like that after everything hes done?
then i realize why all those girls i no go back to them
the ones who beat them
cheat on them
put them down
its not love
its how we are
she started off where it all began she explianed how they met,
and how she fell for him almost immdeaitly.
how she had no idea what she was getting into.
how he made her happier than she`s ever really been.
then they got to the part when it all started too come crashing down.
When the fights started too replace all the cute conversations they once had.
She got to the part about how much she hates him and how she didn`t care at all
Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y
before the tears started filling her eyes she didn`t even understand why she was crying .
just trying too understand then finally she figured it out
she doesn`t hate him she just hates the way things have changed
and how he deals with it the reason she doesn`t miss him is because when they talk
it`s always a fight and a dissapointment in the end
and thing`s just arn`t the way they were before & that`s what she hates the most.
so
as i get older
i find it harder to not have a dad
like at first i thought
i'll get over it
i mean how hard can it be
lots of ppl have to do it
but it's just
now that certain milestones in my life are happenin
it's hard to just email u about them
but the thing is
as hard as it is like this
it'd be even harder to start over
i don't no if i can
.SO.. i met someone else.
.and he makes me happy.
.he doesn't kiss my hand.
.or call me sweetie.
.but we have fun together.
.and i can be myself around him.
u guys are actually a lot alike
except...he's better
DAMN boy,
i think ur more of a
drama queen
then me
