I love you. I love you. I love you. I always want to tell you how much I love you! I am saving money for thailand. I think I will get 500 this month. This next pay cheque should be good. I love when you talk about kids with me, I know it's scary but I wouldn't have them until you're ready. When we cuddle at night I love having you in my arms. Last night when we were wrapped up in blankets and watching Walking dead I was sooo happy. You're my world baby. With you in it I feel wonderful. I know you and me are good together.
Been a while since I have posted.
Right now I feel as though life is on a steady pace to head some where magnificent. But sometimes I don't feel like I have that security. I love her to pieces and that is sucky sometimes because I know I love her more then she loves me. In some parts of me I hold back inside now because I don't want to be hurt if she leaves me. But I try and not think about that. She says that I shouldn't and to give her time to love me completely. Maybe she thinks that I love every girl the way I love her, but she doesn't understand me then. She needs to be in my brain and my heart to see how it makes sense to me. I just want her to understand. But she doesn't believe half the things that I say, even though I say them often.......I feel like she thinks I lie, and I am not a liar......WELLLL except maybe about smoking
But that is for her own good! Haha, she knows anyways. So what does it matter. I may not be the best human on the planet but every time I say something I really mean it. I watch what I say to everyone in order to make sure that everything I say is right. I still think every day about how she said it's hard to tell me she loves me. Makes me feel like she loves me less. Makes me want to just want to hold back until she finally does love me the way I love her. I have a hard time dealing with that. It's hard to go from a girl telling you she loves you everyday to her never saying it. How would it be if it were reverse?? It would probably not feel very good because it sure doesn't feel very good inside me. Sorry for making your life complicated. But I wanted to be the one to make you happy forever. Not someone else. You'd understand if you saw into how I felt......
Right now I feel as though life is on a steady pace to head some where magnificent. But sometimes I don't feel like I have that security. I love her to pieces and that is sucky sometimes because I know I love her more then she loves me. In some parts of me I hold back inside now because I don't want to be hurt if she leaves me. But I try and not think about that. She says that I shouldn't and to give her time to love me completely. Maybe she thinks that I love every girl the way I love her, but she doesn't understand me then. She needs to be in my brain and my heart to see how it makes sense to me. I just want her to understand. But she doesn't believe half the things that I say, even though I say them often.......I feel like she thinks I lie, and I am not a liar......WELLLL except maybe about smoking
But that is for her own good! Haha, she knows anyways. So what does it matter. I may not be the best human on the planet but every time I say something I really mean it. I watch what I say to everyone in order to make sure that everything I say is right. I still think every day about how she said it's hard to tell me she loves me. Makes me feel like she loves me less. Makes me want to just want to hold back until she finally does love me the way I love her. I have a hard time dealing with that. It's hard to go from a girl telling you she loves you everyday to her never saying it. How would it be if it were reverse?? It would probably not feel very good because it sure doesn't feel very good inside me. Sorry for making your life complicated. But I wanted to be the one to make you happy forever. Not someone else. You'd understand if you saw into how I felt......