You were all I had, you were my best friend. Not a day goes by
I don't think about you. Wondering if you're missing me like i miss
you. Wondering if your thinking about me, or at least sometimes
think about us. I'm sorry things happened the way they did, I
wish I could go back and change what happened to you. I miss being
with you, feeling that warm sensation rise up to my chest when you spoke
to me. I hate the way things have changed, mostly the way you changed.
Ill never forget you, or your touch. I'll never forget the way you'd roll your eyes,
and sigh. I wont forget the way you played with my hair. The way
your cerulean blue eyes brightened up when you laughed.
You're smell is programmed into my mind. I'm never going to forget the
times we laughed, and the times we fought. I'm never going to forget the
way I felt for you. The times I cried over you, the times we broke up, the
times we got back together, I will never forget who you were. I'm never
going to stop loving you, I will never stop believing in you. I want to say
I need you, but the few years we've been through prove to me that I can
survive without your voice, without your kisses. I can wake up in the morning,
and not have to talk to you. I know I can live my life without you loving me today.
It doesn't mean I wont want too, talk to you or tell you how much I miss you,
how much it hurts to realize i have to let go. I'm never going to forget the cold
rainy days we'd lay on Dan's couch. Or the freezing snowy days we'd freeze
outside by ourselves, together. I wont let go of the memories we had at
the ramp park, or in the laundry mat..or the conversations we shared.
The things we told, the secrets we swapped, the kisses we exchanged.
I'll never forget the one person who will always be my first love.
Even though I will not forget..I know I must let go of the one person
I never wanted to lose. I never wanted to lose you. Never.
I never wanted my family to split up either, or Jesse to move away,
I never wanted to see the things I did, or stop talking to the people
that used to be in my life. I didn't want to let you go, I never wanted
anything bad to ever happen to you. Im sorry baby, for everything that
has ever happened. I will never regret you, you were the best thing that
ever happened to me. You were everything to me, and I never thought
I could live without you..here I am..living without you.
