wow babe.
i can't believe its been two years without you.
i stil miss you, but it's been a lot easier lately.
i still won't forget.
forever and a day, until i'm with you again.

Alright so I came to the realization of something today, as un-profound as it may be, I felt the need to share it.
Don’t ask why, I don’t know.
Growing up we’ve always had something to think forward to, the next big thing in our lives and the lives of our friends. In Junior high it was going to high school. High school it was graduation. But now things have changed.
Life always seemed to revolve around who’s dating who, and how long they would last. People who judge you by who you hung out with and the things that you did, but little of this would actually make a great impact on your life. Yes there was the rare occasion when something would change your world forever, but not always.
But now, for myself and those who are in my age group, things are different. The people we know now, those who we interact with are the ones who will make us who we will be. In the near future it isn’t going to be who’s dating who, but who is engaged to who, which wedding is coming next, and who’s going to have kids. Yes I realize that most of us are only 18, but this is the beginnings of our adult lives.
Its time to move on from the small things. They just aren’t important anymore.
Everyone needs to grow up and move on, don’t let life pass you by, make time form your friends, but know when you need to be serious. Have fun, but don’t get drunk every night, work hard, but don’t dedicate your life to it.
This is where we shape our lives. This is the time that matters.
Be who you want to be, but don’t forget who you are. Meet new people, but never forget your friends. Follow your heart, but mind who you give it too. Be open-minded, but don’t lose yourself in what you’re doing.
This is when our lives start changing.

I think I really screwed up this time......
Fuck!!!!!

Instructions:
Write fifteen statements,
Intended to different people.
Never tell which one is to who.

1. i care about you a lot, and i really want you to realize what an amazing guy you are.
2. you my dear have become a disappointment to me, i thought you would be so much more than what you've become.
3.i love you. i won't say it outloud, and i won't say it to you. but you know, i know you do. in the end though, its not going to change anything between us.
4. we've fallen away from eachother, and that worries me. i had always trusted you, but so much has happened and i've heard so many things. i don't want to believe what i'm told, and i want to fix us. i just don't know how, we're not the same people anymore.
5. i miss you, i know you're still here, but you've pulled into yourself, and that scares me becuase i don't know what you're thinking and i worry about you. i love you to much to lose you.
6. you've turned into me, and it doesn't suit you. i don't like who i've become so i hate the fact that thats who you've beocme. we're just not as close anymore.
7. i don't know what to think about you. sometimes you're the guy i like to be with, and then there are other times that you just repulse me and i just don't get you.
8. i hate me too, but you really don't need to remind me how much my life sucks.
9. should we call a truce?
10. no the things you say don't affect me. get used to the fact that i'm not going to hide who i used to be, so if you're going to try and blackmail me go ahead. it won't work.
11. i'm going to miss seeing you, but times have changed and i don't fit in there anymore. it was time to go for me.
12. i still haven't figured out what we are. have you?
13. i thought i still hated you - but i've now realized that i've moved on, you're not part of my life anymore, and if you ever do come back where we stand from there will be up to you.
14. i'm not the girl you think i am.
15. shall we take another shot at this thing called friendship? or are we really though this time?

The reason I can't move on is
because I have nothing to move on to;
I gave it all up for you.

POST THiS IF YOU AREN'T SCARED TO SEE HOW PEOPLE THINK OF YOU

0 = ewwwwwwwwwwww!
1 = Definetly not attractive.
2 = Decent
3 = Fine
4 = Fine as hell!
5 = I'd do you.
6 = Pretty damn sexy!
7 = Lovable, I LOVE YOU!!!
8 = I wanna make you my man/girl.
9 = Just a friend.
10 = Sexiest person I know!
11 = Fuckin gawjus
12 = Ya, I've checked you out a few times.
13 = i wanna fuck u
14.= Let's get married!

Most Personal Quiz Ever


What woke you up this morning? My alarm clock
Where are you? In california
Is tomorrow going to be a good day? Hell yes, it’s gonna be 32 degree’s out, I’m gonna be tanning!!
Did you kiss somebody today? Haha…… vacations are supposed to be fun right
Do you like anybody other than your bf/gf? I do, which is really easy cause I don’t have a bf

THE PAST

Ever thrown up in public? I was three, not a fair question
Passed out because of alcohol? Not that I remember, but theres a lot I don’t remember when I drink
What's on your mind RIGHT NOW? My English essay

THE FUTURE

Would you take a bullet for anyone? For some people
What kind of home would you like? One away form my family
What do you want to be when you grow up? lawyer
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? Still in school

Do you like candy necklaces? no
When was the last time you fell over or ran into something? About 5 mins ago
Do you listen to music every day? yep
Do you still go trick or treating? no
What was the last thing you ate? An orange fresh from my backyard
Are you a fast typer? yes
About how many people have you liked/had a crush on? …… I have no idea
What are you doing this weekend? Shopping, tanning, sleeping, tanning, swimming, oh and shopping.
Whats your favorite type of soda? Don’t got one
Have you ever moved? yep
Have you ever won an award? A few actually
What do you want to do right now? Put on my grad dress again
Are you listening to music right now? Yes
When were you the saddest in your whole life? when Steve died
What time is it? 12:28 PM
Have you ever heard a song written about you? Yes actually, and it was the most amazing thing I ever heard
Honestly, do you miss 2007? Not at all

HONESTY SECTION

1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? black
2. Honestly, what is on your mind? The boy I like
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? Writing this thing.
4. Honestly, Do you think Carrie Underwood is attractive? Yes.
5. Honestly, who is your best friend? Sarah Wetyk and Cody Baker
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? Haha, lets not go there
8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? Chris
9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? No
10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? Ignorant ass holes
11. Honesly, do you bite your nails? no
12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? Depends on who you ask, but majority say yes
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? yes
14. Honestly are you keeping a big secret now? yes
15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like? yes
16. Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat? no
17. Honestly, do you like anyone? Yes i do.
18. Honestly, does anyone like you? Yes 2 I know for sure do

ANGER SECTION

1. What do you do when you're mad? Walk away
2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? Lets not go there
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? Yes
4. Do you swear when you're mad? Sometimes, that or I get really really quiet

CRYING SECTION

1.When was the last time you actually cried? 2 days ago
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep? Yes
3. Do certain songs make you cry? Yes they do
4. What usually makes you cry? memories

HAPPY SECTION

1. Are you usually a happy person? I think so
2. What makes you the happiest? being with my friends.
3. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy? I do, but only if they really mean it. It’s nice to know someone thinks I look good.

anyone want to be my grad date?

i'm watching my entire world fall apart in front of me.
and this time, i'm not sure what i can do to stop it.