my rant of the day is fucking idiotic parents.
let me explain.

i HATE my sister-in-law's mother. with a huge passion. but i LOVE her sisters. so last night i get phone call asking if i will babysit lisa's (my sister-in-law) sisters.
i have nothing to do last night so i say ya why not. make a bit of cash. so my brother comes and gets me, and drives me over there. their mom (velvet) is already gone, but lisa is there. so lisa and my brother leave, and i am alone with the girls. so we play a few games and made paper easter eggs for their mom and dad (who are divorced).
then i get the girls ready for bed and get them to bed. they fall asleep, and are sleeping quite contently. then about 2:30 am, their mom comes home.

drunk out of her tree. and i am not talking just a little drunk. she is totally fucking loaded. fine. to each their own. but she is drunk to the point that she has issuas taking off her SLIP ON shoes!!!
she goes to check on the girls and YELLS "AWW THEY ARE SLEEPING LIKE LITTLE BUGS IN A RUG!!" and woke one of them up, the older one, who is ten.
so she pretends to be asleep, so she doesnt have to see mom drunk.
velvet asks if i mind staying the night, as it would cost a fortune sending me home in a cab, and she will drive me home in the morning. i say sure why not, and she puts me in her bed.
the ten-year old waits till mom is passed out on the couch and comes and cuddles up with me.
then, in the morning, mom realizes that she forgot about the "easter bunny", so she throws some eggs around the house and the girls get up to find them.
then she is sitting on the couch with the older girl, and looks at her and goes "wow did mom drink ALOT last night. i was really really drunk"

the girl is TEN!!! she doesnt need to hear that shit. and you can just see in the girls eyes that she is totally sad now because her mom is just a boozehound. and she is telling the ten-year old girl about the guy her friends tried to set her up with. again, SHE IS TEN!!

fuck i hate that woman!!!!
but she did pay me $60

so we dont end up leaving saskattoon till 2:30 saskatoon time today. driving and driving along, my brother, who had surgery on his eye like 14 months ago, decides he HAS to have sunglasses around hanley. so he goes in and buys sunglasses.

so we get back on the road and are doing good, making good time. we get to regina and stop at the husky. go in, pee, get coffee, you know, pit stop. i go to let my cat out of her house, as she has been in there since about 11am, and she flips. so i pick her up, and what does she do?

SHE PEES ON ME!!!!

then my brother comes running out of the husky, cant find his wallet. flips out, searches the car. nothing. so he then realizes that the last place he remembers having it is hanley.

so he calls 411, gets the number to the gas station there, and calls. this guy answers and tells my brother that the wallet is there, and he will ship it. but he wont get it till tuesday or wednsday. so i end up paying for the rest of the trip on a VERY limited budget.

we then continue on down the road. a friend of ours is staying in verdin, so we stop to see him. and when we start to get back on the road, guess what? YOU CANT SEE A DAMN THING!!!!

my brother is literally doing 30 fucking kilometres down the trans canada highway. then we see a semi smoke a car. even more fun. makes you feel all warm and tingly and want to keep driving, eh?

so we stop, and they are all okay. everything is good. so we continue on down the highway, going 30, remember, and it takes an hour and forty five minutes to get to brandon from verdin!!!!! just to point out, that is a half hour to 45 min trip.

so we get to brandon, and it starts letting up. we stop at mcdonalds, and did you know that they charge for mcchicken sauce? hm. feelin a little fucked over on that one. anyways.

after mcdonalds, we continue home. and my brother starts falling asleep behind the wheel!!!!!! so i turn up the music and get him to sing. keeping him occupied. because remember, i dont have a driver's license.

so he has to pull over twice to take 15 min naps. fine. i'm not dead, its all good.

and now..... i am home........

well i am taking off tomorrow. i am really scared. i am picking up my life and moving it away because of a whim i made about 3 months ago. it is kinda scary for me. i have never lived anywhere else, so this is a new one for me.

so i am at school and my teacher is totally ignoring me. so i am sitting here on nex, and i just wasted three hours doing so. but whatever.

i am so ready to just be done school and move to winnipeg. i am going to be so happy when i go. but i am sad now because i dont want to leave everyone. it is a hard thing to do

i just got an email from the company that i am trying to get hired onto that says that when i am there in feb!!!!

well, the day is getting closer.....
i am moving on april 1st instead of may 1st. and the best part is that we found a house!!! it is a 5 bedroom, 4 story, 3 bathroom house and it works out to be around 450 a month each!!! it is fucking sweet. but i still need to find someone to go on a road trip with me. i dunno..... that is all for today.
xoxoxox

has anyone ever considered dropping out of a course that they payed $10,000 for? because i am. this shit is getting hard for me to concentrate on. my mind has totally gone to lunch. but that is okay because i only have a couple of months left before i can just take off and move to another city. another city that is kinda shitty beyond belief. but why not?

i am at school right now, and it is just kindof nothing. we were the only class in the city to start at 9am this morning after the huge blizzard. and why is that? because we are RETARDED!!! YAY!!! we had class, and we HAD to be there. but hey, shit happens, right? it is okay that my dad almost hit someone on the way here because the fucking idiot decided to walk into the middle of the god damn street. oh well, that would be his fault. but hey, thats life. i cant wait to be away from this city and this catty class. i am outcasted because i am the youngest. by like a year and a half. but of well. back to the shit i have to do.

well it is really early in the morning, or late. however you want to look at it. i am just sitting here thinking about all of the things that make life go.... and for some reason, i just keep coming back to the idea that nothing really matters. my parents are mad at me for moving to winnipeg, and i am having.... issues with my roommates. i have been outcasted at school because i am totally different than every one else. and apparently that just isnt a good thing. sorry that i am now in college and i want to act like an adult. the scary part about that is that i am the youngest in the class. and to top it all off, adam and lisa go home tomorrow (well technically today, but hey) and it is pretty hard to deal with. but i will see them soon enough, and soon i will be living with them. oh well. back to school for me. somewhere i dont belong in the first place. may as well get some sleep. night

well everyone who cares.... or just anyone who may be reading this......
i have news....
i am moving to winnipeg on May 1,2007.
i have decided that it is time to move on from the life i live here in saskatoon.
so, i will be moving in with adam and lisa.... for those of you who dont know who they are, adam is my brother, and lisa is my sister-in-law.

so does anyone remember my last issue with men?
well, this last one that took off... and i mean, totally disappeared off the face of the planet... literally.... has been telling all of our friends that he came over to my house and dumped me. how fun. and that i cried, and begged him not to go. so now i have to try and explain all this shit.... see what i mean by bad fish?

Long lasting and sweet,
A sign of complete comfort,
Sealed with a kiss.

My anger....

People always say “cry me a river”,
And with that comes more sadness,
But then suddenly comes the madness,
And the look in her eyes makes me shiver.

It won’t come down, not even a sliver,
She comes to me and becomes breathless,
She sees my anger in all its greatness,
I give the best look I can render.

Even though my anger may scare her,
I sometimes almost scare her to death,
It makes her want to run away.

Our opinions may sometimes differ,
I will always feel on my cheek her breath,
I know she loves me enough to stay.

You can ask me any six questions -
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.



I dont care how random, revealing, rude, naughty or pointless,
& I promise to answer them 99% truly and honestly in message.
Copy this and post it on your blog to see what people ask you -

Name 20 people you can think of right off the top of your head...
Don’t read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people.

*......*......*

1. peter
2. mclean
3. rochelle
4. christine
5. adam
6. andrew
7. lisa
8. carla
9. faude
10. ozzy
11. ryan
12. sam
13. rhonda
14. christie
15. matt
16. melissa
17. abbas
18. tyler
19. jason
20. mike

*......*......*......*......*......*......*......* ......*

Q: how did you meet 14 ?
A: school

Q: what would you have to do to see 10 ?
A: go to my parents and then walk across the street or just go to work

Q: what would you do if 20 and 9 dated ?
A: laugh my fucking ass off. one is a friend i have had since i was like 13 and the other is my boss

Q: would 20 and 12 make a good couple ?
A: wow that is a thinker.... maybe

Q: describe 6?
A: annoying

Q: do you think 19 is attractive ?
A: i hope so... he is my ex-boyfriend

Q: tell me something wierd about 17?
A: i dont know him that well yet. he sucks just as bad as me at pool

Q: do you know any of 4's family members ?
A: i hope so. we grew up together

Q: what would you do if 18 just confessed they liked you ?
A: say "i should hope so. we were kindof engaged for a year and a half.

Q: when's the last time you talked to 13 ?
A: about 13hours ago

Q.what is 2's favorite band ?
A: oh my god i dont know

Q: would you ever date 5 ?
A: well he is my brother and all. but he is a very handsome man as we do look alot alike... lol

Q: is 11 single ?
A: nopers

Q: would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 16 ?
A: hell ya, my little melissa would be the best lesbian. she is so adorable. she is like 4'9"

Q: where does 15 live ?
A: about a 5 min drive from my mothers

Q: are number 7 & 8 best friends ?
A: nope. they used to work together but that is about it.

Q: thoughts on 3?
A: she is so cute and young. STAY AWAY FROM MCLEAN! HE IS MINE! lol

Q: do you like 1 ?
A: he is my best friend in the world. i hope so.

Lasts
**********************************
Last person you hugged
ummmm..... i think it was mclean at work, cuz he is my dream man only he is too young for me

Last car ride
about an hour and a half ago

Last time you cried
yesterday

Last movie you watched
10 things i hate about you

Last food you ate
pizza

Last item you bought
pizza

Last shirt you wore
..... my black with white pinstripes work shirt

Last phone call
peter, and on the phone with him right now

Last text message
"omg so you need to call me i have a great story for you!!!"
my roommate erin

Last kiss
about a week and a half ago

Last thing you touched
my discman

Last funeral
my very good friend patrick

Last trip to the mall
friday

Last time you were excited for something
right now because my brother and sister in law are coming home for a week tomorrow

Last person you saw
My brother and his girlfriend

Last thing you drank
corona

Last person that broke your heart
tyler

Last time you were happy
some time today

Last plane ride
never

Last dream
last night


Firsts
**********************************************
Drank alcohol?
thirteen

Got kissed?
eleven

Got your heart broken?
when i was 16

Got arrested?
ummmm.... also when i was 16

Smoked a cigarette?
about 7

Lost someone close to you?
about 11

Broken a bone?
never

Got cheated on?
15

Rode the city bus?
13

Went to a concert?
lol i went to the Backstreet Boys when i was like 14

Met someone famous?
i have no idea

Dyed your hair?
grade 7

Had sex?
i reserve the right to withhold that information

Got your own cell phone?
18

Had a boy/girl friend?
about 12

Got the Internet?
I dont remember.

Joined Myspace?
never

Snuck out of the house?
too many times to remember when the first one was

Got your own digital camera?
never

Got Drunk?
about 13