to my dearest.
you were my friend; you were my lover,
you were my memories; and now your just my tears.
april 21'st - we were memories.
june 17th - my birthday will come around,
and on,
june 20th - my tears will fall down.
imissyou,soso,much.
why did you have to leave, and abandon me?
i wish we could talk again,,
but it's official, that -can never happen again.
i wish i could see you,,
but it's official, that -will never happen.
your gone,,
and my mind won't process that thought,
cause honestly i don't want it to be true.
and i'm so sorry,
i just didn't know.
you were going through so much, and
i just kept on getting mad at you,
and venting out on you,
and you listened,
you listened to me, my heart,
you listened,
and you cared.
why did you have to die on me like that?
i was waiting, and waiting and waiting for you.
i feel so stupid, i'm so pathetic.
i went and dated other guys,
while you had that horrible crisis,
and you still thought of me no matter what,
while i went out having a good time,
enjoying myself.
and you couldn't do that.
i'm a horrible person,
why?, why?
why couldn't i just push you to tell me.
i had a hunch, but i just ignored it.
i was wrong.
and i'm sorry...................
we could've been something,
we could've lasted a long time.
we did.
but it should've been longer.
your young,
you deserved a life.
you were broken, and
i couldn't do anything,,
the sadest thing is though-
i never even got to say goodbye.......