So I was sitting here thinking about literally everything right now.. then I thought about my mom and I have never once thought about this before and I really regret it.. I am so pissed off at the doctors.. Let me explain 1 thing before I get to the point. My mother once had liver problems and it caused her a lot of trouble throughout the years and she was hospitalized and almost died because of it and that was when I was in daycare. Finally after years of meds she got cured and her liver was fine. Then randomly during fall, a year before she passed away my mother got pretty sick and well our doctor was away because he himself had a heart attack and was taking time off so this bitch doctor took his place and didn't take the time to meet with my mom but just talked to her on the phone reassuring her that it was just a flu... no one keeps a flue for months and cries about the pain and that is what happened to my mom and she then lost her appetite and my mom never complained so it was very serious and we all knew that but the doctor still insisted that it was just a flu and that she should take more gravel then spring came... mom was in so much pain that my dad had to rush her to the hospital so they found that she had cancer in her liver and with no questions or possibilities except for chemo that would possibly let her live a bit longer she only had 6 months to a year to live. So I got thinking tonight... why couldn't they just give her a liver transplant since at the time it was just her liver. There are so many ways she could have gotten a new liver, they could have found a dead donor or even a relative could easily have given up part of their liver for mom to have lived which wouldn't have been a big deal since livers do grow back. I know you have to make sure that the tissues and stuff have to match pretty good or else there would be tissue rejection and stuff but they didn't even have the decency to try any of that. My mom could be alive right now if it weren't for those idiot doctors especially that bitch who wouldn't even have a check up with my mom. I am so mad...

Alrighty so... I was just relaxing just a fiew monents ago enjoying whatever was on tv...Then all of a sudden I got a nudge so I was like alright could be someone important so why not... I got up and it was just some lozer...

depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
sLm ?
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depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com just sent you a nudge.
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depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
ii
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
hii
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
hello
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
how are you ?
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
good n u?
depresif_styleZ1@hotmail.com says:
qooD ..
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
were ı From ??
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
Saskatoon
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
oké ?!
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
hhow old are you ?
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
19
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
waoff
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
very nice picture
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
thank you
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
very cute
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
where r u from?
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
tRkey !
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
oh
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
open WEP glass
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
I would live to see this beauty
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depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
oooo
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
very sweet, or
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
ty
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
but you have sleep

depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
:D:D:D:D
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
what?
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
Do your sleep?
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
I haven't slepped yet
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
5:02am
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
waof
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
14.02
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
here
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
watz that in normal time?
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
noon
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
I would love to have a lover like you have sexs
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
oh ok
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
oh
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
arms tightly to my side whether I would leave no
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
nice
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
I want something you can
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
what?
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
I want you to see exactly

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weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
i can see perfectly
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
standing
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
lol you need to learn proper english
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
n you stand up?? please i want to see you lol
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
I can stand up yea but I'd rather not
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
What to do with the show do you think?
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
I have never done anything with any show but watch. And yes I do think
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
You will accompany you?
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
if i show you my something would you be with me on cam
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
I want to see you
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
I cannot accompany myself unless I clone myself. And it is impossible to be on cam with you because you are too far away.
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
I feel like I am talking to a preschool kid
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
taste in the end you will get a distance is not important

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depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
plesaa ..!
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
Taste what in the end? Don't try to be like yoda. Succeed you will not. Everything that you are saying makes no sence at all.
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
I'm just curious like you wanted to see someone's body
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
I never said I wanted to see someones body.
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
But you must be psychic...I do want to see someones body...
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
And that body is the sexy body of the man I love
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
I went 3 years Badi
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
ı went 3 years body
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
yeee
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
now I want to see you too
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
I believe you are missing some words in your sentenses... is your keyboard broken or are you that challenged?
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
Is it only removes tşirt are you?
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
I told you already...you cannot try to be like yoda! You are not smart enough to succeed at that. What are you trying to say?
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
then not only see each other now

depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
can you take off your t-shirt please?
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
It seems like you are trying to promote an add here! NOT ONLY CAN WE SEE EACHOTHER NOW BUT WE CAN SEE EACHOTHER LATER FOR ONLY AN EXTRA 5.99$!!
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
I will not take off my t-shirt to someone I don't know, expecially to someone who cannot even succeed in making sence...
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
=(=(=(=(=8
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
pllesaeee :S
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
:(:(:(:(
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
please just one minute
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
it is not hot?
depresif_stylez1@hotmail.com says:
i think your room is hot
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weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
The only person I'm taking off this shirt for is my boyfriend because he is the only person that has any brains in this world...HA I CANT BELIEVE YOU EVEN THOUGHT YOU COULD EVEN GET ME TO TAKE ANYTHING OFF...you are not worthy enough...I'd take off my shirt to a pig covered in herpie shit and rub my body all over it b4 I would ever even think of taking my shirt off for you...
weirdals_pal1@hotmail.com says:
you are highly annoying me...blockage time...goodbye

FACT: about the person you like? He says silly a lot

WHAT: happened at 11:00 am today? Not sure, I can't predict the future..not 11am yet haha

ARE YOU: wearing something you borrowed from someone? nono hahah

WHAT: is the last thing someone bought you? Tania helped pay for my burgerking lol

WHO: took your profile picture on Facebook? Myself of course

WHAT'S: your current problem? Chad

WHO WAS: the last person you saw? lol Chad.

LAST: person you freaked out on? My sister

WHERE: did you last go? In Chads car lol

THINGS: you say a lot when you are mad? Fucking bitch, fuck you, fuck off, and so on haha

DO YOU: delete people off of Facebook? not unless they are freshly from turkey

FAVE: soda? - Coke or orange pop

DO YOU: crack your knuckles? Hell no lol

HAVE YOU: cried today at all? Yes at 12am

ARE YOU: ticklish? yea.. ahhh

ARE YOU: happy right now? Mostly lol

WHO WAS: the last person you talked to last night before bed? Chad

HAVE YOU MADE: a mistake this past week? yea kinda lol

DO YOU: miss someone? Of course! Even though I saw him last night lol

DO YOU KNOW: someone with the same name as you? I kno of them?

WHEN WAS: the last time you really laughed? A bit before 1am

HOW LONG: is your hair? Average long haha I dunno

DID YOU: have a nap today? Too early 4 that haha

HAVE ANY: regrets? yea

DO YOU USE: an alarm clock? use to lol

DO YOU: work? going to sometime lol

ARE YOU: social or antisocial person? Social lol

DO YOU: have a tan? fuck I hope not

WHO WAS THE LAST: person to disappoint you? Chad

DO YOU TRUST: people? not really

WHAT ARE YOU DOING: ansering this thinger

HOW: did you do on the last test you took? I don't kno.. lol all I kno is I passed the class haha

WHAT: is your ring tone for when people text you? I HAVE NO CELL OHHHH!

WHAT: show did you last watch? The news lol

WHO WAS: the last person you watched a movie with? Tania omg great movie lol The Notebook

WHAT: foods make you sick? Chocolate, cake and eggs and a lot of things lol

DO YOU: get shy around the guy/girl you like? I usually am not shy around Chad but last night I kind of was lol

DO YOU: remember what you were like a year ago? yucky lol

DO YOU: still have feelings for your ex? Kinda..

ARE YOU: the youngest in your family? nope lol

WHERE ARE: most people in your top friends from? Saskatoon

ARE: there pictures of you in the room you're currently in? yea 1 of Mittsy and I.

NAME ONE THING: people think about you that's not true? uhhh?

WHAT IS : the weather like outside? kinda sunny with clouds

HAVE YOU EVER: seen a 3D movie in theaters? yea lmao lotz!

WHERE'D: you get everything that you're wearing? Walmart! lmao

HAVE YOU: memorized your social security number? no hahaha

HAVE YOU EVER: had a dream about people you love dying? Oh yes it sucks but then again it helps you appreciate them more.

WHAT WAS: the last advice you gave someone? You can't just fall out of love with some1 you love truely no matter how bad they hurt you

WHAT: radio station do you listen to the most? Wired 96.3

IF YOU DIED TODAY: would there be anything you wish you could've said to someone? Yes I woulda wished I coulda explained all the feelings I have for Chad.

WHO: is the last person you had a sleepover with? Chad! Omg that was the best night ever!

ARE YOU: on Youtube? Hahahahaha yes...

WHO: will you never forget? The people that have been wicked cool to me lol

You know I am like really unlucky...I have mostly got the shittiest boyfriend ever...ok this last guy it seemed like it was going perfect, I liked him a lot for like over a year and he claimed the same thing about me and so he moves here everything seemed to go great but then couple days ago I knew he was at the library so I ran there(i never run!) snuck up behind him he didnt notice at first but he was like talkin to sum girl who wanted to meet him and i saw he called her beautifull and it seemed like he was planning to meet her but then when he noticed I was behind him he wouldnt answer her and he was like ha that girls ugly and w.e. I didn't want to question anything so I left it alone we went to a movie it was a good night even though I wasnt feeling good. So the next day he wanted me to skip school and hang with him...I didnt really have to skip school cuz I felt shitty anyways. so we were gunna meet I was waiting for him. He comes online we talk. Everything seemed ok then guess what...He says its over and he called me a fat fukin slob...and he also told me he doesnt want anything to do with me jus cuz I'm a catholic...like wtf...hes some weird type of religion that believes that god hates lotta ppl and wont forgive them or sum crap like that...that just pissed me off...And you people kno that I would never hurt someone but because of what happened I really wanted to hurt him...

so yea I'm single again assssssss always...hmmm well I guess I'll just keep dreaming bout the dude I'm really inlove with and always will be inlove with..hahah some of you prob can guess who he is. Maybe someday he will give me another chance...who knows...anything can happen, you just gotta believe.

Well guess what!!!?!! I HAVE A BOYFRIEND YAYYYYYYYYYYY!! His names Matt and he is so sweet...sexy too lol. Awesome thing is we started dating on April 4th...HAPPY HUG DAY!!!! yay lol. This guy makes me extremely happy.

Well. I am officially not moving in with the dude so yea...kinda sux...I was kinda lookin forward to it but he got sum1 else to move in with him...And uhm I believe I'm probably going to be single tomorow...jus a feeling..a feeling that has never been wrong...

lol i don't know how to delete that last one oh well...yea I don't know about that guy anymore...I'm probably just going to end up being just a friend anyways.. I'll never be good enough for him there's always someone else with him. I wan't to give up on him but it's hard ya know? this sux lol...I really do like him though...I'm prob still gunna move with him even if it hurts when he gets a girl...I'll just keep my feelings inside of me when that happens...

Wow ok well theres this guy I really really really love. He knows it too. I hope he will love me like the way I love him. He meens a lot to me. I am so exited for the day when we are living together.

I have been craving BBQ sause for the longest time...Today omg I made porkchopas aahgjukhiphpojok
';srry...friend was tiickling me saet *at the moment geeez!!>.> well neways porkchops yes for the first time today and yea i made them S o t e uhm ok... lol well yea and I FINALLY GOT TO USE BBQ SAUCE YUMMMMMMMMMMM

Yesterday was my 18th birthday. A sad birthday at that. Sitting in the hospital right after school till night time with my mom. She didn't get to wish me a happy birthday...But I know if she could she definately would. Well this morning at 5:15am my mother passed away on us. I will miss you so fuckin much mom! I know you are up there watching me but...It;s sure not the same. I won't be able to really share my other birthdays, wedding or any other happy times with you. But I will always remember you will be there, not in body but in spirit. I miss you so much already! It shouldn't have been your time yet. You will always be in my heart forever and always and there will never be anyone on eath who will ever replace you. I love you mom.

Tis sad not being able to be with the one you love expecially when youbarely talk to them. But when you do talk to them it feels so good. God I miss talking to him. I'm going to be gone for 3 weeks and wont be able to talk to him at all in that time gosh!

Hello there. I am drinking orage joice from a box right now! wow! lol. Well yah. I'm like super bored so I'm going to write this blog thinger again. So anyways I cannot wait till July because so many things are going to happen then...GUESS WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN! no don't guess i'll just tell you lol.Well for the first 2 weeks...it is going to be scary because my family and I are going to Calgary and my mom is going to have the big surgery which will decide if she lives or if she dies...If they can't do it theres no other hope for her and she will die soon...but if it goes well shes going to be super sick for couple months but at least she will live...I hope it works! But after that my boyfriend who meens so much to me. He's like my everything! Well hes coming here. I'm so exited for that day I finally get to see him for the first time. I believe hes the one I shall be with for life! We are going to have LOTS AND LOTS OF FUN!!!! Then on July 26th at 7:30pm is THE WEIRD AL CONCERT OMFG! i've been waiting for that day ever since I was a little girl lol My dream has finally come true! but yea thats it but i aint bored no more so tootles!

Ok well today I went Garage Saleing...It was fun! I found A Pee Wee Herman doll...It was only 25cents so I baught it. And I baught A couple other toys lol. NO NOT THAT KIND OF TOYS SILLY! Well anyways...The other day I baught the new cd of The Used. Kicks ass of course. oh oh oh! I would like to know what you people think of me so here are some questions lol...

PLEASE ANSWER TRUTHFULLY!

1.Do you hate me?
2.Do you like me as a friend?
3.Do you like me as an aquaintance?
4.Do you even know who I am?
5.If so(for question 4.) What do you know about me?
6.Have we ever met?
7.When or if we met, what did you first think of me?
8.What do you think of me now?
9.Have I ever done something to hurt you or offend you in anyway(if I did I'm sorry )
10.If so, do I know about it?
11.If not, can you tell me what I did so I wont make that mistake again?
12.Am I nice?
13.Am I weird?
14.Am I quiet?
15.Am I ugly looking?
16.Do I make you sick?
17.Am I loveable?
18.Am I dateable?
19.Would you ever date me?
20.What do you like about me?(if you sumthin bout me)
21.Are you getting bored of these questions?
22.Do I have a big nose?
23.If you have time...compare a picture of me half smiling to a picture of Weird Al half smiling...is there any similarities?
23. (1/2)If so what are they?
24.What song best describes me for you?
25.Which celebrity do you think reminds you of me?
26.I am as pretty as...or...I am as ugly as???
27.What time is it?
28.What movie reminds you of me?
29.Am I important to you?
30.If I died what would you do?
31.If I cut myself what would you do?
32.If a guy were to put a loaded gun to my head and told me to cut my nose with scissors like just to snip the 1 nostrill or get shot in the head and die and I chose to cut my nose what would you think about...
a)My choise
b)His idea
c)My nose
33.If the same thing were to happen again and I chose death what would you do? And what would you think about my choise?
34.Would you marrie me?
35.Have you ever masterbated to me? Lmao (if so you can tell me privately or not answr at all..)
36.what do you think of the questions I just asked you that came from the top of my head?



Well too tell you the truth...The whole point of this blog was that I wanted to ask you if it is wrong to get turned on by a petofile? Lmao...well I never knew he was a pedolife till today when my dad told me bout him...so I looked it up and the only thing I looked up was Pee Wee's side of the story...so I don't know what to believe...LMAO!!!

I BAUGHT A SLIRPEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! BLUE RASBERRY THIS TIME. Last time I had Orange. ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh And Elysa and I went to hang out at walmart! Walmart kewl! WALMART FOR LIFE. I baught my pants from Walmart. Well I baught all my pantses from Walmart. I want army pants. Ahha Elysa is still eating her slirpee. I was done a long time ago. SHE BAUGHT A FISH AT PETLAND TODAY AND NAMED EM FISH.
Well Bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOOD MORNING ALL...
Today I got up at 11:19am but i stayed up till 5:39am...shhhhhh don't tell. So I watched the much music VJ search and FRANK FINALY GOT ELIMINATED! Although I'd like to have seen Eric get eliminated. I want Shaun to win. He's kewl.
Well after that I got dressed and headed to the computer. I MIGHT BUY A SLIRPEE TODAY!!!!! Well bye for now.