love everyone;trust no one
when the rest of the world expects you to crumble
impress them.
Stand strong & persevere.
Because nothing resembles true strength,

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This is a tribute to all the nice girls.

To the nice girls that care more than they should for guys that do not deserve their attention. To the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive the hope that maybe, just maybe this time he'll have understood. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages; who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile. This is for the girls who have been told they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship.

This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because its easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's not ready, he's just not over *her*or he's just not looking to be tied down. This is for the girls who believe the excuses, because it's easier to believe that its not that they dont want you, its that they dont want anyone.

This is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup. This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasnt that he didnt want a relationship; it was that he didnt want you.

I honor you for the nights he fought with his parents or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him. Thinking that if you only comfronted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way perhaps he'd realize what it was that he really had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to get to sleep.

This is for the girls who have listened to guys complain about how there are no nice girls and how all they really want is too meet a nice girl, for the girls that care for the guys that can't see what's right in front of them. And i'm sorry boys but that is a straight out lie. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your intermural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that arguement you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as disposable as the condom you were using during it. You don't want the nice girl. . .so dont say you're looking for a relationship, relationships take time and energy and intent, three things we're willing to extend - but in return, we're looking for compassion and loyalty, and trust, three things you never seem willing to express.
To every nice girl out there, we're in it together

Fucking Sick

Guy: "Can we have sex right now?"
Girl: "Can we do what?"
Guy: "You know, can I be your first, finally?"
Girl: "Um.....no."
Guy: "Why?"
Girl: "Because, 1. you have a girlfriend, who happens to be my friend......."
Guy: "So, if you don't tell, I won' tell."
Girl: "Besides that, I'm waiting for someone special. Someone that I want to be with for the rest of my life to be my first."
Guy: "I'm not special to you?"
Girl: "You're my friend. That's all."
Guy: looks forward and keeps driving.

5 minutes pass.......

Guy: starts to run his hand up the girl's thigh.
Girl: moves his hand, "Don't touch me"
Guy: tries to kiss her.
Girl: screams, "Would you stop."
Guy: continues trying.
Girl: moves to the back seat
Guy: parks on an abandoned street and gets in the backseat with the girl. Starts to kiss her.
Girl: pushes him off and scoots over, "Please, don't do this."
Guy: "Don't do what, I know you want it, I can see it in your eyes." Moves over to her and starts to unbutton her pants.
Girl: pushes him harder and says, "No, don't."
Guy: getting aggravated, punches her and tells her to stop "playing hard to get".
Girl: crying continues to fight.
Guy: punches her harder, pulls her pants off, and holds her down.
Girl: screams as he penetrates her, "NO, please don't do this to me!"
Guy: puts his hand over her mouth.

An hour passes.........
Guy: pulls back and wipes himself off.
Girl: sits on the corner of the seat, sobbing.
Guy: looks at her and says, "You better not tell anybody about this. If you're really my friend, you won't tell anybody about this. You know I love you." He reaches out his hand to touch her cheek.
Girl: pulls back, "Just take me home, now."
Guy: says, "Alright." Gets in the front seat and drives her home.

2 months later.........
Girl: "Doctor, what's wrong with me. I haven't had my time of the month in 2 months."
Doctor: looks at her, "You haven't been having your "time" for
a reason."
Girl: looks at him and says, "Why?" dreading the answer that she was sure to receive.
Doctor: "You are pregnant."
Girl: faints.
The story gets out that she is pregnant, and people start looking to the Guy. He claims that it isn't his because she was sleeping with every guy in the school (which was a lie).
He goes to her and tells her, "I'm telling you, if you lie to people and say that I raped you, I'll kill you."
The Girl is completely devastated. First, he took her virginity and got her pregnant....then he lied about it. So completely depressed......the girl commits
suicide by drug overdose.......

Girls if this touched you rename "fucking sick"
guys if this touched u then rename "I'll kill any fucker who does this"




*~~~~~* i take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what I got, and remember what I had. always forgive, but never forget, learned from my mistakes, but never regret. people change, things go wrong, I just remembered... life goes on.*~~~~~*