I have kissed many times since then,
But that first one is special; one you don't forget.
But time and distance have a way of changing things.
And sometimes I wonder what it would have been like
If we had wandered the same path in life,
Tonight if youre out there, looking up at the same moon,
I hope that your trail in life has been good to you.
Too late for the other side, caught in a chase; 25 to life.
You took me for granted, took my heart and ran it straight into the planet,
Into the dirt.
I can no longer stand it, now my respect I demand it.
And what I mean is that I will no longer let you control me,
So you better hear me out, this much you owe me.
I've done my best to give you nothing less then perfectness
And I know that if I end this I'll no longer have nothing left,
But you keep treating me like a staircase it's time to fucking step.
And I wont be coming back so don't hold your fucking breath.
I feel like when I bend over backwards for you all you do is laugh
Cuz that ain't good enough, you expect me to fold myself in half
Till I snap.
I'm moving on, forget you.
Oh now I'm special?
I didn't feel special when I was with you,
All I ever felt was this: Helplessness, imprisoned by a selfish bitch.
Chew me up and spit me out.
I fell for this so many times it's ridiculous.
And still I stick with this, I'm sick of this.
But in my sickness and addiction,
Your addictive as they get, evil as they come.
Vindictive as they make em.
My friends keep asking me why I can't just walk away,
I'm addicted to the pain, the stress, the drama.
I'm drawn to this shit so I guess I'm a mess,
But this time imma change my mind,
I'm climbing out of this abyss.
'I guess I forgot that you're the guy who loves to rip
the rug out from under me just when I feel like we've reached
some sort of stable ground.'
And I'm dying to know; is it killing you like it's killing me?
How'd we end up this way?
I was losing my mind when I saw you here,
But you held your pride like you should have held me.
Oh I'm scared to see the ending.
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how;
I've never heard silence quite this loud.
This is looking like a contest,
Of who can act like they care less,
But I liked it better when you were on my side.
So many things that I wish you knew,
The story of us might be ending soon..
There's so much potential, im so close to being happy.
But you have to make this so hard, and take it away from me.
Why cant you just understand? Just try, for once.
Its not fair to me.
truth is, i want it more than they do.
Waking up from this nightmare,
How's your life? What's it like?
Is it all that you want it to be?
Does it hurt, when you think about me,
And how broken my heart is?
It's hard to remember how it felt before
Time passes, things get more comfortable.
Everything is going right.
And after all the obstacles,
It's good to see you now with someone else.
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends,
After all that we've been through,
I know we're cool.
Memories seem like so long ago,
Time always kills the pain.
We have changed, but we're still the same.
We're so far from where we've been
And after all that we've been though,
I know we're cool.
I need you to know, I miss you so much, regardless of everything.
I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me,
Stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans.
Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough,
And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of tryin' to be tough.
And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins.
And your heart is gonna tear mine away.
And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to be
Cause it's her you'll always love, and it's her I'll always envy.
I want to end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up.
But I swear I'm gonna cry.
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough.
Familiar: oh, this sounds so familiar.
You tell me I'm a drama queen.
You act like you don't care:
You look right past me,
Like I was a ghost;
Someone you don't even know.
I don't know why I still love you,
When all you do is make me,
Cry, cry, crybaby.
I don't know why I think you're gonna save me.
You just stand and watch my tears hit the floor,
Like it doesn't even matter anymore.
I don't really want to leave tonight,
But I don't want to be your crybaby.
Lonely: I can take being lonely.
I've kinda gotten used to it.
You treat me like you don't know me,
Or maybe you never did.
They say there's nothin' to it:
Oh, someone's got to do it.
So I'm tellin' you goodbye,
And all I wanna do is,
Cry, cry, crybaby.
