I'm going to sit here, in my own insanity, and remember those eyes.
Remember those enormous pools of mystery that always seemed to be staring at me, with an almost questioning look in them.
I mean, the only reason I look away from them is because I feel as though we're bordering on something that isn't allowed, that is strictly, STRICTLY forbidden.
If I could.
I would look into them forever. Spend hours simply discovering them. Figuring out what they look like when great joy lies in the person who holds them, or great sadness. I don't ever want to look away, but always think that I have to.
The way you look at me is a way that few people ever have. It's with a question, but its a joyful question.
Not, who are you? It's, who are you, because I want to know. I feel like every door inside myself is opening to you when those eyes meet mine, and that I must look away to make sure they stay locked, so that i might prevent everything from revealing itself.

"I'm afraid.
I'm afraid to open up to her. Not just to tell her what my favorite color is, what I like to eat, and what my favorite episode of Family Guy. No no.
I'm afraid to tell her what I want my boy to be like when he's fifteen,
what I think of the lyrics of Death Cab,
how I feel about a girl holding my hand for the first time.
When you do that, you reveal yourself to a person, with no bars, no chains to hold back any part of you.
You allow them to look deep into the darkest parts of who you are and look around; truly experience you.
Maybe they won't understand you all at once, no one can. It would be like looking at a history book and attempting to know every word on every page. But you give them a special key, that key that you kept waiting for the right person, and you allow them constant access, whenever they please.
That's love.
It's so hard to find because so few seem worth giving that key to. So few are trusted enough that they won't frivel it away, and let it slip through their fingers, or screech and run at the sight of it. Maybe we're afraid they won't like what they see. Or maybe, just maybe, we're afraid WE won't like what they see. We won't like the questions they pose.
It's possible.
Yet, the best part about allowing someone in is they allow you to be okay with who you are.
They allow you to get up in the morning and as you brush the sleep from your eyes, and comb out that mess of a mop you have on your head, you smile.
You realize, maybe your not so bad. Your arms may not be huge, your stomach never perfect. You may not have sparking porcelean skin, but you're okay with you.
Because someone has said you can be.
Love is messy.
Love is tough.
Love may seem weak at times.
But love is beautiful."

tell me what you think about me.
wether its what you hate or what you love.
even if you don't know me at all.
just do it.
but just one thing.
do it with 100% honesty, and truth.

Fuck off CALM teacher.
I read the fucking lesson.
FIRST OF ALL.
you didn't put the questions into the assignment you gave me.
SO I REDID THEM.
and then you have the nerve to think that i didn't read the lesson and put in HUGE capital letters that maybe i should.
douchebag.

Her dad was a drunk
Her mom was an addict
Her parents kept her
Locked in an attic

Her only friend
was a little toy bear
It was old and worn out
And had patches of hair

She always talked to it
When no one's around
She lays there and hugs it
Not a peep of sound

Until her parents
unlock the door
Some more and more pain
She'll have to endure

A bruise on her leg
A scar on her face
Why would she be
In such a horrible place?

But she grabs her bear
And softly crys
She loves her parents
But they want her to die

She sits in the corner
Quiet but thinking,
"Please God, why is
My life always sinking? "

Such a bad life
For a sad little kid
She'd get beaten and beaten
For anything she did

Then one night
Her mom came home high
And the poor child was beaten
As hours went by

Then her mom suddenly
Grabbed for a blade
It was sharp and pointy
One that she made

She thrust the blade
Right in her chest,
"You deserve to die
You worthless peice of shit!

The mom walked out
Leaving the girl slowly dying
She grabbed her bear
And again started crying

Police showed up
At the small little house
Then quickly barged in
Everything quiet as a mouse

One officer slowly
Opened a door
To find the little girl
Laying dead on the floor

It must have been bad
To go through so much harm
But at least she died
With her best friend in her arms

A child dies every day from child abuse.
And if you have an ounce of pity in you for Auroura (the little girl),
and you hate child abuse with a passion,
you will repost this and help out those abused children,
and let them know that someone cares for them.
It doesn't take that long only about 10 seconds
so please just do it.

she was only 5 and never loved ...

if you dont repost this your a lazy, cold hearted person
repost this saying: she was ONLY 5

The 2007-2008 school year is finally over, answer these questions


How many girlfriends did you have this year?
uh...since september. 2.

What was your favorite thing that happened this year?
getting my license.

Did you get suspended this year?
nope.

What was your favorite class?
Foods.

Are you glad this year is over?
its still not over...fucking exams.

What are you looking forward to this up coming school year?
getting my own car.

Are you moving schools?
wish i could.

Did you fall in love?
no comment.

Did you lose any friends?
luckily, no.

Are you glad?
yeah, im glad.

Are you failing any classes?
haha. fail? id be shot if i was.

Do you think next year will be better?
maybe.

Do you think things will be different now that your getting older?
i think i'm probably going to start making a lot of better choices.

Did you cheat this year on a test?
okay, really, who hasn't?

What is the worst trouble you got in this year?
fuck, i can't remember.

What teachers, if any, are you going to miss?
haha. Ms. Ferretti. She was so fun to mess with.

Was this your favorite year?
nah, probably not. it was kinda shitty.

Did you go to a new school this year?
nope.

Did you make it on the honor roll?
you bet your ass i did.

What was your biggest struggle this year?
having to be at a job where i got absolutely not respect.

Who is your best friend(s)?
ryan, shaun, nick. there are probably more, but i can't remember them off the top of my head.

How do you make money?
tutoring right now. go unemployment.

What do you hate most about school ?
the fact that no teachers ever consider that maybe, JUST MAYBE, another teacher is giving you a big test on the same day as the one their giving.

What do you like most about school?
friends.

What class do you have the highest mark
math.

Age 16, Male
1)Some random girl comes up to you and says "Hey, what's your name?"
you Say?
Whatever you want it to be... haha. just kidding.

2) What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Chocolate Milk.

3) What does your last text message say?
Nah

4) The last song you listened to?
Can't be saved by Senses Fail

5) If you hated someone and got put in charge of their funeral music, what would it be?
Animals by Nickelback.
That would be hilarious.

6) Where is your best friend right now?
Hell if I know. I'd feel creepy if I did.

7) What did you do yesterday?
Short term memory loss. So i really can't remember... It involved tutoring. I can tell you that much.

8) Pick a scar on your body - what did you do?
My brother dropped a scooter on my head from about 10 feet up. One of the old big ass ones too.

9) What teacher have you hated most and why?
As funny as matty's answer was... i gotta say Mrs. Clark. She was a substitute I had one day, and she actually gave us a lecture on why cellphones are good when she answered hers in class.

10.) What do you really think happened to Steve on blues clues?
Him and Blue were way too close for them not to have sexual chemistry. Obviously the network found out. Humans are easier to replace than loved pets...

11.) Who is your most religious friend?
Nick.

12) Who do you trust with your life?
Any of my aunts and uncles.

13) If you could change your name to anything what would it be?
Ironman Kelly. Because, I mean honestly. Whose going to fuck with a kid named Ironman?

14) What would you say if someone told you you were the most beautiful person in the world and they would do anything to wake up to your face each and every morning?
Restraining order. Unless I felt the same, of course.

15) What do you hate about your school?
How little there is to do at lunch.

16) How often do you curse?
A fair bit. I'll even throw in swears into phrases that don't require it. "Where's Shaun?" "FUCK IF I KNOW."

17) Do you trust all of your friends?
Nope.

18) Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
They'd have to be pretty damn special.

19.) Have you ever talked on the phone while in the shower?
And ruin this perfect face through electric shock?
Haha. no thank you.

20) Name two things you would NOT tolerate in a relationship?
Bitch to my friends, thinking its okay to do shit with other guys.

21) Which one of your friends do you think would make the best prostitute?
Shaun.

22) Are you afraid of falling in love?
I don't think so.

23) Is there someone that popped in your mind after that question?
Haha. I'm sure you'd like to know, wouldn't you?

24) Would you stop talking to your friends because you hooked up with a new person?
Not after the years I've spent with them.

25) Fill in the blank. I love_____
the cupcakes I made in foods today. Fucking delicious things.

26) What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future?
Get a sweet ride.

27) If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended time who would you call?
Probably Joey, it would've been a long time without me telling him i think he sucks dick.

28) Drunk dialer or texter?
Texter.

29) Are you hungry?
Kinda. When the fuck is that Nitzas supposed to get here?

30) Are you a forgiving person?
Depends what you do.

31) Would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend?
Haha. Fuck no.

32) Have you lost a friend recently?
Luckily, no.

33) Are you talking to someone while doing this?
yep.

34) What are you about to do right now?
Pay for the pizza.

105 Questions People Wouldn't Ask.

1. Whens the last time you ran?:
Last night, at the rec. wooot.

2.Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them?:
A couple do I guess.

3. What book are you reading right now?
haha. like i have the attention span to read.

4. Is your lip gloss poppin?:
Fuck, this is a girls quiz, isnt it.

5. When is the last time you saw the person you like/liked?
uhh....its been a while.

7. Can you dance?
Meh, id say so. But others may not...of course, theyre just jealous.

8. Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night?
I wish. Fucking physics.

11. Think of all your exes. Would you take any of them back?
Hmm. If they were willing to change, maybe.

12. If anyone came to your house on your "lazy days" what would you do?
Kick them out. Most of the guy friends break shit.

13. Who last grabbed your butt?:
Shaun. Fucking creepy.

14. Have you ever been on your schools track team?
Does running club count?

15. Do you own a pair of Converse?
I did last year.

16. Who did you copy and paste this survey from?:
Brenton.

17. Do you eat raw cookie dough?:
Nah.

18. Have you ever kicked a vending machine?
Fuck yes. God damn powerade machine...

19. Don't you hate when the radio ruins good songs by playing a bad one?
I'd rather have a bad song than all the fucking commercials.

21. Do you watch Trading Spaces?
Nah.

23. Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone?:
Again, attention span, not long enough.

24. Are you cocky?:
To some people I am. Like lisa, I make her think I think im a greek god.

30. Could you live without a computer?:
Probably.

35. Who's your favorite person at the moment?:
I can't say I have a favorite. Probably H.

45. Is anyone on your bad side now?:
Well, I can think of a few someones im not very happy with for last night.

46. What jewelry are you wearing?:
AE necklace.

47. What's the first thing you do when you get online?:
Facebook ,nex, msn.

49. Do you watch Grey's Anatomy?:
Nah, Im good thanks.

50. How do most people spell your name?
Josh. Unless your an idiot, its kind of hard to misspell.

51. Would you wear your boyfriends/girlfriends clothes?:
Would i wear my girlfriends shit. Uh...no thanks.

56. What are you doing tomorrow?
Homework probably.

57. Is Justin Timberlake becoming the next Michael Jackson?
Unless he tries to turn black, then no.

60. Will you keep your last name when you get married?:
Of course, i have to carry on the family name. Seeing as Aaron will never have kids.

62. When is the last time you left your house?:
like 5 hours ago.

67. Do you return your cart?:
No, I usually tell mack to get off his ass and do some work. and then throw the cart at him.

70. What noise do you hear?:
My sister.

71. Would you survive in prison?:
Doubt it.

76. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you?
If rouge and ryan were together, thatd be death in a vehicle.

77. Do you know anyone with the same name as you?:
Course.

78. How many pairs of shoes do you own?:
1?

84. What's your middle name?
Cary.

85. Where is your cell phone?:
Desk.

86. Is your phone on vibrate or ring?:
Vibrate of course.

87. What brand are your pants right now?:
AE, of course.

88. Ever been to Georgia?:
Why the hell would I ever go there.

89. How many people have you dated?:
Meh, seeing how late it is, Im too lazy to count.

90. If you could go back in time, where would you go?:
like, an hour ago, so I could eat those delicious fries again. Man those things were tasty.

91. What irritates you most on the internet?:
Pop ups.

92. Do you watch movies with your parents?:
Not necessarily, they watch shitty movies.

93: When was the last time you cried?:
Fuck if I know.

94. Favorite song?:
Say, by low level flight.

96. What song best describes your life right now?
I dont think there is one.

97. Where do you work?:
Unemployed! Woot!

98. Are you taking college classes now?:
Nope. high school.

99. What do you drink?(non-alcoholic):
Chocolate milk.

100. What's your kind of beer?
Kokanee.

101. Do you like sushi?:
Never tried it.

102. Do you get your hair cut every month?:
Normally, but my hair cutter person is sick.

103. Do you go online every day?:
Nah.

104. Do you like anyone ?:
Mmhmm.

105. Do you know anyone that has changed your life?
Oh, theres a few Id say.

Lisa Brenton...A History.

It was a gruesome day on September 7th, 1989.
All the horses were out of whack that morning, on farms across the land...
Toddlers were throwing fits at the horror that only they knew was coming.
In a hospital chamber, somewhere off in the middle of God-knows-fucking-wheres-ville, a lump of a child was born. When "it" came out, the parents were confused.
After extensive testing and research, it was determined that said child was a girl.
The name of the child was quite an interesting one.
When the father first saw his daughter...
he cringed and squealed... "LIIII!"
and when her mother saw her she breathed a sigh of relief.'
"SAAAA!"
And from this, because no other names to describe this "child" could be thought of, she was named Lisa.
At the age of 5, barely being mobile (a bit late, isn't it?), and having no ability to talk, Lisa headed out into the ice and snow to live with the polar bears.
She spent much of her time with the great white beasts, attuning her own habits to be more like theirs. She shaved all the hair off her body, which took some time, due to the vast amounts, swam in the vast oceans, fleeing the predators, and yes, eating large amounts of fish.
At the age of 17, she realized that she should probably get herself some sort of education. So, she climbed out of the sea, and placed herself in a desk at Seymour Academy Elementary School/Prison.
Through a few of her friends, she met this astounding man, Josh.
He zinged her with his witty comments, and scorched her with his burns, to the point where you could almost see the burn marks on her backside.
She fears him for his greatness, and despises him for his greek God - like looks, but deep down. She's burningly jealous.
Through her jealousy, she takes it out by drinking excessive amounts of alcoholic beverages.
And plus, he's the only one that will tolerate her habit of munching on raw salmon.

The End!

Take that Lisa.

To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that took time to do what she wanted to do.
To every guy that she cried in front of.
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours
just to see her for ten minutes.
To every guy that would give his seat up.
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful
no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared
through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything
so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her
when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy
even if you are not with her.


...This one is for you...


Apparently not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...
They're mostly Dicks.

I guarantee 90% of the dudes reading this don't have the balls to put it up 'cause it's all about image.

If you are a nice guy repost this with "We're a Dying Breed"

If you are a girl that thinks every guy should treat a girl this way
repost this with: "To Every Guy"