Honestly , i think that is to much of short time . I love you with all ym heart and form the first moment , i was scared cos i told you already , i didnt want you to move .. i always will care about you and love you your my bestfriend you did it all with me , no matter what and i was always there for you always will be there for you .. my life is fucking shit now , only cos i dont have you there to help me go thru this , i dont have you to help me and say no thats a bad idea , honestly .. i miss you and always will .. if i could do anything id go back where i wudve made better choices .. for real .. im scraed ...
Shiiit , always gon' huurt me whenever i see your face , even when i can pretend nothing happened , i will always know what happened and i know what you ment and still mean to me , not as easy for me as it is for you , sorry to saai.
Wishin' this wasnt so hard :l
i miss yoou :,(
>>Kaayso , why tell nexopia why yu havent been on ?
NO ONE REALLY CARES haha....
>>Fuuuck why cant you just move and leaave...
>>Fuckeenn scholl can go fuck its self...
>>SHiit eh....This cant be guud..Can it be real am i ?
>>Fuucken cunt man .. Fucke over riight there GFYS.
Remeber when we didnt have nothing , but a perfect simple kinda lovin , baby thoes suure were the days.. There was a time out love ran wile ran wild and free , but now im second guessing everything i see.
Tell me , do i need to give up and just go on with my life ? Or stay and wait , cos you know a girl cant wait forever. I need to know how you feel.. Not always juust i ddont know right now , maybe , or anything .. Because i need to know , im only a person too.. Like i have feelings .. I need to know how you feel.. Because i care about you , but heey , one day when you deiciide yoou actually do want me baack , i wont even be here , i will be gone moved on and happy. So i need to know , do i have your love , am i still enough ? Tell me.
- Maybe this isnt working , maybe your right ? Like i cant live with you , but i cant live out there , thats for suure , i refuse and i will never ever ever live out there so i can become what they have becom. I hate him , i hate life there . Im not going to i REFUSE ! - Do you think that maybe death would be better then life..? Cos' im starting to think , and i dont know what the point of life is ? and growing up ? If its all just pain misery and hurt , then why are we here ? There is only a little good things .. So little i cant even make the best out of this shit. I feel like im done i hate life now. - Drugs? You think im on drugs that is why im depressed? Like i said take me for some drug tests. Youll be proven wrong , but you wont so whtever you know your wrong ! - Your ready to put me in a hospital ? What the fuck for ? Just because im upset ,,? Just because i needed to get the fuck away and go to a friends house for a bit ? Like what the fuck..? This is MY LIFE , NOT YOURS , MINE!! So what the fuck should this shit matter to oyu what the fuck i do ? Im tired of you always calling someone to come pick me up to get me away from you befor you "beat me to death" !! Its my life , if you dont want me around you , LET ME BE WHERE IM FUCKING HAPPY NOT WHERE IM READY TO FUCKING KILL SOMEONE EVERY FUCKING TWO GOD DAMN MINUTES ! - You say my friends are way more importaant ? No , they arent , in the end everyone comes out equally.. Its just so happens that my fucking friends are there more then you or any of my family. - I dont care .. So why should that matter to you ? I dont care really .. I never said i dont care about you ? So stop acting like that for fuck sakes.. This has been going on for too long .. Ive been upset like this for to long finally your just seeing now , that i really am upset ? You really need to open your eyes. Im depressed and you dont give a fuck. If your so concerend about me not giving a fuck , open your eyes and start giving a fuck too. Maaybe i would . Until then , I STILL WILL CONTINUE TO NOT GIVE A FUCKING SHIT ! -thaaanks.
Leaaving this all on the floor then to fiix it ?
Id raather fiix it then foor it to be like this , this is just fucking right up and i am goiing through shit right now annd i have some new shit in my life and guess who i want to taalk to to about all this ? MY BEST FRIEND.. Buut she isnt here anymore so guess how hard that is ? Its harder then you think.. Annd seeing you around makes it harder because all i want to do is just run up to you and hug you and tell you everything .. But i knoow i cant cos you wont fucking care , soo , i dont even know what to saay anymoore. -- Yuuur moviing , you replaaced me </3 , like everyone saayys , soo , its okaay . All im thinking is whaat if ? Annd lieing ? Naaa , i didnt.. I saaid we werent friends thaat muuuch coos we werent. She waas juust comming up to mee taalking to me , .. Buut whatever its all g .. I still lied i guess. Buut heey , i guess its over now?
