ok, i have something to say to all of you that have something nasty to say about me, or other women that are built like me.
women that sometimes or all the time look like this,
women whose names you know, women whose names you dont,
women who've been picked on, women whose husbands put them down,
women that work or girls in school, i have one thing to say to you-

kiss my fat ass - tyra banks

i know its hard to believe people when they say "i know how you feel"
but i actually know how you feel.

I understand feeling as small and as insignifigant as humanly possible.
and how it can actually ache in places that you didn't know you have inside you.
and it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnae you drink with your girlfriends.
you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wondering what you did wrong. and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. and sometimes you can actually convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. and after all that, you'll go somewhere new. and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. little pieces of your soul will finally start to come back. and all that fuzzy stuff, all those years of your life that you wasted, will actually begin to fade.



"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert.
Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual."
- Iris

ok well since im going to WORLDS this year, i thought it would be
a good idea to have an "inspirations" book. leslie does it, and since
she is all knowing and wonderful, i thought i would give it a try.
i like being inspired.

its a feeling that comes along a liiiiiiiittle too rarely

I WANT TO LIVE IN LONDON.
AND PARIS WILL BE MY WHISTLER.



life goal.

1.i think sometimes the way you think is foggy. although you won't admit it. I really like when we're together just one on one.
2.i love you more than i think, sometimes i wonder if you are always telling me the whole truth. you never fail to amaze me.
3.you are very determined, sometimes to the point of no return. rationalizing is one of your talents.
4.you dont let feelings out very easily. thats ok though.
5.i really love you. i cant remember a time when you didn't brighten up my day.
6.i would say what i really thought of you all the time, that is if i thought that it wouldnt go to your head.
7.i know little about you. i do wish i knew more.
8.you are a good person, sometimes a little self centered. thats ok, we are all at fault for one thing or another.
9.you are the first person i have met that really tells me like it is. i like that about you, you've changed me for the better.
10.you are a hit and miss. i dont know what to think about you, i wish you would stick to the person i giggle about to my friends.
11.you are an asshole, a cocky one at that. ha. get it? a cocky asshole
12.i thought i knew more about you than i really did. im scared ill look at you differently now. nevermind, lets just stick to the point.
13.i cant even listen to you talk. you are actually the poster child for the phrase "dumb bitch"
14.i look up to you quite a lot. but now that im growing up, i think that is slowly going away.
15.i wish i could interveiw you, or do a life biography on you. but without learning it from a book. from you telling it to me would be much better.
16.i dont know what it is about you. but you seem to have some kind of spell over her. sometimes i wish you would lift it.
17.i feel bad that people, like myself don't acknowledge you as much as they do her[/size]

Leave your name and I'll respond with:

1. One thing I absolutely love about you.
2. A dare for you.
3. Something I want to do with you.
4. A song that reminds me of you.
5. One thing I don't like so much about you.
6. A good memory with you.
7. Something I want to give you.
8. My first impression of you.