It's that time of year again.
The spring breeze is back, and your name is on my lips.
This time of year reminds me of you in every way.
Isn't it incredible how a single moment can dramatically change your life.
Sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like, if things would have been different. It all seemed to come cascading down.
I wonder if I would have been happier, or more open to others. Then it kind of hits me;
I dont know why we all hang onto something we know were better off letting go.
It's like were scared to lose what we dont even really have.
Some of us say we would rather have that something than nothing at all, but the truth is,
to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.
I miss you every day of my life.
Every holiday, every birthday, every first or last day at ski hill, they all remind me of you.
And I know that even though it's hard to say good bye, you have to.
because maybe there is something better, you just have to look.
and even if it means never seeing that person again, just remember how they shaped you.
You've turned me into the person I am today.
And over the years of blaming myself, and wishing I could have done something to change this all i've realized that you can't prevent what you can't predict.
Sometimes there are no next times, no time-outs, no second chances. Sometimes, its now or never. So, instead of wondering what might happen if you do something,think about what might not happen if you dont do something;cause it might just be your only chance...P
here is so much I wish I would have told you. You meant the world to me..
You will always hold a special place in my heart.


(please dont steal this because its my own words..)

MY FUCKING BOY FRIEND IS GONE FOR SOOO FUCKIN LONG!! FUCK YOU SKIIING!