So, if you do manage to attempt to enter my life in the slightest bit on your own, without anyone pushing you; and you manage to see this message, great. You will find out that I think it's ridiculous that I can wait 'til 9 p.m. without a single word from you. Especially after what we talked about. But you will also find out that chances were not half bad that if I asked to go to the city tomorrow with one of my family members who is already going in, I probably would have been able to. But since you have no interest in what I am doing today, or tomorrow for that matter, I think that it would be pointless for me to ask. Because really, if you are too overly busy to have a 10 minute conversation with me today, then you won't have enough time to see me tomorrow. I'm sure you will have a million and one excuses as to why you couldn't possibly take 5 minutes out of your day to message me. But frankly I don't care. Busy or not busy, 5 minutes is nothing. Hell, while you're in the car to go somewhere, give me a text? While you're watching t.v., or eating dinner.
You find it ridiculous that I just happen to get upset every damn day. Well maybe there is a reason for my being upset? Maybe you should reconsider and think about how every time I've been upset it's been because of the same thing. I would think that that in itself is hint enough. Never mind the fact that I have specifically told you, and given you pointers on what to change and how it really isn't that difficult.
If you don't have time to speak to me during the week, then I don't have time to spend with you on the weekend. But then again, it's foolish of me to think that you would have time for me on the weekend. But basically, if you don't have time to talk to me, on a REGULAR basis, then you shouldn't have time to spend with me. Point blank.
And no, me asking you to talk to me at least once throughout the day does NOT suggest that you should talk to me for 5 minutes at midnight. Why on earth would I want to wait all day to hear from you, only to disrupt hours that I should be trying to sleep?
It isn't like I haven't made myself available either. I have spent a few hours on the computer today, the entire time I allowed Skype to be left online. Just in case you might be on and say OH yeah! I have a super awesome girlfriend who I should talk to!! Plus I had my cell phone on me the entire day, which is more than you can ever say for yourself.
Half the time that I try to have a 5 minute conversation with you, you forgot your cell upstairs, or downstairs or in your jacket. Seriously, I'm not going to phone your house phone. Hell, I don't even phone your cell phone first. I text because if you ARE busy you can give a shout back and say busy, I'll text you in an hour. or something. Instead of me just thinking, is he sleeping? busy? annoyed by me? like really...
ANYWAYS. my point is, screw you. I waited all day for a simple message from you. I KNEW that if I didn't attempt to contact you, then you wouldn't even consider talking to me at all. Like I never even entered your life. Do you even think about me at all during the day? Because if you do, I sure freaking hope it's along the lines of "Oh shit I really need to text her or call or something" But somehow I doubt it. Because I haven't gotten any message from you at all.
I probably could have seen you tomorrow, but I'm not even going to bother asking, since you don't even bother texting. I am also extremely tired, so I am probably going to go to sleep. I will be ridiculously amazed if I even wake up with a text from you. And I will be completely and utterly blown away if it has anything regarding this blog. Because, for you to take an interest in me through what I have to think? Well that would just be too much!
Oh by the way, I had a wonderful evening, no thanks to you.