I want to tell you again and again that I love you
I haven't said it in a long time
and so much has changed now
I want to run into your arms
but I would get there and you would just stare at me with disbelief
how am I supposed to tell you that I love you
when you left and I moved on
you had that fire
I know it is way too difficult for you to talk to me
and I don't have anything to say
I know I'm not your fire
I know you so well..
and you will never be able to give me everything I need
I go over this, I memorize it, I worship it
and yet, here I am..
crying over your hidden blue eyes all over again
all I want is a proper goodbye
but I am far too addicted to you
and that simple goodbye will turn my world upside down
just knowing you are there, just barely beyond my reach
my thoughts are so torn
I want to reach out to you
yet I'm aware things won't work
but maybe it is just worth trying?
saying your name hurts me all the way down to my soul
I hope you think about me from time to time
I miss you, my sydänkäpy