The shadow of a man
I'm nothing less
I am holding on, still holding on
And every now and then life begins again
I am holding on, still holding on

I'm not like you
Your faceless lies
Your weak dead heart
Your black dead eyes

I'll make it through, but not this time
Your hope is gone, and so is mine

Live, fight
Crawl back inside
Sick, blind
Love left behind
And I won't live, your weak wicked lie
You pull me in, I'm one step behind

Show me where it hurts
And I'll make it worse
Are you holding on? Keep holding on
Dilated eyes shine for one last time
Are you holding on? Keep holding on

You're not like me
Your faceless lies
Your weak dead heart
Your black dead eyes

I'll break you in, and let this die
Your hope is gone
And so is mine

I'm becoming a monster, just like you
After it all you'll try to break me too
Falling forever, chasing dreams
I brought you to life so I can hear you scream

I'm one step behind
I'm one step behind

Every street in this city
Is the same to me
Everyone's got a place to be
But there's no room for me
Am I to blame?
When the guilt and the shame hang over me
Like a dark cloud,
That chases you down in the pouring rain.

It's so hard to find someone
Who cares about you,
But it's easy enough to find someone
Who looks down on you

Why is it so hard to find someone
Who cares about you?
When it's easy enough to find someone
Who looks down on you

It's not what it seems
When you're not on the scene
There's a chill in the air
But there's people like me
That nobody sees so nobody cares

Why is it so hard to find someone
Who cares about you?
When it's easy enough to find someone
Who looks down on you
Why is it so hard to find someone
Who can keep it together
When you've come undone?
Why is it so hard to find someone
Who cares about you?

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I swear this time it won't turn out
The same 'cause now I've got myself to blame
And you'll know where we'll end up
On the streets that is easy enough
To find someone who looks down on you

Why is it so hard to find someone
Who cares about you?
When it's easy enough to find someone
Who looks down on you
Why is it so hard to find someone
Who can keep it together
When you've come undone?
Why is it so hard to find someone
Who cares about you?

I'll be the first to say
That now I'm ok
And for the first time
I've opened up my eyes
This was my worst love
You'll be the first to go
And when she leaves you for dead
You'll be the last to know

I would like to take a moment to congratulate my cat today for not smelling as bad as he did yesterday.

1. Real name ¨ Kyle Turner
2. Nickname(s)¨ dumbass, "you immature piece of shit" + ones i can't say
3. Zodiac sign ¨ aquarius
4. Male or female ¨ male. but i prefer females
5. Elementary ¨ hated it
6. Middle School ¨ was the shit
7. High School ¨ idk. im walked in the first day and got permafried from all the drugs there
8. Hair color ¨ right now? black
9. Long or short ¨ medium length id say
10. Loud or Quiet ¨ depends =P
11. Sweats or Jeans ¨ jeans.
12. Phone or Camera ¨ Camera.
13. Health freak ¨ lol...no.
14. Drink or Smoke? ¨ Drank faggits
15. Do you have a crush on someone? ¨ possibly
16. Eat or Drink ¨ both. duh.
17. Piercings ¨ nope
18. Tattoos ¨ i wish.

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane¨ Nope
020. Been in a relationship ¨ yeah. lol.
021. Been in a car accident ¨ almost, i probably would have died
022. Been in a fist fight ¨ nope. too pussy

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing ¨ in the butt. o wait that doesnt count...
024. First best friend ¨ neil, haha.
025. First award ¨ best at sex
026. First crush ¨ not even gunna say
027. First sport ¨ soccer
028. First big vacation ¨ alberta. was fucking hot.

LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to ¨ Steven lol
030. Last person you texted ¨ i dont have a phone
031. Last person you watched a movie with ¨ steven <3 lmao
032. Last food you ate ¨ burritos =P
033. Last movie you watched ¨ Blow
035. Last thing you bought ¨ uhh...best of atreyu i think
036. Last person you hugged --> my mom <3

FAVES:
037. Food ¨ pizza
038. Drinks ¨ coke
039. Clothing ¨ anything with a band on it
040. Flower ¨ roses.
041. Where'd it go? ¨ up ur ass
042. Colors ¨ red, white, and black
043. Movies ¨ H Pitty, public enemies, dark knight
044. Subjects ¨ i hate school.

IN 2008..... I

045. [x] kissed someone
046. [x] celebrated Halloween
047. [x] had your heart broken
048. [ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
049. [ ] questioned someone's sexual orientation
050. [] came out of the closet
051. [] gotten pregnant twice by ralphie elephante and diego elephante.
052. [] had an abortion with raphliefs kid.
053. [x] done something you've regretted
054. [] broke a promise
055. [x] hid a secret
056. [x] pretended to be happy
057. [x] met someone who changed your life
058. [] pretended to be sick
059. [x] left the country
060. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
061. [] cried over the silliest thing
062. [x] ran a mile
063. [x] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
064. [] got into an argument with your friends
065. [x] hated someone
066. [] gone to disneyworld

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating ¨ nothing
068. Drinking ¨ nothing
069. I'm about to ¨ do the rest of this thing
070. Listening to ¨ my own song actually
071. Plans for today ¨ are over =(
072. Waiting for ¨ everyone to come home

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? ¨ sure
074. Want to get married? ¨ Yeah
075. Careers in mind ¨ if you haven't figured it out yet then don't ask

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
076. Lips or eyes ¨ you gotta have both. although lips don't ever look at you in disgust
077. Shorter or taller? ¨ short, haha.
078. Romantic or spontaneous ¨ spontaneous is romantic...isnt it?
079. Nice stomach or nice arms ¨ ASS. jk, who cares? its whats inside that counts right?
080. Sensitive or loud ¨ both
081. Hook-up or relationship ¨ Relationship. honestly, hoes are lame shit.
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant ¨ a little bit of both i suppose.

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts ¨ never worn them, so no
084. Ran away from home ¨ nope.
085. Hold a gun/knife for self defense ¨ nope
086. Killed somebody ¨ i speak for everyone in saying there was i time i should have
087. Broken someone's heart ¨ i hope not, if so please tell me
088. Slapped someone ¨ no.
089. Cried when someone died ¨ mhmm

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself ¨ sometimes.
091. Miracles ¨ only the ones we make for ourselves
092. Love at first sight ¨ yeah.
093. Heaven ¨ no. honestly if hitler and all those mofos are there i dont want to be.
094. Santa Claus ¨ haha, no.
095. Sex on the first date ¨ thats called a hooker. hookers have teh aidz. so no.
096. Kiss on the first date ¨ Yeah.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? ¨ Yea
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? ¨ im satisfied mostly
099. Do you believe in God ¨ no. does god believe in me?...
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people! : answer: no

what the fuck. i dont even know what to say. and saying nothing is a dead give away that theres something wrong. what have i done? its more like what i haven't done. im finally starting to come to grips with how much ive fucked up. even though it means nothing and wont change anything. maybe i wont make the same mistakes again. next time i find something worth living for im going to fucking live. every time i think i have it figured out, the hypocrisy comes back around. moral of the story: there is always someone out there fucking shit up. all the shit that makes me me is starting to tear me apart. whatever happened to loving people for who they are? i never asked anyone to change, so ill do what i fucking want.

*bitching about life/bad emo poetry/random message to no one/blog written about anonymous/etc. goes here*