note to self
never sleep on an empty stomach again
zombie dreams blow
and never have a good ending
grumble grumble blarg

it had three different parts
but each time i was with my ex
but then she would disapear
i would search and search and finally find her
the first one we were at some sort of fair at one of the schools in my town
when i found her she disapeared again
i couldnt keep her near me
the second one was at this big hot tub thing
she she seemed really depressed
and again she disapeared
she had moved to a diferent part of the hot tub
so i get in and try talking to her
but theres no water in the hot tub just a fog( but i dont think that means anything)
and she was just staring at her lap top
writing about me to one of her friends
and no matter what i said she didnt notice me
and the last one we were at work
and we were getting along fine
flirting and such
and there was a narator of sorts saying different steps of something
but we were kinda being close
a kiss here
a touch there
then i accidentally ripped her pants durring a little moment of passion
so i offered to let her wear mine
she accepted with a smile
and when i get to the washroom (which is only like twenty seconds later) shes going at it with this random guy
i was heartbroken
she tried to explain but i couldnt hear her
then i quit my job and stormed out
the last thing i remember is the narator over a radio saying world suck levels have never been so high

52 keys
millions of words
endless possiblities
yet I cant find a single word
perfect enough
to tell you how much i love you
my life
my heart
my soul
yours
its all i can give
yet i wish i had more
its just not enough
you deserve everything
all i have is my love for you
slipping apart
I fear it so
nothing i can do
nothing i can say
I never want to lose you
but I fear i already have
it tears me apart
i cant stand life
i was nothing before you
i truly grew to who i am today because of you
for you
and wiill return to whence i came without

im yours always