do you ever have that feeling where you are stuck in a situation and you feel you can't get out of it? well thats how i feel! i miss my family SO much! and i miss all my old friends! its been soo long since i have actually spent time with my family! and its going to be soo long until i get to see them! i want to go back soo back for a visit but i know exactly whats going to happen! and i am not ready for any drama, for the people who are actually wondering how i am doing i am great here i just miss family! i am getting my own place within the next couple of weeks! and i am set on a pretty firm career path and its quite enjoyable! i don't really chill with people anymore! one i broke up with my ex because he is a fucking druggie! and i did not approve at all! and my best friend that i known for years him and i got in a fight because he doesn't know how to respect other people and their shit! so i basically keep to myself now, which is a total change from what i used to be like! i gave up my cell phone because i am deathly sick of peoples broken promises! well i lost it but i have no intention on getting a new one! i guess this is just a phase in my life i have to overcome but its going to take a while, like there were people here that i know and they know how to get a hold of me and they didn't bother trying, i am sick of living my life in other peoples shadows or living my life chasing people around! i am not going to try a million times to talk to you unless i know you are going to put an effort on talking to me, yeah i may sound like quite the prick but i have too much to look forward to in my life at the moment to play tag with people i am kind of happy at the moment, i guess nothing could get any worse at the moment, but i am only looking at building my future right now, i am not looking to party my life away i am not looking to be lazy my whole life i am not looking to follow people and experience their wrongful doings, and hopefully other people realize that you don't need anyone to rebuild your life, you go through alot that will definitely hurt you by all means but that will only benefit you for the best i have gone through alot since my graduation, i have gone through the scene, the relationship, the alcohol, the running away from my problems, masking my true emotions, the evasive bitch, the person who tried a million times to chill with one person, and much more, it took me alot to become who i am today and i love who i am going to be, like i said my life is taking its path and i am happy with what i am doing with my life, i just hope others realize that it takes alot to become who you want to be.