I don't want to sleep for the fear of thoughts running through my head. I just want everything to work out, to be ok, to be normal again. I wish things could work between us. I love you with everything. It hurts so much to let you go. you need to know that i didnt decide this lightly. I cried for days thinking of what to do with us. you mean the world to me and i cant lose you. I cant be with you either. this is the most stuck i have ever been. i need you in my life. dont disappear. i know you so well. i know you inside and out. you are my best friend. you know things about me that no one knows. you know my heart, you know my head, you know everything. i kept nothing from you. i trust you with everything and i need to know you will still be here for me. i know it will take time and i know it will be hard and i havnt stopped crying since you left my doorstep. the look on your face as you walked away almost killed me inside. so defeated and so hurt. i hate that i did this to you. i hate that i hurt you. i hate that we had to end things. everything was so amazing between us. you taught me so much, helped me through the toughest times, led me to knowing myself more than i ever thought i could. you made me feel beautiful, sexy, smart, loved. you were the best thing to happen to me ever. you gave me things that no one else ever can. i love you with all my heart babe. you are beyond important to me. im going to miss you soo much its ridiculous. the way you made me feel, every kiss, every hug, every conversation, every debate. everything about you made me who i am today and i am so proud of you, of me, of us. we have grown up so much. you are amazing. dont ever think you arent. you are capable of so much,you can do so much with your life, you are special. dont settle for anything more than you deserve. because you deserve so much. i love you babe. and im going to miss us. i will always be here for you, and i will support you no matter what. we ended on a good note and i want to keep things good between us. i love you, and ill miss you.
<3 Brittany <3