It's the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone at the exact same time,
& it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for it all to stay the same.
you want everything and nothing at the same time, & you want to let go but you keep holding on.
You want to move on but you're stuck right where you started,
& feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. you want to see
that one person everyday, and when you do finally get the chance you don't
know what to say. you have so many things you want to tell him & wish he
knew but you have no idea where to start. deep down inside you know if you
lose him, he's gone and he will never come back. he can be right beside you,
but yet he seems so far away .. & you still want him in your life so bad, but all
you can do is push him farther and farther away. it's so hard to think back to how
things used to be, and look at him now and realize that things are different & they
will never be the same. you tell yourself he isn't even worth it, but if he really didn't
matter you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about him..