you were the most amazing six year old hamster i've ever had ..
you were no, pet store hamster, you were a baby that i breeded, that i took care of since
birth, that i've loved since day one. its crazy to know, that sometimes, when theres
no one else around, or you've got no one there for you, your pet hamster, becomes
your best friend, & the greatest thing alive. once full of health & excitement .
its sounds so cliche, but , its time for you too move on . almost beat the record of 7
years for a hamster too live. < 3 & your always going to be in my heart . rest in peace squirt. me love you long time < 3 .
& no matter what happens , your never gonna' be alone, we'll be together again someday .
failing to accept me for who i am as a person & how i look,
just goes to prove that you've failed too accept your self as a person & how you look .
I miss being little.
Looking back on the past I realize how many people have changed, moved on, died, left, drifted away, fallen apart, grew up, ect. I realize how much things have changed, how many things I've missed out on, how many people I didn't say goodbye to. I see all the times I had fun playing hide & seek instead of drinking, or sleeping outside at the neighborhood park with my best friend, but for some reason everything just... stopped. I just grew up so quickly, not fully grown up but I mean I'm not little anymore, my cousins can't give me piggy back rides, my mom doesn't put cookies and milk out for Santa, and I don't listen too the "Backstreet Boys" anymore. I remember hoping and wishing and dreaming and even thinking I would marry Brian Littrell one day, or at least meet him, then I figured out he was married with a kid and well my dreams got crushed. I just wanna be little when scrapped knees were the worst that could happen, and dancing to Britney Spears was my definition of fun. when my favorite seat was daddy's knee and my favorite drink was grape juice. When boys had cooties & I wanted nothing to do with them. When looks didn't matter, & everything I wore was from Wal-mart. Oh how i used to love that big store. I miss not caring for others opinions & spending every minute of every day with my best friend, riding our bikes down to Maxbell arena or playing in red dirt & getting dirty. Things happened too fast and everything rushed by...
Now I'm here.
