The past 3 days have been hell for me. My left side of my jaw, and my arm are tingling constantly. Im super sweaty, my stomach hurts, i keep getting really intense chest pains, and every once in a while, breathing gets really hard, i keep getting head aches.
I went to the doctor 4 times now, and the hospital once. And everytime they said that i was fine, but obviously if i was okay, i wouldnt be feeling this way. So tomorrow im going in to get some blood tests done, and im hoping they figure out whats wrong with me.. Cause i really just want this to stop, i dont want to feel this way anymore, its killing me. i cant enjoy anything, or do anything cause im constantly worrying about how i feel .
And doesnt help that my doctor told me to stop smoking weed, so i have to deal with trying to quit that, as well as my body being all fucked up.. and all i can say is; i really hope im okay, because ive never been so scared before. :/
//Got up at 8am.
//Went and met up with John and had breakfast.
//Went to KTOWN to get a new bowl for John's bong.
//Blazed a bunch.
//Met up with Jake, then blazed more.
//Went to the stampede with John, and blazed more.
//Went on rides super fuckin stoned. xD
//Met up with jake again.
//Went on more rides, and blazed more.
//Then i left, and now im spending the night at Logans.
++++LOGAN IS MAKING ME KD. FUCK YEAH,
And tomorrow im going to stampeede with Whitney. ♥ iM so excited its going to be so great! YAYAYAY.
Im not the person i used to be. I hate who i've become.. Doing drugs for the first time is the biggest mistake ive ever made. I ruined the best thing that ever happened to me, and for what? Nothing. I lost all the most important people to me, i let them slip away because of my own selfish addiction. Im not who i used to be. im not the person i want to be. I regret ever doing drugs. partying all the time, Drinking, Doing drugs. your right, that isnt who i am. Out of everyone i know, you know best who i really am. Good thing im going to d-tox as soon as stampede ends. Im going to try my best to be sober, I can be happy without drugs, but i cant be happy without you in my life. i lost you, and knowing what i did wrong. Really makes me think twice about what im doing, you're the only person who could get through to me, cause your the only person who has ever truely had an impact on my life. I need to do this, im destroying myself.