Omg I cant believe you're already 16.

I remember when we were little how we used to hold hands walking down the street.
I remember how much you used to bully me but we were the most inseparable pair you'd ever meet.

I remember growing up sharing the same room and fighting over toys.
I remember growing up and sharing clothes and talking about boys.

I remember all the fights, and all the laughter, and the tears.
I remember you confessing to me all your silly little fears.

I remember sharing secrets, sharing jokes, and sharing friends.
I remember how we'd fight and you'd be the first to make amends.

I remember when we moved and we slowly grew apart.
I remember when you cried and had your first broken heart.

I remember all the times and all the memories we share.
I remember how I was never alone because you were always there.

I love you Ivona.
Happy sweet 16

Can't breathe. Feel sick. Want to die. Kill me please.
No, no death.
Hurts so bad. Stop thinking. Please go away. Ohmygod. Can't take it anymore.
Needs to stop. Push it away. Can't breathe. No air. HowamIsupposedtobreathewithnoair?

Please go away. Gowaygowaygoway. CAN'T FUCKING BREATHE.
So confusing. Can't think. Can't breathe.
Breathing again. Little by little.
Won't die.

For now.

I hate it when you make me feel like this.
This needs to stop now.
But somehow.. I don't think it will.

I know it's probably my fault. Everything usually is.. But still.

I wish I could erase this empty feeling.
But whenever I push it away, it comes back.
GO AWAY STUPID THOUGHTS.

OMG becky you're fuckin hilarious:

Becky: Well at first it was intersting cuz he was a mystery. Then I got to know him and he became less of a mystery.
Me: I don't get it.. explain it better.

Becky: I don't really know how to explain it... he's like a rubic's cube... once i found out how to solve it..
... I got bored.
Me:

new nex is sooo fucked

=(
ughhh.

okeyy here are my classes:

A - Spanish ........................... Prt 5
B - Fam Studies ..................... 116
C - English .............................. 212
D - Biology .............................. 203

E - Socials ............................... 217
F - Chemistry .......................... 205
G - Math ...................................111
H - Psychology ....................... 112

My little brother Branko is kind of a jerk. Especially to my sister Ivona. But sometimes its soo funny lol.

This morning:

Branko: Who's Chace Crawford?

Ivona: Only the hottest guy alive.

Me: That guy that plays Nate on Gossip Girl.

Ivona: I'm gonna marry him.

Branko: Oh yeah, Ivona! Like you'd ever have a chance with him.

Me: Ha.

Branko: Then again, you never know. You know what they say.

Ivona: What?

Branko: ... Opposites attract.

I just don't see the point anymore.
I'm trying SO FUCKING HARD.
But it's like no matter what I do, it won't ever be good enough.

I'm just sick of it all.

I'm tired of trying so hard and receiving nothing in return.
I'm tired of fighting to be heard.
I'm tired of being put down for my opinions.
I'm tired of being told that I don't know what the hell I'm talking about.

It doesn't really matter what you tell yourself
Because at the end of the day...
If you're not happy with yourself and your life
It's no one's fault but yours.