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Super weekend with mah boy .

Kay so it's our 8 month, we went on a date at 10:30 , and by the time the movie ended the buses stopped running . We took THE last running bus in the city but by the time we got to where it was going, the LRT stopped running . Of course we're practically stranded in the ghetto where Ryan's been stabbed before . BUT, the bus driver (knew we had to go to Southside, course we're on the Northside) he was so nice, he went out of his way to drop us off downtown so we'd be a tad closer to where Mom could come get us . He brought us to a 24 hour McDicks, but of course I couldn't get a hold of Mom at all . We sat there for hours on end . There was this chick who legit looked like she wanted to stab me and she went to the bathroom for like 45 minutes, I'm pretty sure she was waiting for me to go in there . Oh and there was this girl there on Meth, always good right ? By 4:00 am, the bus driver came back to McDicks and told us he was checking on us ! (: And that he was hungry anyways . He felt so bad, he offered to drive us home, but we said no because that was too much he already had done enough . By the time we got out of there, because I FINALLY got a hold of Mom, it was like 4:30 . What a upsetting night, but atleast Ryan was there for me .
 

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Dear, Adrienne .
Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me ? You can't seem to leave my mind lately, can you ? I lay awake for hours, thinking about everything... Everything we had, everything that happened to you, everything you said to me. Just, everything. Lastnight I couldn't sleep, this may sound absolutely insane but I could hear your voice, I could feel your presence. All I could hear you say in my head was "How could you do this to yourself b ? You have absolutely everything, why are you pushing everything and everyone away ?" over and over again. I'm trying to let you go, yes I do still have things you gave me, I do still have pictures of you, and I do still wear that white bracelet you bought me. The piano on it faded, but that's because I haven't taken it off once since the day you died. I wish I was smart enough to spend time with you in the hospital, if I could go back I would. I'd say goodbye, I do still love you and I always will. But I need to forget you, the thoughts of you and memories of you need to just... disappear you're not helping anything, you're not helping me let go... Ryan's the only one who helps me get through anything now, the only one I can turn to, and the ONLY one in this world that understands me the way you did he's the only one who's truly there for me but how is he suppose to help me just forget you ? If I told him I wanted his help forgetting you he'd think I was crazy. Yes he means everything to me, you would love him, honest. I know you'd be happy I've finally started dating and stayed happy. I know you'd be ecstatic that we're looking forward to getting engaged soon. But you're causing too much stress, I'm hoping you can see this all the way in heaven, so with this last message to you, please just leave me alone.
Love always, Alysha.
 

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(57) I LOVE RYAN GORMAN .
" It was like a silhouette of your balls . "


I had a great weekend with you b, I miss you lots.
Come see me soon, it's our 6 month tomorrow.
HALF A YEAR BOOGER. ♥
 

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(56) Anthem of the Angels .
Days go on forever
But I have not left your side
We can chase the dark together
If you go then so will I.

There is nothing left of you
I can see it in your eyes
Sing the anthem of the angels
And say the last goodbye
I keep holding onto you
But I can't bring you back to life
Sing the anthem of the angels
Then say the last goodbye.
 

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So while you're outside looking in; Describing what you see, Remember what you're staring at is me.

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass. Don't know how much time has passed, All I know is that it feels like forever.
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, Sitting all alone inside your head.

How much is real? So much to question. . .
An epidemic of the mannequins, contaminating everything
 

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(54) Friends are for the weak .
I'm falling down, I can't wake up, I can not hold on, I will not let go.
It's over now; There's no way out, I can not hold on, I will not let go.

Silent I go under, I am not afraid.
I can see the daylight shine, And slowly drift away.
Safe to say it's over, Sink into the grave.
There is nothing left inside, But I am wide awake.
 

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(53) You take the breath right out of me .
Take my hand drag me down; If you fall then I will too, And I can't save what's left of you.

Sing something new; I have nothing left, I can't face the dark without you.
There's nothing left to lose; The fight never ends, I can't face the dark without you.

Swallow me under and pull me apart; I understand there's nothing left, Pain so familiar and close to the heart. No more, no less, I won't forget.
 

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+ Went to my sister's dad's wedding in Vancouver, I was the bestman. Then I went to Playland. Theeen we went on the Ferry.
+ On the ferry, I spit on some guys head LOLOLOL he was bald and was like on the deck 2 stories down. After we got off the Ferry I got to stay in my birthplace ( Victoria ) for a few days. Then on the plane back from Victoria, me and Shayla ( Sister ) were kicking the chairs infront of us and like pissing them off.
+ Stayed at Ryans for the past like 3 days.
+ LOL Ryan said he'd give me his Cow guitar from his dad's house. I'm stoked on life, I like cows. <_<
+ Listening to my Daddy and my Boyfriend both play guitar. Lol, little bonding time going on. =P
+ My niece comes back into Edmonton todaaaay.


- There was a storm in Alberta Beach, so me and Ryan couldn't watch the Sunset by the Lake.
 

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(51) Sunsets and carcrashes .
Holy gee willikurs zippity wippity do Batman ! The cops are after us !
Stop fucking up that saying Ryan you lesbian.

+ I spent the past week and a half with my boyfriend <3 We went camping and shit, it was amazing.
+ I love you so fucking much.
+ We made cookies when we got back to my house.. but one burned. ONLY 1.
+ Got lots of new pictures, with my boyfriend and such. He's cute.
+ Finally started talking to Cody again LOL. We're watching the same episode of Southpark and talking over MSN.

+/- Going to Vancouver / Victoria for a week. I'm gonna miss my boyfriend though. )=

- We got in a dissagreement today, it was Badnews bears.
- You really need to stop crawling and scareing me Ryan, I don't think I've EVER flew down the stairs that fast, I even jumped off of half of them! =.=
- Junior [ My dog ] Is making my blanked smell like burned asshole and I washed it yesterday. FAK YOU >=/ STOP FARTING.
 

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+ I get to see Ryan tomorrow after I finish my final.. I hope you're not mad at me now..
+ Hanging out with Kaushik tomorrow. Surprise surprise.
+ I feel like piercing myself..

- Took out my right bottom lipring.. Kept biting it, and it was chipping my tooth.
- Switched my left lipring to a 16g. =/
- Cried on the phone then threw it at the wall while Ryan was still on the line. =.= Adrienne's my weak point, you should know that by now.. I feel really bad for throwing my phone now, atleast I said bye ? Or.. tried to.
Stay low, soft, dark and dreamless; Far beneath my nightmares and lonelyness. I hate me, for breatheing without you.
 

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+ Happy 1 month baby, I love you. Just sayin'.
+ Thank god finals are almost over, but they've actually been going over super easy for me.
+ Lol we always call Xanny-pack gay, but he's not.. XAN YOU'RE MY FAVE.
Me: Xan, do you pitch or catch?
Xan: I dunno.. pitch I guess..
Me: HAHA why?
Xan: Because I don't have a glove to catch with. ( Points to his crotch )
Me: Yeaaah you do..
Xan: No, I think I just mainly hit girls with my bat.


- I really shouldn't be allowed to dream.. It's been the same stupid dream ever since Ryan was over last.
 

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(48) FUCK YO COUCH .
Lol I deffs got in trouble during the final today..

First, I was making Airplane sounds with my mouth. ( cos I finished early )
And then I told Kianna she looked like a troll.

Mr.Tarney was PISSED. He made me stay after fucking class and he made me clean up and he made me re organize the desk rows, and then he yelled at me and said it wasn't allowed to happen again and then he threatened to keep me after class for half an hour. LOOOOL he even threatened me with the principal. Ahh you suck.
 

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(47) I will dissect your ego .
+ The past few days has been really hot.
+ FINALLY re-did my page.
+ HUNG WITH ANDREA!
+ Mmm school's almost over.
+ I can't wait for the summer.. You don't even know.
+ Talked to Zachary just now LOL it's been like 6 months. =/
+ LOL RYAN YOU MAKE MY LIFE;

[ Ryan + Alysha ] 05.23.10 SFTC August 22 2010 says (9:53 PM):
Pleasing me = )
You keep me happier than a pig in shit = p

Lysha + Ryan; I will dissect your ego . says (9:54 PM):
Thanks babe ? I guess?
LOL


- I GOT RAINED ON TODAY AND LOOKED LIKE HELL.
- Didn't get to see Ryan today, and probably won't tomorrow. Killer man, I miss you.
- Holy fucking finals.
-- Social final today.
-- English final Wednesday.
-- Science final Thursday.
-- Math final Friday.
-- Fieldtrip Monday.
 

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(46) Fear is a disease, hope is it's only cure .
I'm doing the walk downtown to help cure Cancer today. (=

Yes the one where you walk in your undies.
I have so many people to walk for.. mainly family, and ofcourse Ryan. ♥
 

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(45) Ghetto ass fun .
+ I have a preeeeetty great weekend, that party was fun although I didn't drink. I saw a bunch of old friends like; Nick, Chelsea, Darian, Ryan, Ryan.M, Dallas, Emily, Ben, Marcie, Katie, Mac, etc.
+ Saw Ryan today, I miss you already you loser. P.S. Sorry I was all pissed off after talking to mom. =/
+ School's almost over, thank god.
+ Lol I got some Nexiversary thing..
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- LOL I ACCIDENTALY TOUCHED KAUSHIKS WANG TODAY. -.-
- Kaushik always shows us when he gets boners in class, and he got one yesterday and made me draw gross things for him. LOL oh god..
- Mom's being the biggest doucher..
- Preeeetty sure Sherika's still mad at me, that's not okay.
- I've missed so much fucking school I barely know wtf we're doing.