Straight up, i'm wishing i never messaged you,
never talked to you. Never became your friend,
your best friend, your girlfriend. You weren't a
waste of time, you were worth it, but seriously,
if you were only playing me, why did you lead
me on for so long.
You know what?
How about you go fuck yourself.
And while your at it, go fucking slit
your throat. Your a fucking fag,
and you're not worth my time, or
anyone's really. So go die in a fucking
fire. Please, it would make everyone
else happy. I fucking hate you, and i
can't see why i used to have any feelings
whatsoever for you, or why anyone else
would have ANY feelings for you.
Everything is always going to be there.
Every scar, every tear, every phone call.
Everything, everything i don't want to ever
think about again, you did that to me,
Arent you happy?
So last night, dopest night in awhile.
Started out by drinkin "caribou lou"
which is a part malibu, a part 151 rum,
and a part pine apple juice. But there
was like barely any pineapple juice, so
it tasted wonderful. Then we "Hawaian
hotboxed" which is in a bathroom with the
shower on, and the lights out, with just a
black light. Then we started doing flaming
shots. First time ever drinking 151, and
flaming shots. Not a great combo i'd say.
Well, i would of been fine, except we smoked
more weed, and then i was invited to go have
a private sesh, with just four of us. And i kept
seeing Jericho and i kept asking who he was
then i would say afterwards like everytime, OH
your the guy ive already met like five times tonight.
hahaha, funny shit. I was sitting on the floor
like inbetween bryans legs haha. Smoked two
coco puff joints, at least im pretty sure thats what
theyre called. Then smoked a "special" bowl. That was
what fucked me up. Not too long after that, i was paintin
the bathroom, or as Travis and Bryan and Jericho liked
to say, i was hugging the porcelian goddess haha.
And now my nickname iss Caribou Queen haha!
Oh, and fuck me, when i was getting sick, Bryan was
behind me rubbing my back, and fucken Jericho was sitting
on the floor blocking the door fucking watching me puking.
And i kept like passing out on the fucken toilet LOL. Then
Bryan had like pick me up off the floor and like hold me up so
we could walk to the bedroom and i could go to sleep. And
yeah, 151 definetly fucks me up haha! And i can say i barely had
a hang over!!!! I like woke up felt sick at first, had two advil, smoked
a bowl to me and Travis and then i was allll good! So all in all
DOPE AS FUCK NIGHT! =)
p.s thanks bryan for taking care of meee.
Don't you realise i like you?
It's gotta be pretty obvious.
Ahhhh,
this is fucking gay. i wish
i never met you, so i wouldnt be in
this situation. FUCK.
So i've decided,
next time i get around like how ever much i need
im going to get a Hamster. I'm really quite
excited, i just need to get a job, which im applying for
the day im back in Williams Lake.
Your my best guy friend, yet i can't talk to you about
Him, because it hurts you, too much. I love you as
a brother, but you love me in a different way. I'm
sorry, for when i didnt know, and i needed to talk,
Thank you for putting up with it, but i'm very sorry.
