dirt everywhere.
messy ..
dancing day in day out.
no one is sober and you just wanna run into the creek.
the sun is torturing but you dont feel anything.
pain comes and goes.
work hard, play harder.
hey motherfuckers. get laid get fucked.
where are you, christmas?
why can't i find you
why have you gone away
where is the laughter
you used to bring me
why can't i hear music play
my world is changing
i'm rearranging
does that mean Christmas changes too
where are you christmas
do you remember
the one you used to know
i'm not the same one
see what time s done
is that why you have let me go.
i am my worst enemy.
and sometimes you cannot trust anyone. not even yourself.
you know what it feels like.
this hurts. & i know reality sucks. but
you could have told.
i want to be closer to you but now i really cant.
i cant at this moment, but i will wait.
"those who wait, get the goodies"
patience is key.
illness. - i have no cure to what i have.
really i dont.
its sad.
but i cant do anything about it, just live on.. if i can.
no.more.negativity.
kay? good.
anyways schools just dandy. uhh
and im going dateless for formal. great.
oh and everyone.. stop pissing me off. THANKS.
but i need to let you go..
your a bitch for doing that
and your beautiful but don't actually want me
positivity totally failed me
Its late in the evening
Shes wondering what clothes to wear
She puts on her make up
And brushes her long blonde hair
And then she asks me
Do I look alright
And I say yes, you look wonderful tonight
We go a party
And everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady
Thats walking around with me
And then she asks me
Do you feel alright
And I say yes, I feel wonderful tonight
I feel wonderful
Because I see the love light in your eyes
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just dont realize
How much I love you
Its time to go home now
And Ive got an aching head
So I give her the car keys
She helps me to bed
And then I tell her
As I turn out the light
I say my darling, you were wonderful tonight
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight
i swear, i suffer from a terrible sickness and no on knows it.
we are all damaged.
theres a part of me that never wants to let you go.
..will never be happy again.
kay im gonna fix my page today.
but first school. ew.