Never wanna fall in love again
Already have once
Still in love with that person
always will be
No one can change my mind about that
I dont wanna look for love again
Its too painful
But this was my only option
& that was letting you go again
and im sorry
but we bothe need to figure out shit
for the better
and maybe we can start of slow
and see what happens from there

Don't know what to do
or what to say
but all i can say is sorry
beging forgiveness
hoping that things will get better sooner then later
I Love You No Matter What
And I Do Care About You More Then Anything In The World
So.. Please forgive me, i want this to get better for the both of us.

I really hope that your not mad at me</3

second last day of school before summer starts and already alot of drama and rumors muchh? like fuckk that wasnt fair to any of us...what we herd or someone was either sad or was hurt.....

Omfg grow up and stop saying this shit.... just becuz she only likes you as a friend and wants you to like her as a friend doesnt mean you have to go all emo about it and saying that your gonna end everything and saying that if Derek ever liked her more then a friend which he isnt going to your going to kill him i mean wtf your gonna kill your bestfriend over a girl that you barly know and that you met like a month ago and i mean wtf you cut yourself one night just becuz you were sad and didnt get to see her boo fucking hoo! grow the fuck up and move on!

Omfg worse day of my life
Your fucking ruining everything mostly
Your mostly not letting him and i see eachother anymore
saying that i cant come over on weekends and He isnt allowed to come over to my house on the weekend
Like wtf!
your such a bitch
Hopefully he lives with his brother most of the time
He gets wayyyyyyyy more freedom from his brother
I mean after next tuesday you cant do shit cuz it's summer holidays
and if you think your gonna make him and i not see eachother in the summer
your fucking wrong cuz he might end up staying with his bro most of the summer time
at least his brother knows what it's like to be in love and everything
Unlike you your just like "Back in my day i was beating up boys"
Well that was your days this is now and everything has changed from the 60's
Even my own mom knows what it's like to be in love and mostly i dont usually agree with my mom but when it's about you cuz she knows what your like she's mostly on my side and same with his sis in law on some terms
And im ready to say it straight to your face that your a fucking bitch that doesnt know what LOVE means!
I hope that you relize your son is going to hate you for the rest of his life! after high school!
and probably wont talk to you very muchh or wont see you very muchh!
So stop being a fucking bitch and let him live his life!

YAY IT'S OUR BIRTHDAY TODAY!
I Love You
Xox

You dont tell me anything anymore and you said to me that when i know your sad and if i ask when theres something wrong you would tell me and you still not doing that i ask you that when you sound sad,or look sad and i know when your sad...you just dont wanna tell me cuz you say it's nothing and you listen to depressed songs and i have to ask you a million times and i hate doing that=( and right now your saying that theres nothing wrong and when i know your sad cuz you sound like it and your listening to depressing songs and you just wont tell me and i hate it how nothing's changed at all when you said your going to change but that hasnt happened and i really hope that it does after our birthday....

Why am i so jealous when you hang out with other girls?
I mean i know that your only friends with them or your best friends with them and you use to have a crush on them back in elementry and i know that you love me soooooooooo muchh that you dont wanna loose me and i know that you'll never cheat on me cuz you know how it feels and i know when you have a gf you never wanna end the relationship cuz you really love that person and you know how to treat a girl right but there will be a times where you ignore me just like the other day when you mostly talked to Courtney and barly notice that i was there!:( i was pretty muchh hurt but then you were kinda hurt as well cuz you felt like i didnt want you over at courtney's when i did but everything went back to normal now:) cuz i know that you love me and that you never ever wanna loose me and you wont loose me cuz i love you sooooooo muchh that i dont wanna loose you either and i know i wont cuz you dont want this to end and i dont want it to end either and your bitchy ex gf's dont know how nice you are and that you treat a girl right....i think it's becuz it's that time so your acting different but it will get better cuz im with you and i make you happy and you make me happy! and ILUSM

You dont know how muchh i wanted you to quit drinking!!! you fucking drank everyday like yeahh you've cut down your kinda getting worse ever since i moved out....it really hurts! i just want this pain to end you use to keep me trapt inside in the house but finally you relized im not that little girl anymore! but still you go out partying like almost every weekend you sometimes drink the heavy stuff! do you even remember what you did two years ago i guess not cuz you were too drunk to even remember i tell you things and then i have to repeat them and you get into alot of trouble and you hang out with a person who is always drunk! did you know how it was horrified i was and then on my 13th birthday you passed out on the couch after having a few! do you even remember what happend to Grandpa Bob how the alcohol killed him and then he passed away becuz he drank as muchh as you! you should finally relize what it does to you and how it effects other people and i didnt even know that Grandpa died becuz of alcohol until i was 12 years old and my own auntie told me! not even you! cuz you probably just wanna drink and end up like him well guess im not gonna let you

You've been pretty muchh ignoring me all night....You would ask me if i was okayy and i said yeahh i was fine and there would be sometimes where you asked me that question and then walked away without me answering and then you went backk and ignored me again and talking to her and i didnt like it what you said that comment to your "bestie" and how you kinda just mostly talked to her and barly saw me and i cant even talk becuz you guys just talk over my voice so i just be quiet and listen to you guys since your guys stories are more important then mine....Your not acting like yourself....you would always held me in your arms always wanted to be with me...now it just feels like im not even there anymore unless were like alone and then you care about me but when were hanging out with other people you dont even notice me!!!! im ready to burst out into tears! i mean yeahh it was a good day and everything but i just felt ignored thats all

1, What Color Is Your Toothbrush?
White

2, Name One Person That Made You Smile Today?
Derek

3, What Were You Doing At 8 Am This Morning?
At school,missing derek cuz he didnt show up this morning!

4, What Were You Doing 45 Minutes Ago?
At Derek's

5, What Is Your Favorite Candy
Gummy bears

6.Have you ever been to a strip club?
Ohh yes,like all the time

7, What Is The Last Thing You Said Aloud?
It's not your fault!

8, What Is The Best Ice Cream Flavour?
Chocolate

9, What Was The Last Thing You Had To Drink?
Alil bit of pop

10, What Is The Longest You Have Gone Without Sleeping?
Like, a day

11, Have You Ever Made A Promise You Swore To Keep?
Yes and im still keeping it!

12, Have You Bought Any New Clothing Items This Week?
Not really

13, The Last Sporting Event You Watched?
Rugby.

14, What Is Your Favorite Flavor Of Popcorn?
Uh, regular.

15, Who Is The Last Person You Sent A Message To On Facebook?
Idk

16, Ever Go Camping?
HELLZ YEAHH,fucking love camping!

17, Take vitamins daily?
Nope.

18, Do You Go To Church Every Sunday?
Nope.

19, Do You Have A Tan?
Yeah a bit.

20, Do You Like Chinese Food Over Pizza?
Um.. some what

21, Do You Drink Your Soda With A Straw?
Some times

22, who are you currently talking to on msn?
Courtney and Derek

23, What Are You Doing Tomorrow?
School and then Derek's

24, Where Is Your Dad?
At home,i think?

25, Look To Your Left, What Do You See?
A mirror

26, What Color Is Your Watch?
I dont have a watch.

27, What Do You Think Of When You Hear Australia?
Hot.

28, What Is Your Birthstone?
Gemrald.....i think thats how you spell it^o)

29, Do You Go In At A Fast Food Place Or Just Hit The Drive Thru?
Depends

30, What Is Your Favorite Number
anything with three

31, Who's The Last Person You Talked To On The Phone?
Derek

32, Any Plans Today?
Um..it's night time!

34, Biggest Annoyance In Your Life Right Now?
Derek's mom!

35, Last Song Listened To?
Panic at the disco-this is halloween town

36, Can You Say The Alphabet Backwards?
Nope

37, Do You Have A Maid Service Clean Your House?
Haha, no.

38, Favorite Pair Of Shoes/Boots You Wear All The Time?
Sorta..

39, Are You Jealous Of Anyone?
No,i'm actually pretty happy about my life right now

40, Is Anyone Jealous Of You?
I doubt it.

41. Do you love anyone?
Derek and my family!

42, Do Any Of Your Friends have Children?
Um.. i know people who i use to be friends or go to school had a baby at the age of sixteen or seventeen

43, What Do You Usually Do During The Day?
Go to school.

44, Do You Hate Anyone That You Know Right Now?
I only hate one person.

45, Do You Use The Word 'hello' Daily?
I sure do.

47, Do You Like Cats?
Yeahh of course=)

48, Have You Ever Been To Six Flags?
Nope.

49.Where did you get your worst scar from?
Um.. from Scout Island

51, Last Cd Played?
idk.

52, Last Bubble Bath?
Long time agoo.

53, Last Time You Cried?
A while ago =]

54, Last Meal?
DQ

58, Have You Ever Lost Someone?
I dont think im gonna loose him=)

59, Have You Ever Slept Until 1pm?
Yupperz

60, Have You Ever Been Drunk And Threw Up?
Well i've gotten drunk but didnt throw up

61, List six People You Can Tell Pretty Much Anything To:
I can only tell one special person about anything who can actually keep their mouth shut!

62, List Three Favorite Colors:
Purple, Blue, pink

63, Have you ever laughed until you cried?
Yeah.

64, Went Behind Your Parents Back?
Mhm

65, Who Posted This Before You?
Dayna

66, Gay Marriage?
Go for it =P

67, Lowering The Drinking Age?
Makes no difference.

69, Who are the best huggers that you know of?
Um,Derek,Alex,Courtney,Shelby

70, Do You Believe In Love At First Sight?
Some what

71, Is There Something You Want To Tell Someone?
No not really.

74, How Many Kids Do You Want To Have?
2 maybe 3

75, Do You Want To Change Your Name?
Sometimes

77, What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
6:16

78, What Were You Doing At Midnight Last Night?
Sleeping.

79, What Is Your Favorite Thing In Your Room?
... I dont know

80.Where is your best friend right now?
No clue.

Somethings hasnt changed still
I want it like it use to be
Your doing things that still hurt me!