As I breathe in his toxic scent,
I try my best to hold back,
instead of coming closer to be embraced in his wonderful hugs.
The rope that had tied us together,
that same rope that is tied to my heart,
is now pulling its way out of my soul.
Struggling to get my shattered heart out of my own body,
before it can be destroyed to pieces for good.
But it's no use...
No matter how hard it pulls,
my heart always sinks back into place,
every time he flashes his sweet smile my way.
He doesn't understand how much he means to me,
and how much I'm begging for at least something in return.
and my head already knows what my heart can't accept,
like how every thing he has ever said to me,
every thing he said about us, and what we could be,
was a lie.. all of it was just a huge lie.
Its been a year since
I'd fallen for his pathetic games,
and let him destroy my soul completely,
but I'm still holding my head up high,
I'm still brave enough to face him after all he's done to me,
even if I am in critical condition
because I'm waiting and praying for the day,
when he finally understands how much it hurts me
to be led on every time we're together.
Waiting for the day
he figures out why I'm so attached to him
and waiting for him to finally accept my feelings,
so we could possibly be together...
like I've been planning from the start... <3
i love you..<3