omfg i hate you so much,
i cant even begin to explain.
you are so fuckinn annoying,
go diee!

you know, i thought you were being honest with me,
telling me what was on your mind and how you feel about things,
but it turns out that's the complete opposite,
things can never be okay with us because you always lie about how you feel
and then you get super pissed off later.. and dont even tell me then
i wish you could just tell me what was on your mind cause right now
our relationship is just a big huge lie!

well thanks to whoever bought me plus! i didnt even know i had it...

i get so pissed off at the easiest things...
and the things that i should be happy about...
but im not, im fuckin pissed and i wish i could hit something
this is the time where i need a punching bag,
but i dont have one.
i just hate it hate it hate it


why does he always get to be happy and not me?

so i change my mind constantly,
i hate you, i dont...
so how do i really feel about youu?
you're the ugliest person i know,
you're annoying as fuckk,
but your a genuine person...

well right now, after being nasty, i hate you.

im just so confused...
i really need a friend right noww...

-the wedding was pretty boring, nothing interesting really.. weddings are boring without like LOTS of ppl and lots of alcohol.. and even tho there was alcohol there, it was all gross!
-breana is pretty much pro with a paint ball gun hahaha. funny shitt. .
-I sort of believe in that "thing" we talked about, but sort of not at the same time.
-I'm proud of Sam.
-Tomorrow is gonna be lame probably.. its already sunday!!! thats so shitty.
-I actually think im gonna fail this math test, im stressed outt.
-Barely anyone uses nex anymore.. its all facebook shitt.

okay so just came back from a three day trip for a funeral
went to the hospital right after to be with kayla while she had her baby..

and then i go to sebastians and get there at the same time as his sister from vancouver
i go to the door, he comes out, walks right past me and goes straight to his sister!
he hasnt seen me in three days and he doesnt even say hi!!!!
i dont know whether i should just think its okay cause she is from vancouver
and he doesnt see her oftenn...
but then again, he had time to hug me first and then go hug her...
ughhh it was STUPID!

If I could compare you to anything,
it would be the sun.
You are constantly shining
your warm rays beaming down on everyone else around
and when a cloud decides to float in your way
it only stays there for a moments time
you are always there for me, keeping me going
you are what makes me happy,
what makes my dayy bright,
I love youu, and I only pray
that you never fade away <3

I can feel the end.
I knew it wouldnt last forever,
nothing great lasts forever.

okay if you wanna talk to me about something
and you think i know who you are anyways,
and i know i know who you are,
then why send me an honesty box message?
like seriously, those are for anonymous writers, and
for people who think something about me...
not for a problem they have with me.
seriously, next time,
send it in a real messsage,
it would be a lot easier for both me and you.


and by the way,
you can just but outt
because its not any of your business anyways
back out of our lives,
your not gonna change anything.

i never go through a day without being scared.

its so hard to deal with this sometimes
because you send me mixed signals constantly.
you are okay with one of my rules,
telling me your fine with it, that i shouldnt feel bad
and that its okay..
but then whenever we fight,
you bring up that rule
and complain about it,
you fight about it...

so i dont really see whether you are truly mad about it
or if you are just lettin out all of your anger.
set me straight, please, for the both of us.

when people get mad,
they say things they dont mean,
it just manages to all come outt
in the harshest words imaginable.
next time your in a fight,
dont take what the person says
too personally. dont take it to heat.
because chances are, they didnt really mean it.