Wake up to the thought of you. It's May; remember how cold it was tht march in your garage? I sat with my legs crossed, your mind lost, mine lost in losing you. The street lights were like a candles glowing brightly in my heart . It's a shame, the games we played. Should this be funny or should this be sad? You entered and exited my life all on your own, giving me no say in what went on. Tonight i'll wait for my hero, in place of you. With an absent mind I conclude that our romance was a black hole, only sucking me further in to spit me out in the end. Your words have been short and your eyes havn't met mine for weeks. I could have givin you the light you deserve. You forgot the cold nights we walked the streets. Tonight i'll be blowing out our final candle. You shall sit in darkness.
at night i pray, that soon your face will face away.
that was the feeling i longed for, when i looked in your eyes. It wasn't love, but i got lost . It was like everything i ever wanted. Just to know for that single moment as you stared at me you were thinking of me and i was thinking of you.
i came to a realization, i'm in love with my bestfriend. It's not like that chessy kind of love where you think you're in love and you say it all the time just to make it sound a little bit more real, or the stupid love e-mails and kisses. Just love. I didn't realize it, until we was gone. Until i didn't have the slightest chance in having him anymore. I guess the lesson learned here is that if you wait for the right moment, the moment will pass you by. My moment passed me by. and i have a feeling it wont be ocming back around any time soon, or in that case never. It almost makes me sick to think of him with someone else, but at the same time i'd rather me be unhappy thn him. i guess it all comes down to the sacrifices we make for the ones we love. All my plans i made in my head of you and i, the unspoken ones. Somehow now they crash down around me like falling trees. but at the same time, everything okay when i see your smile, even just a photograph.
i've come to realize that i forgave you that day just because i thought i needed you in my life, because I didn't want to loose you. Even if you didn't deserve my forgiveness. You still don't , you never will. Ever.
you remind me of everything i used to hate.
i hated all of this before i met you. and thn i fell
inlove with everything i hated. I"m never going
back to tht again. now i remember why i hated
it all in the first place. Don't you ever tell yourself
that you're better thn everyone else. Because
you're not, you're a walking peice of shit.
You rich, stuck-up, spoiled, good for nothing asshole.
i stumbled across our almost forgotten memories yesterday. She spoke of you, hopeing i was attentive. I always am. You're irrelevant to me now, or so you should be. To be honest, i'm ashemed you even matter enough to me to even pass through my thoughts once more. To be written within my feelings. You shouldn't
be thought upon in the first place. But quiet frankly, i'm sick of the "time to time" casual conversation about you. The fact of the matter is, you did this.You ignotant, and me naive. You know i owuld have given you my all. We're like two cars going to fast, we crashed and crumbled. And when the glass shattered i would have expected the shavings to sting, cutting in deeply to your skin. To me, " You deseve it" isn't the saying i'm looknig for. It hardly comes close to the justice you deserve. Tragedy, Nightmare, Heartbreaking, call it what you wish. This was my life you stole away from me in an instant. Now it;s yours. You'll just continue burning yourself up with your cheap whore and expensize nights out. keep it close you , it's really all you have left now.
i may be a fkn joke, but you're a mo fkn peice of shit. You didn't deserve anything i ever did for you. Sometimes i like to think back to the happy time we had but thn suddenly reality sets in. You were an asshole thn, you're an asshole now and you will always be an mo fkn asshole. Some people call it a death wish, i call it " getting what you deserve". You walk around with your nose in the air when actually i should be stomping it closer into the fucken earth. Thats where you belong, the fucken ground.
I would just like to infrom all the nexopiarz on hur that TYLER ALTIZER is the most rad sauce being to ever walk this earth, yes it's true ; even rad saucer thn I vikki. and thts pretty damn awesome! i wuv him very very much :] his cucumber makes me wet.... but yeah RADSAUCE!
Yesterday i hated you, Today i hate you and Tomorrow i'll hate you.
I'll hate until the day you wonder back to me with open arms pleading
to me for forgivness and saying that for once i was right, every single
fucken thing i said was right. I don't know what i want anymore ,but
i know for sure it isn't you. I could say i want to forgive you , but i'd
be lying because honestly in pretty content with wanting you died.
Oh shit,
kay well i havn't really been online
since like forevz cuz i just got bored of
nexopia i suppose but i want to start
using it again, BUT EVERYTHING IS DIFF
oh wellz, i'll figure it out. I'm the pimp champ
bitcchezzz :] one love!
