k well its 4 in the morning , just got off the phone with you , like usuaaaal . im gonnnaa waste my time on this gaaaay ass website and write down whats going through my head right now .
so we've known eachother for like 7 months now, and i never thought we'd be as close as we are now, i see you 3 or 4 times a weeek , and when we chill , its usually all day if not all night . even though we get into our little arguments every now and then .. although they only last a couple minutes , i'd rather have our arguments than not talk to you at all . i know you've heard shit , i know you've had your second thoughts, but still , from what you hear , it hasnt stopped you from coming back to seeee me yet . i've been thinkin alot about you latley and if you really believed everything people said like everyone else does, why are you still here ? did you mean what you said that night when you told me you loved me that night a couple days ago ? thats what i really know . it keeps replaying in my head, that whole night .. the way you grabbed me after i tried walking away, turned me around .. and told me you're actually inlove with me , it was the look in your eyes , a kinda look i've never seen before . it felt like my heart dropped that very second . you know what i respect the most about you ? what really makes me believe what you said was true ? we havent even " slept " together , and you've told me with every other girl its been that way , one night stand .. and you told me you were plannin on doin that with me that one night at his party , never did , still havent almost 8 months later , does it mean something ? i know your going through alot with your ex right now .. and im tryin to help you through everything i can , but whats goin on, i neeed you to know , i'll be there for you and who ever else is involved in this every step of the way and you know exactly what i mean by that . i promise you that . im excited to see you tomorrow . im done writing what i had to say .. not even gonna bother re reading this .
i love you , really .. keep that in mind .
