'livin loud
Jodi<3
-i am one of the most steriotypical girls u will ever meet. for example:
+flirting with a bunch of guys? not really my thing
+i probly know more about cars, and sound systems then any of the guys in our grade
+my dream job? a mechanic
+spare time? gaming, preferably forza, gta, pgr,halo
+burping contests with guys? helll ya. pretty much my goal
+ dont like me? my body? my cloths? DONT CARE
+shot for shot? sounds good
+talk like a guy? alll the time. oops!
+get my hands dirty? every day
+broke a nail? dont make me laugh
+get all cute n done up before the game? ur joking right? mud n blood
+wanna fight me? be my guest
+cute flats with bows? let me know when u see that
+ill be the one u will see puking up 4L of water just so i can see if its possible to drink that much.
+tackle football? only if ur actually guna hit a girl and not waste my time
+l be the one u will see puking my guts out to see if the coke n mentos things works.
+taking pictures? lets see who can make the worst face
+"omg she has the same shirt as meee!" = who gives a flying fuck
It begins with a dark glowing ember,
something black burning it's way out of me.
Searing the flesh,
pain is the only thing I feel,
scars all I see.
Oh no the fire's burning my insides again,
what can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Flames consuming reason leaving only ashes left
you will catch me for regretting my decision,
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear,
I can't just close my eyes.
I know that it's killing me,
and it's poisoning the best in me,
but I say, I don't want to believe.
what i see, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more (tell you more)
about the lies I lead.
That is how i choose to douce the flames in gasoline
Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head
Wreckage from the past haunts me, shake me to the bone
(to the bone)
I know it's over but I can't go home tonight.
But after this I feel as empty as the night before,
feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more.
Masochistic, nihilistic, urging backward thought
My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it.
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear,
I can't just close my eyes
(my eyes, my eyes, my fucking eyes)
I know that it's killing me,
and it's poisoning the best of me,
What I see, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more, tell you more,
about the lies I lead.
Calling, calling out.
The darkest reaches of my soul,
are riddled with self-doubt.
Crawling, crawling out,
my will to fight will more than suffice,
when others would lay down.
It's only as dark as you make it.
I know that it's killing me,
and it's poisoning the best of me,
but I say, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more, tell you more
about the lies I lead.
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They've clipped my wings again,
Tore them apart and then, left me
No use to fly away to my yesterday, of freedom
My eyes died back that day,
Seeing the hurt I may have done
Beat me instead of them,
Pain is my only zen, of fun
I'll go where secrets are sold
Where roses unfold
I'll sleep as time goes by
So hurting here is where I belong, dreaming a song
Blood on my hands to stay strong
The flowers in the graveyard are all gone, I don't belong
There is no right to heal the wrong,
Soup's on hot feelin' like a do or die,
I can't throw up, I don't think I even wanna try
You still can't make me cry,
You've pinned this butterfly down
My fire's burning out,
Kill my flame without a frown
And starving hurts the soul,
When you're hungry for, some love
So if I close my eyes
I can really fly, above
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Tore them apart and then, left me
No use to fly away to my yesterday, of freedom
My eyes died back that day,
Seeing the hurt I may have done
Beat me instead of them,
Pain is my only zen, of fun
I'll go where secrets are sold
Where roses unfold
I'll sleep as time goes by
So hurting here is where I belong, dreaming a song
Blood on my hands to stay strong
The flowers in the graveyard are all gone, I don't belong
There is no right to heal the wrong,
Soup's on hot feelin' like a do or die,
I can't throw up, I don't think I even wanna try
You still can't make me cry,
You've pinned this butterfly down
My fire's burning out,
Kill my flame without a frown
And starving hurts the soul,
When you're hungry for, some love
So if I close my eyes
I can really fly, above
I wanna live before I die
So don't say I have to cry on
One more freezing floor
I ask you to open the door
And see how things could have gone
The reason that it took so long
Before you could figure out
That for so long I was about to break
And there were no arms to keep me
From harming me and now I'm searchin back to see
How I never tried to ask for some sympathy
'cause no- nobody wants to ride with me too far
'cause I might trip away
But in your arms I'd rather stay
Want to dream about
Something I can't live without
My foot is in your hand
I want you to understand
How I could be confused
Right after being used
But still your here in spite
When I close my eyes to dream at night
I've gotta keep my pants on
I gotta check my pulse before I've gone too far away
To hurt so i think I'll stay around to hear ya breath
Saying all those words to me
Unraveling my fantasy while I drink
My oleander tea
Atreyu;The Used;From Autum To Ashes; Underoath; Disturbed; Strike Anywhere;Immortal Technique;Pillar;Death From Above; In Flames;Bullet For My Valentine;Scenes And Sirens;Mayday Parade;Mozart Season; As I Lay Dying;Panic At The Disco; The Blood Hound Gang; Strung Out;Yellowcard;Lil wayne;Young buck;Young jezzy;System Of A Down;Saosin;Slipknot, The Used Children of Bodom;With Broken Wings;Cradil of Filth; The Spill Canvas;Bless The Fall;Stutterfly; Thrice;Katy Rose;HIM;Tegan And Sara;Paramore;Three Days Grace;Soulja Boy;Story Of The Year;The Bled;Keepsake Summer;Boys Like Girls;Secondhand Serenade;silent civilian;Chamillionaire;Chris brown; Young joc; NAS;raised fist;Slim thug;Swollen members;Tech 9; Timbaland;Wu-tang;G unit;Flo-rida;T-pain;Red Jumpsuit Apparatus;Alexisonfire;All Time low;Madina Lake;
Just Surrender;Every Avenue;A Skylit Drive
Just Surrender;Every Avenue;A Skylit Drive
I LOVE YOU Kurtis Rankel
u mean EVERYTHING TO ME.
thats one promise i know i will never have to take back.
u and i both know i wouldnt be here if i didnt have u.
nothing is ever over.
not with what we have.
u are more then i could ever ask for.
more then i deserve.
and im guna prove that to u.
because baby. im never letting anyone take u away from me.