jamie dysart : and it seems like every step i take, i screw up even more.
some people once told me, that things happen for a reason ? do people just say that to help cheer people up ? or do they say that cause things really do happen for a reason.. well, i kinda belive different now, cause it only happens if you make it happen, right ? and if you don't want it too happen, then it shouldn't... cause its your choice, and you make it happen. i don't get it though, people say things, that make people like each other or jealous of something. people say things they shouldn't, and don't say things that should have been said. you can't help but over analyze a situation that doesn't feel like it shouldn't be a memory. so i guess things kinda do happen for a reason, better and worse, but why do something, when you don't get anything in the end ? whats the point ? yes, you experience it, and move on, but where is the fun in that ? you get hurt, and regret what you've done. you can't live depressed forever, you don't live life the way it should be. you need to have some fun in your life. because if you become to obsessed or distracted by something your hole life, you don't experience what should be happening in the first place. you don't look backwards, you look forward, for a better life. you shouldn't have to rewind things in your life, and try to fix them, you leave it. it makes a memory. you should be able to tell a story, not make them up. because in the end it's not the years in your life that count, it's the life in your years.


