i'm fat, serbian and in a band....

i'm not nearly as special as you...

"i feel like death"

i'm a necro serial rapist, as well as a professional stalker. i have a "things to rape list".

i write poetry...

i tell random stories...

i make fun of fat people...and people with down syndrome. (i know...i'm a fucking cunt...so what?)




www.koza1.com

www.myspace.com/xunkeptx

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amy lee
morgan lander
guitar...SCARAB!!
acting
blood
biting
bondage
shackles
restraint
necrophilia
fangs
claws
black
vampires
MILIC!---i love you more than i hate myself
concerts
SERBIA
moshing
self-destruction
Marlboro
Vodka
summer
adriatic
dead baby jokes
pale
dressing in nigger
scars
mutilation
artists
kicking trendy whores in the cunt
blowing smoke rings
feeding the cancer
black roses
good conversations
pretty people
hugs
spines
looking good in pictures..haha
being in control of everything









MUSIC
chimaira
celldweller
tristania
voltaire
cradle of filth
manson
adams god
atreyu
kittie
killswitch engage
lacuna coil
xandria
sirenia
korova
strapping young lad
opeth
orgy
rammstein
wumpscut
willow wisp
yakuza
zeromancer
a perfect circle
deftones
evereve
genitorturers
kidneythieves
jack off jill
scarling
crossbreed
dimmu borgir
decapitated
katatonia
velvet acid christ
android lust
anathema
cruxshadows
69 eyes
grotesque
rotting christ
the forsaken
smashing pumpkins
android lust
girls under glass
the sins of thy beloved
london after midnight
snake river conspiracy
tapping the vein
emberghost
to die for
violent work of art
punish yourself
assemblage 23
beborn beton
cephalic carnage
charon
clan of xymox
covenant
collide
circle of dust
godhead
motograter
grim faeries
old korn
macabre
MSI
nine inch nails
nirvana
refused
raised fist
3 inches of blood
iron maiden
scars of life
tool
leaves eyes
theatre of tragedy
suicide commando
blutengel
gorgasm
otep
thy serpent
skinny puppy
neuraxis
spf 1000
van gogh
children of bodom
prostitute disfigurement
anal cunt
agoraphobic nosebleed
christian death
drain STH
my dying bride
skeaker pimps
---and MANY more.















HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA





POETRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Untitled #1

In the twilight
She lay distant,
Dressed in gore
And kiss resistant,
Shaped in beauty,
Stench of pride,
Heart at ease
With wrists in mind,
Too dead to sleep,
Too bold to stay,
With "farewell" whispers
Invoked decay.



Untitled #2

Darkness stains you; acid burns your skin,
Your body turns to dust, I breathe you in,
I inhale the poison to break the broken,
The whispers are faint, no words are spoken,
Paint another shadow to mask the cynic truth,
Efface the comforts of the mother and youth,
Defy the curse as it slips inside your veins,
Stare through the holes, the beauty decays,
Complex though pretty, holy and forsaken,
Blinded through the curse for the taken,
Hollow and simple, at last alone,
Tears of ashes, a heart of stone,
Defiant in mind, forced at will,
A trail of hope and sickened still,
Filled by nothing, forever lost and lonely,
Still so pretty, with the palest flesh below me,
Lips stained with sorrow consume my kiss,
Devour my innocence, a savior is remiss,
Liberated by the cause, bleeding dream,
Compelled to darkness of the great obscene,
Betrayed by the kiss through imposing sting,
Trapped in circles of a diamond ring,
Blackened at surface, nothing's clear,
Stranded in nightmare to keep you here,
The ties have loosened, I halt to stare,
Seeking through you and nothing's there,
Compressed emotion leaves a restrain,
Bathe in lie to escape the pain,
Masked with denial, forever is mine,
Dressed in velvet, pale and fine,
The bonds release me, I come undone,
Silence screams through the loaded gun,
The screams escape me without a sound,
Tamed through kisses and slowly bound,
Breaking through me, distorted eyes,
Praying in me through helpless cries,
Forces acting on me have given up all holds,
Falling through forever, my emptiness unfolds,
Something stirs me, alert, awake,
To never admit the will to break,
To never speak a word of truth,
Destroy the mother, rape the youth,
And never feel holy, expose no guilt,
To break the ties that these hands have built,
Disappointment learned through tears of scorn,
As the once admired now sleeps alone,
Free and hopeless, attempt to remain,
Destroy emotion upon restrain,
Found in static, sail through time,
Take me back to a shore once mine,
Where the waters froze at no command,
Failing to absorb the blood at hand,
Where the beach is swollen, slightly chapped,
In the eyes of which, I'm forever trapped,
Trapped in nothing, I think I'm free,
Awaken with you next to me,
Pretty and peaceful, eyes are closed,
Calmed and naked with all exposed,
Breathing steady, I sigh with ease,
Passionate compassion from another tease,
The silence mocks me, a familiar tale,
Mistakenly seduced by the pretty pale,
Tough to grasp, a concept so pure,
Naive in embrace, I feel secure,
Pendulum swings through my darkened fate,
As I'm lured inside the Siren's gate,
She speaks in tongue as I respond,
To be forced inside another bond,
Lost again to the strong embrace,
Fail to fill the sacred place,
Shatter to pieces, turn to dust,
The love of life begins to rust,
Nothing that can save me, never you,
Ponder the truth that I surely knew,
Defenses weakened by the coldest touch,
And I could never feel so much,
Never give the expected, feel no need,
Possessing all and bask in greed,
Taken away through the needle hole,
My mask erased, I breathe no more,
Stagger through voids, I ponder my state,
To again destroy what you create,
To inhale a painful death upon your smile,
And be locked in dream for a little while,
Tears scratching into me, much like nails,
As the book extracts its horrid tales,
Freak-show setting, a sinful theme,
As through the silence I choke on scream,
Lean into me, all else is far away,
Bound to fill your wishes as I agree to play,
Last forever, have you not been bored,
As the once admired is now ignored.




Untitled #3

Drain my body, consume the flow,
Eyes upon me, a vacant glow,
Kiss your wounds, I make them mine,
Where centuries are a speck in time,
Teeth upon my neck,
A noose, a tourniquet,
Flickering shadows that hide your face,
By the death of you in winter's grace,
I feel it crumble before my eyes,
Devour the tongue that tastes of lies,
And speak ideally through fangs of steel,
To slip inside a void so real,
All the comforts, hereby denied,
The phantom chokes inside your mind,
I watch you fade and fall from me,
Drag your eyes to fantasy,
Engage in slumber to never awake,
I taste your kiss and watch you break,
Winter holds you upon its shoulder,
Time betrays you as you get older,
The bare trees listen and turn to greet,
As the ice has shattered beneath our feet,
Drain your body, drink your wine,
Your pretty weakness makes you mine,
Bite the hand that offers flowers,
As seconds turn to sacred hours,
Drown the words that sound so sweet,
And beg for darkness to retreat,
Pray in me, I beg for you,
Cover up and bleed straight through,
Wait for me while I reform,
As winter brings another storm.

your mom!!!
being exposed
rap
when a cheese plate is the first thing served at a meal. drives me completely insane!!
wiggers
people who drive with snow on their cars
people who wear unmatching socks
CROAT BITCHES
cowboys
jocks
pink
emo
paperbag girl
being homeless...haha
Starbucks
my skin
expectations
pressure
stress
physics
mormons
evangelists
emotions
weakness
myself
fat people
being fucked over
people who tell me to quit smoking
work
being alive
my failure
when i cant park my car straight. haha
war
insomnia
my fucked up dreams
depending on others
making promisses
being insignifficant
being lied to
mornings without coffee
not being old enough to buy my own cigarettes....*sigh*
people who refer to a 'vegetarian" pizza as a fucking "vegetable" pizza. if you do that, or have done that in the past...kill yourself now.
being asked "are you goth?".
being empty
being alone
being late...even though it happens every fucking day
the fact that i'm just not as cool as you...you trendy piece of shit.



FUCK BUSH!!!