50 Random Questions
1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
fort saskatchewan for a family gathering:)

2. Who are you in love with?
my boyfriend

3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
when i was little probably

4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
yes

5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
two days ago

6. Are you wearing socks right now?
nope

7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?
i dont have a car

8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
today

9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
yes pirates:)

10. Are you hot?
my house is boiling

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
chocolate milk

12. What are you wearing right now?
my purple dress

13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?
car wash.. but its not MY car

14. Last food that you ate?
a feast! turkey, ham, salads, carrot and cheese cake

15. Where were you last week at this time?
in my bed sleeping with nate

16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
yesss a dress and shorts and a top

17. When is the last time you ran?
like a week and a half ago

18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
beginning of the hockey game yesterday

19. What is your favorite animal?
umm cats i suppose

20. Your dream vacation?
europe and somewhere tropical AND vegas when im 21, i have three.

21. Last person's house you were in?
my aunt and uncle's

22. Worst injury you've ever had?
broken wrist

23. Have you been in love?
now yes. before this no.

24. Do you miss anyone right now?
YES YES YES times a million!!!!

25. Last play you saw?
ummm probably the school musical

26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
hmm.. i really don't think i have a secret weapon.

27. What are your plans for tonight?
sleep

28. Who is the last person you sent a message or comment?
taelar ball

29. Next trip you are going to take?
probably sylvan

30. Ever go to camp?
yes girl guide camp

31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
for 11 years

32. What do you want to know about the future?
nothing, i want to find out as i go

33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
not today

34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?
probably

35. Where is your best friend?
probably in her bed

36. How is your best friend?
bootilicious, a naughty girl, irriplaceable, BEYONCE

37. Do you have a tan?
somewhat of a tan

38. What are you listening to right now?
the postal service

39. Do you collect anything?
i used to have quite the beanie baby collection

40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
probably bren, but i love it.

41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
kristen's party

42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
yess

43. What does your last text message say?
its private from my maaaan

44. Do you like hot sauce?
usually

45. Last time you took a shower?
this morning

46. Do you need to do laundry?
i always need to do laundry

47. What is your heritage?
french and irish mostly

48. Are you someone's best friend?
yesss

49. Are you rich?
hahaha no

50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?
i was dancing my bum off at the ranch

The Firsts...
1. First real best friend
jessica

2. First school
richard secord

3. First cell phone
november 05-march 07 a piece of crrrrap

4. First funeral
my great grandma's i was.. 8.

5. First pet
scratchy, 13 years and we're still in love.

6. First big trip
probably to kelowna when i was 13

7. First fight
no idea im sure it was with my parents.. i've never physically fought.

8. First celebrity crush
ashley angel parker from o-town

9. First time out of the country
nevaa

10. First job
iga

11. First car
non existant

12. First myspace friend
psh myspace im sure my first friend on here was lesley since she like made it for me


And The Lasts...
13. Last person you hugged
a whole lotta relatives

14. Last car ride
home from fort saskatchewan tonight

15. Last time you cried
this evening cuz im a big cry baby

16. Last movie you watched
shall we dance but i didnt see all of it so pirates of the carabean 3 is the last one i fully watched.

17. Last food you ate
cake

18. Last item bought
sunglasses

19. Last shirt worn
my oilers shirt i wore to bed last night (today i wore a dress)

20. Last phone call
naaaaate

21. Last text message
a perfect one from my boyfriend at like midnight

22. Last kiss
last wednesday morning when nate left.

23. Last thing you touched
the key board?

24. Last funeral
my great uncles last fall.

25. Last time at the mall
friday evening.

26. Last time you were excited for something
i was really excited for grad. but i have a million things to be excited for.

27. Last person you saw
my mom or brother

28. Last thing you drank
chocolate milk

29. Last person that broke your heart
my father haha

30. Last time you were really honestly happy
i was pretty happy last night.

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"Some people believe that without history, our lives amount to nothing. At some point we all have to choose: do we fall back on what we know, or do we step forward to something new? It's hard not to be haunted by our past. Our history is what shapes us... what guides us. Our history resurfaces time after time after time. So we have to remember sometimes the most important history is the history we’re making today."

"What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again."

"But the thing is, it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely, because almost everyone has that smallest bit of faith and hope that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true. At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize that the fairy tale is slightly different than your dream. The castle, well it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important that it’s happily ever after -- just that it’s happy right now. See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. And once in awhile, people may even take your breath away."

"We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still, the expected's just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives."

Please don't let this turn into something it's not
you can only give me everything you've got
and you can't be as sorry as i think you should
But you still love me more than anyone else could

All that you keep thinking throughout this whole fight
Is it could take your whole damn life to make this right
This splintered mast you're holding on won't save you long
Because you know fine well that what you did was wrong

We have got through so much worse than this before
but it's so different this time that i can't ignore
it is much more than just your last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes



past year and a half much:

Here’s to all those girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the called ID the next morning and be disappointed. To those who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, I only want to be your friend, one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves you and misses you.
We deserve something, and this is our tribute.

Here’s to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for a while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world that to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here’s to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours or a few days. Here’s for the tears cried a dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn’t possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe his lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn’t treat us the way we should be treated.

Here’s for the ones who did their hair and makeup and put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn’t see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn’t believe that he could do this to us again. This is for those great girls who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn’t bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder “what if.”

Here’s to the girls who couldn’t cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn’t bear to even tell their mom what was going on for fear of an “I told you so.” The ones that could just tell that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts and their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.

Here’s for the ones that finally realized that he never gave a shit about them. Here’s for the time he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here’s for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it’s better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt. Remember the times you cried and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When “your song” comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the hell he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn’t him, and realized that once again, he hadn’t called when he said he was going to.

One day, you’ll find a guy who’s worth your tears, but won’t make you cry. You may think that you’ll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It’s gonna hurt like hell, and it’s going to need time to heal, but the point it, it will heal. This is for those girls, who fell back in love with a guy, only to get hurt all over again… and we’ll never understand, how he just stopped caring.

drama irritates me as do stupid little bitches and skaaaaanks.i like when things go my way. im THE most unorganized person but i get by just fiiine.i like not having to depend on anyone.i like basically all music i'm a sucker for country though.sometimes the best cowboys ain't cowboys at all. I CANT WAIT FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!!! i basically live at rexall place. i tend to be there alooot. concerts and watching my boys in blue. mm mm mmmm. i want to travel the world.i love summer more than anything. i get over things quickly cuz i think being upset is pointless. my ipod is my boyfriend. i love those times when you KNOW you look good. i am very goodluck for the oilers. i miss a whole lotta people but i know they're watching over.i really like football.i loved the ainlay football games i'll miss them! i like to only look good on weekends and the occasional evening.i really wish my hair would grow SUPA loooong.i absolutely love drunken ladies nights.i can't handle blood but i want to be a doctor.i like a nice tan. hypocrites bother me especially when i'm the one being hypocritical.rudeness is unnecessary.big johnny rat fucking rocks. i hate when people can;t just be happy for you. and people who are extremely selfcentered or who think they are never at fault. i like to go on shopping sprees by myself. i loove bikinis. and parties,but i've learned they don't mix well.i love snuggling and those perfect moments when things just couldnt be better. a kiss is worth a thousand words. my body gets sassy with me everytime i drink which is ver annoying,.my brain likes to go blank when i write exams.i love big trucks.i'm not an idiot so don't treat me like one. i love halloween. i absolutely dispise my braces and not being able to say the right thing when i need to.i have a bazillion amazing memories that i wouldnt trade the world for.things fall apart so that others can come together. not all boys are evil. negative people bother me.. go whine to someone else. most of the time i believe in fate. i hate when my parents are psychos.i am the queen of text messaging.i dislike the use of dot dot dot (...)i think that everyone needs to get over themselves. i dont like copy cats.i have an unability to do homework. i'm a party girl but im a big fan of cozy movie nights too. i'm addicted to grey's anatomy.i absolutely love it.i am usually quite frazzled.i really hate being judged..or having things assumed about me or being accused of things i didnt do. i like giving people the benefit of the doubt.spa lady and i have a love hate relationship.i dont regret very much at all.i guess i like the whole everything happens for a reason theory.laughing is my very favorite thing to do and i think everyone should do it a little more often. and i love it YEEAAH and i love it. thats some young jeezy for ya. enjoy

Cause I live my life to the limit and I love it

The hardest thing about growing up
is that you have to do what's best for you
even if it means breaking someone's heart.
Including your own

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The longer I live the more I believe
You do have to give if you wanna recieve
There's a time to listen, a time to talk
And you might have to crawl even after you walk
Had sure things blow up in my face
Seen the longshot, win the race
Been knocked down by the slamming door
Picked myself up and came back for more

Life's a dance you learn as you go
Sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow
Don't worry about what you don't know

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Gonna live it up in this town
And dance like the song is never ending
Gonna get so high tonight
You won't be able to bring me down


It's a silly time to learn to swim when you start to drown


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