I don't know what to do..
One day I am happy.,
next day I am glum.,

I don't know what to do..
I wasn't happy with you here,
I am lost with you gone.

You have'nt help me
when your feet were on land.
What makes me think different
when your flying?

I don't know what to do..
It's been a while since you left.,
But it feels like it was yesterday.,

I don't know what to do..
should I cry?
should I whine to people?
should I bottle it inside?
should I let it go?

I don't know what to do..

I need you.
but i was to scared to tell you
when you were there,
just a phone call away..
couldn't tell you,
arms length away..
still couldn't tell you.

I don't know what to do..
to move on,
and be actually happy,
and not hurt others..

I don't know what to do...



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if you had put that drink down
youd still be here today,

i knew every bottle you drank
at everyday and night
i knew you would go.

if i had said something
youd still be here today

IF, just IF you truly loved
your kids.
youd be here right now
with us.

i knew deep down
you didnt care about any of us
only the navy.

if you didnt join the navy
youd still be here.

I knew i had something to do with it,
i sorta blame myself.

if i had said something
youd still be here..


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you leaving us
impacted me so much
no one has a thought
of how much i hurt
during everyday.

people treat me like shit,
damn rumors,
damn gossip,
damn school.

you leaving us
impacted me so much
no one has a thought
of how much i hurt
during everyday.

is there a reason i am still here,
and you not?
is this a life lesson?
im trying so hard to keep my mouth shut,
and not say anything to anyone.

you leaving us
impacted me so much
no one has a thought
of how much i hurt
during everyday.

ever since you left
things have fallen out of place.
i needed you more then i thought.
i need you to tell me what to do next.
mom, brothers, and i miss you Father.

you leaving us
impacted me so much
no one has a thought
of how i hurt
during everyday.

you leaving me...
litterally killed me inside,
you gave me no chances to get to know you.
now i have NO chance
at all...

Thanks...