Wow.
You've truly out bitched yourself.
I don't understand how everything could possibly be MY fault.
But according to you everything is.
You're in a pissy mood,
So the boys get into something, my fault.
They start screaming or fighting about something, my fault.
You can't find something and start freaking out, clearly, my fault.
They're fucking BABIES.
They're going to scream.
There's two of them, they're going to fight over toys, and be irritating sometimes.
You should know considering you had two of your own.
Don't take your shit out on them.
Then two seconds later be all lovey like nothing even fucking happened.
I just don't understand how you can be such a bitch, all the time.
Like honestly.
Nothing I ever do is good enough for you.
Every decision I make is wrong in your eyes, whether it makes me happy or not.
YOU'RE the one who agreed to watch them.
It's not their dad couldn't.
So you get pissy and leave them with me, while you play fucking facebook games.
Great responsibility there.
God.
And you wonder why I'm getting out of here as soon as fucking possible.
' You're not only the best girlfriend in the world, you're also something else as well.
I don't think I've ever told you but you're my best friend.
You make me laugh and giggle, cheer me up when I'm down and make a smile out of my frown.
You are the gold medal.
A shining diamond, a hidden pearl.
You're everything I've ever wanted and ever needed.
You make me feel complete baby.
I love you, you're my everything. <3 '
1. Who is the last person you held hands with? Lovingly? Colin. Just cause? Probably daina. =P
2. If you were drafted into a war, would you survive? Most likely not.
3. Do you sleep with the TV on? Yes ma'am.
4. Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton? Yes.
5. Have you ever won a spelling bee? Maybe?
6. What is your longest fight with one of your friends? Yearish?
7. Are you a fast typer? Sure am.
8. Are you afraid of the dark? Yepp.
9. Do you like someone right now? Unfortunately haven't stopped yet.
10. What ended your last relationship? Lies, deceit, betrayal, lack of love.
11. When's the last time you chose a bath over a shower? I don't choose one over the other I have both.
12. Do you knock on wood? Yuhh.
13. Are you drinking anything right now? I wish.
14. Do you think you're attractive? Not really.
15. Have you ever been in love? Yes.
16. Do you miss someone right now? Always.. ):
17. What do you want for Christmas? To be happy. That's all.
18. Do you know the muffin man? Who doesn't?
19. Do you talk in your sleep? I have.
20. Do you remember your 1st crush? Possibly? =p
21. Have you ever flown a kite? No. ):
22. When was the last time that you went swimming and where? Jesus uhhhmm, recenter, malia's birthday party? so last october. =p
23. Do you consider yourself successful? In certain ways.
24. How many people are on your contact list of your cell phone? Not many, it's just a loner.
25. Have you ever asked for a horse? Actually no.
26. Plans for today? Get out of the house hopefully.
27. What did you do this past weekend? Got drunkkk.
28. Miss being at school right now? Not whatsofuckingever.
30. Do you want to be single? No! ):
31. How are you feeling today? Same as i felt the last couple weeks. Who am I kidding? I'm not better.
32. Describe your crush? Kind of a douche in all honesty. But I didn't know that part. The person I knew though, I loved with all my heart.
33. Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school? Noope.
34. What are you looking forward to? Getting better.
35. If you could be stranded with one person for 24 hours who would it be? Prolly daina. we'd make it somehow. =p
36. Do you bite your nails? Yessss. ><
37. Have you ever eaten dog food? Not that I'm aware of.
38. Can you handle the truth? I could've. Never got the chance though.
39. Do you like green eggs and ham? Oh fuck yes.
40. What 3 things do you always bring with you to places? Phone, chapstick, backpack.
41. Any cool scars? A few actually. (:
42. You are missing in action? Am i?
44. What's your deepest secret? Dunno man.
45. How often do you talk on the phone? Probably more than I should.
46. Do you believe in love? Sure do.
47. Is there something you want that you can't have? Yes yes yes. ):
48. One thing about the opposite sex that you first notice? Eyes or smile.
49. When was your last time you cried? Two days ago.
50. Who did you last hug? My mom.
51. Do you get along with your family? Mostly.
52. Where is your phone? My room.
53. What was the last thing you ate? Hersheys kisses.
54. Favorite color(s)? Turquoise and green.
55. Last movie you saw? Raaango.
56. What song are you listening to? In my head, Sparks Fly - Taylor Swift.
57. What do you want? Everything back to the way it was before.
58. Does your crush know you like them? Uh huh.
59. What T.V. show are you watching? None.
60. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Daaaina.
You honestly make absolutely no sence to me.
You just have to fight me on absolutely EVERYTHING i do.
Nothing is ever good enough, and i don't understand it.
I'm not as terrible of a child as you make me out to be, you know that?
As far as you know, i've "fucked up" once, by having sex.
Ooooo, big fucking deal!
So because i made a choice, that i felt ready for, and DID think about, even though according to you i acted without any thought, that clearly makes me an irresponsible, idiotic piece of shit?
Is that what you think?
That because, in your eyes i did something "life ruining" to both you and me, that that's it for me? there's absolutely no turning back. I'm fucking DONE now because i made the worst possible decision i could've made in my entire life, and now it's all over.
Well, you're fucking wrong.
That's not who i am, and it's not over for me.
I will make something of myself no matter WHAT you say or do.
I will be happy, i will be different.
You wanna try and control me? and lock me away so i'll be with you forever, and never be able to mess up, and make mistakes, and get passed them and be happy?
Go ahead.
Try.
But i can guaren-fucking-tee that you won't win. You will not break me.
What really gets me, is the fact that you act like my life, and everything in it, is pinar compared to you, but yet acknowlegde that i do go through some shit, and i don't complain about it, and then on top of my world, you leave me with all your dirty work too.
What do you REALLY have to complain about? Honestly?
I understand, that it's hard having two kids maybe a bit earlier than you wanted to, and having to do it on your own was tough.
Yes, we had it hard when we were younger, and we went through some pretty hard shit. But what's important is that we made it past all of that.
And we can be happier now.
You have a decent job. You have a decent position, you make decent money.
You work near your children, live with and near your children and grandchildren, but you still have to make my life a living hell any god damn chance you get.
The only thing i will complain about, is that you've made me go through so much more of life then i should've.
I am your child, and you treat me like a fucking adult screw-up, while still using your authority over me to drill me into the ground.
You put me in this place, in this environment.
You kicked me out, you locked me in.
You just can't make up your fucking mind about what you want with me.
And i am tired of it.
This is MY life, and i will do with it what i will.
I will continue to love my boyfriend with all my heart, even if for some retarded reason you believe that i don't really love him, and its not going to amount to anything.
I will leave this place, and go to school away from here, because it's best for ME. Not satisfying to your inability to let go.
I will get married, and have kids, and treat them well.
And listen to them, and help them, and support them.
As well as dicipline them.
I will be happy, and healthy, and proud of what i am.
But mostly, i will be absolutely nothing like you.
- *Watching 13 going on 30*
"Ohh, why she so sad? where's Zac Efron?"
"...that's 17 again honey. xD"
- jessica there's ducks up here!
- "jessicaaa loves my rhymes, and also when i play the chimes!"
- You know my absolute favourite sound, is your heart beating? (:
- I love how cute you think i look when i fall asleep on you.
- "Yeah, I could grow old with you. (:"
<3
Shiiiit.
I don't even know what i'm going to do now.
Stupid planning class. Actually making me think about my future. ><
I should be working soon and all, but that also means rent.
Which will most likely come back to me, but still.
That was kinda a giant slap in the face you know?
You want me to stay home so badly, yet you're kinda pushing me to leave more and more every day.
Plus, you're leaving. ):
I have no idea what i'm going to do.
There's not much time left in all honesty, this year has gone by waaay too fast.
I would normally love it, but it's killing me now.
I don't wanna think of being here without you.
But i do like, alll the time. ): there's no avoiding it.
And i know its something you have to do, it's just going to be so hard.
I love you more than anything, I can't imagine life without you. <3
2010: In The Beginning
Where did you go on New Years? When it turned 2010, I was at a wedding.
Did you kiss anyone on new years? Yes.
Who were you with? Shone and his family.
Did you make any resolutions? Yes sir.
2010: All about YOU
Did you change at all this year? I did a lot.
Did you dye your hair? Yes.
Did you get your hair cut? A few.
Did you get good grades? In some areas. =p
Did you have a job? Yess.
Did you drive? Sure did.
2010: Your Love Life
Did you break up with anyone? Yes.
Did you fall in love? I did. (:
2010: Friends and Enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year? Sure did.
Did any of your friendships end? Yes they did.
Did you dislike anyone? Who didn't?
Did you make any new enemies? Probably =p
Did you resolve any fights? Maybe a couple.
Did you grow apart from anyone? Yes.
1. Have you had any relationships this year? I have.
2. Have you had your birthday yet? Yes.
3. Kissed two or more people in the same night? No haha.
4. Been on a diet? Not that they have worked but yeahh.
5. Pulled an all nighter? Tonnns.
6. Drank Starbucks? Indeeed.
7. Gotten sick? Yeah. ><
8. Bought something(s)? Well duhh.
9. Met someone special who changed your life? Yes Yes Yes. (:
10. Been out of the province? Nawhh.
Intimate details on '10
What are you thinking about? How much I wish I got that kiss. And how much I wish you could've been with me too. And how much I miss you. <3
Would you get married if you could right now? Pooossibly.
How did you feel when you woke up today? Bleeehhhh haha.
Are you good at hiding your feelings? Nope. (:
Could you ever be friends with someone that broke your heart? I tried, but it didn't work out so.
If you could change your eye color would you? Maybe just to see what it would look like.
Who did you last get into a big argument with? Probably my mom.
Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend? Yuhh.
Do you like to have long hair or short hair? Looong.
Would you be able to tell someone you love them, even if you didn't feel it? Not about that. I couldn't really tell someone i love them when i don't.
How do you currently make your money? Bitch work. xD
Do you want to get married & have children one day? Dying to!
Which of your friends do you argue with the most? Probably daina, but best friends have stupid little shit arguements all the time. =p It's how we are.
Have you kissed anyone in the last 4 hours? No! ):
How many texts are in your inbox? 5. =p
Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they love you? Yepp.
Who was your last text message from? Colin. (:
Who was the last person you rode in a car with? Mooommy.
When was the last time you cried really, really hard? A few nights ago at boy meets world! ):
Who took your profile picture? iiii did.
Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth? Cry over the truth i suppose.
What’s on your bedroom floor right now? Clothes and shit. =p
Do you trust people too easily? Yes, yes i do.
Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life? I actually am. (:
Have you ever cut class? I have haha.
Have you ever liked someone a lot older than you? Yepp.
If you had a baby with the last person you emailed, what would the baby' s last name be? Uhhh, Larsen? =P i'm pretty sure the last person i emailed was myself haha.
Last thing you ate? Cheese and crackers.
How many people are you texting? None right now. ): he's sleeeping.
Will you be in bed within twenty minutes? Perhaps.
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had? Juice. (:
Could you ever forgive a cheater? Ehhh, i just had a dream about that. ): and well, probably, but it would hurt.
Is there a boy that knows everything or almost everything about you? Well he knows quite a bit. (:
Have you told anybody you loved them today? I have! (:
Do you make every decision as if your parents are watching? Oh fuck that haha.
Do you like to run? NO.
Do you put candy canes on your Christmas tree? Uh huhhh. (:
Do you get snow where you live? Unfortunately. ><
Do you believe in love? I do.
This year have you ever been heartbroken? Quite a bit, but it's over now. (:
Do you think 2011 will be better? As long as I have you, baby it'll be amazing. <3
- Kay, I don't even know you, and you're really starting to piss me off. He's done absolutely NOTHING to you, and you're way over-reacting at nothing. Stop putting him through this. For someone older, you still got a lot of growing up to do.
- Knock it off. Holy fuck. You can be SUCH a whinny little bitch! Like, jesus christ! Get over it! I'm happy. You need to move on. You can't just keep dwelling like this. It's just pissing everybody off. I didn't ruin shit. You only have yourself to blame.
- Well, hope you're happy. I'm truely done with you. (:
- God, you pms more than I do. What does that say about your manhood? You KNOW nothing was going to come of you and I, and you just gotta be the bigger, and more mature adult and accept that. Considering you are the older adult. It's not my job to spell it out for you.
- God you make me sooo happy. (: You're like nobody i've ever known. It still astounds me more and more everyday how lucky I am to have you. Every second, is like heaven. I swear i'm dreaming baby. You're everything i've ever wanted and more. I love you with all my heart. (: <3
- I haven't actually done anything. Could you please stop acting like I have?
