you're a fucking joke
hahahahhahaha

dear dad
my grad was on friday, i wish you could havebeen there
everyone looked so beautiful. im so proud of myself for doing it
i see pictures of a father daughter dance and that makes me wish u were here even more
im sorry u werent alive to see one of these moments in my life
but ill never forget you
ur always in my heart dad

"WHO THE FUCK SET THE SMOKE ALARM OFF?!"
"Sorry ryley that was me....i took too big of a toke for the house to handle.."
"ATTA GIRL CELESTE!!!"
ahahahahahaha

i called and called and the phone was off....
for days
so i call today and then hes there!
BRILLIANT!!! i fuckin love it
i love him
hes the best friend i could ever have

she doesnt even know...
she comes up to me like nothings wrong
like i didnt stab her in the back and
i just took anyhting she ever wanted away
im a horrible person
but it was gooooooooddddd
hahahahaha

dad,
why cant you be here for me!
u promised that ud start coming back into my life and then u die
now i have no one. i need you so muchhhhhh
and ur not here to protect me
i just want to be able to come live with you
i want the person who actually named me and wanted a girl to raise me
i miss you so muchhh.....and i know u were a really bad father but ill always love you
you made me........and i just wish u were here to help raise me
now more then ever do i need you
fuck i wish u could come to me
i miss youuu

H: So did u guys go for coffee?
C:no just hot chocolate but it was so hot i had to blow on it for a long time.
H. nice!....was it worth it?
C: it was alright....the cup was too small and it only had one sugar cube
H:only one?
C: yeah i didnt think it was normal but it happened
C: like i said....at least it was hottt
ahhahahahahhahahahahahhahaah
omfg

awesome party on saturday night!
im buying a berr bong nowww
just fuckin awesome

so i had the gayest dream ever
i dreampt that i had a huge blister on my lip and that it was skin cancerand they had to romove my beautiful lips
so when i woke up and they were still there i washappy....but now my eye is soo fuckin swolen....itshalf closed
i dont even know why its swolen
but it hurts and it keeps watering

what kind of boyfriend tells all of our friend b4 me that he doesnt want to be with me? he didnt even plan on telling me.......i had to hear it from his best friend....whos also one of my very best friends......it hurt so bad.....how do you react to something like that?.....well yeah i did dump him because i knew he feltthat way.......but i want him back so bad
i dont like thiss

on my way to vernon i saw an olllddddd
friend drive by! i havent seen him in like
a year and i wish that i knew where he was
so we could chill...it makes me so mad that
im always too chicken just to go up to someone
even if they are a friend. so dumbbb......well
hopefully he'll stop by
that'd be greatt

i cant even believe that i actually just had the day i had
its so overwhelming i just really am totally stunned
i dont even know what to say about it



ill explain:
LG:Did u and jeremy go out?
ME: yeah we did
LG:oh yea well we talk on the phone for like 4 hours all the time and all he talks about is you
ME: thats nice
LG: yeah well hes haning out with me after school so could you tell him to meet me by the elementry school?
ME:..........................




this "LG" is the gnarliest grade 7 i have ever seen...shes twice the size of me....and yeah..thats huge!!!! shes soooo sickkkkkkkkk! i just cant even believe it. and hes gradding this year...he peer tutors her!!!!!!
omfg and then the one girl that i really dont like says to me "is thats all thats bothering you? well just get over it...its not that big of deal" IF YOU COULD EVER ACTUALLY LOVE SOMEONE MAYBE YOU WOULD KNOW ITS GOING TO BOTHER ME YOU DUMB SLUT.......

i cant even talk about it anymore....im at the point where all i can do is laugh that this has happened......im so done with ittt